On Friday night I suffered from an inflammation of my lower intestinal tract. It started with a massive ‘traffic jam’ caused by a pileup the last few days (too busy, working, sleeping late preparing for family event etc etc, no time to care for my own health, the usual crap) which resulted in me trying too hard and making the ‘road block’ even worse.
The inflammation caused external and internal swelling, to the point where flow to my bladder was blocked. I was unable to pee despite drinking lots of water. My abdomen started to bloat. Altogether it was a disturbing feeling. I could barely get in and out of bed. I couldn’t walk but hobbled back and forth from the bed to the toilet every hour or half hour on Saturday morning. The pain was so great I didn’t feel sleepy.
Finally, I saw a doctor who put things back in where they should be. I’ve been on medication since. At the same time I was trying to respond to people’s urgent text messages, emails and then I decided to ignore everything because I was in so much pain, everything else didn’t matter.
Ironic, isn’t it. I decided that many things I’m doing aren’t worth sacrificing my OWN health and time. I feel like I’ve lost control. I’ve said NO a few times already but I should be saying NO even more, because:
- I haven’t had time to read all the books I’ve bought half a year ago.
- I haven’t had time to learn how to fully utilise all the music production software I’ve bought.
- I haven’t even had time to meet up with someone who could be a potential life partner (ha, how’s that for perspective???)
- I haven’t re-organised my room.
- I haven’t resumed my gym sessions, two years after hurting my back.
- I haven’t had time to meet up to discuss a potential radio show.
- I don’t have time to continue griping on this blog … so let’s leave it for now. It’s a long list.