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My family just did a weigh-in to see how many kilogrammes we gained from our stay in France. Everybody gained weight except me - I lost over 2 kg! I am ecstatic, and want to share with you how I did it.

Despite visiting some very good restaurants in my last week when family was around, for the previous 7 weeks I was conscious of what I ate, my jeans and slacks became loose and now I have to get a new wardrobe. I thought my clothes were getting loosened up in the wash, but now the weighing scale tells the true story! I attribute my weight loss to various factors, starting with diet.

While I was in France, lunch would usually be something light at home, or a main course in school. For 3 to 4 euros you could get a very decent meal at the INSEAD restaurant. As I’m working to reduce my cholesterol, I usually went for grilled salmon (or other fish) with mashed potatoes and vegetables. We can take as much as we want of these side dishes. Occasionally I would have some red meat or pasta, all cooked on the spot as well. If I was in a rush, I would grab a baguette sandwich which usually had tomatoes and salad along with meat.

Dinner would be at home. My housemate and I took this 2 month opportunity while living in France to experiment with our own recipes, since we usually didn’t do the cooking at home in Singapore. We would buy salad (my favourite being arugula/rocket) or large heads of lettuce, and lots of tomatoes (also my favourite). My housemate would buy lots of fruits and remind me to eat them. We had grapes, apples and bananas (my favourite because it’s easy to carry around in school), and sometimes, strawberries. We never bought red meat. The last dish I recall cooking was mustard chicken salad.

Still, the food in France was so good that it was difficult to resist eating too much. The breads, the cheeses, the wines and the champagne were all too tempting! So we had to exercise. I joined the INSEAD gym at 85 euros for two months. It entitled me to a few sessions with a personal trainer who came up with a regimen for me. That workout nearly killed my shoulder, so as I was recovering I stuck to leg exercises like cycling. Eventually I moved back to my favourite machine, the cross trainer. I went to the gym once a week. I wanted to go more often, except I didn’t have classes in school every day and there were other things to do. I lived two towns away from school so it wasn’t exactly round the corner for me. However, the classmates who saw me at the gym were very encouraging. One groupmate of mine ordered me to go faster!

Also, after a full meal, my housemate and I would sometimes go brisk walking around our neighbourhood. She would also jog regularly around the area. I would have joined her if my knee was better, but walking was good. Since French towns tend to be spread out, we covered a fairly large area each trip. I think we kept each other motivated. Also, in May and early June the weather was still cool so outdoor exercise was quite appealing.

Even when sightseeing, one can do brisk walking from one point of interest to another. Some towns have long, steep slopes and cobbled pavements to make it more challenging. I and R did lots of walking in Paris, skipping a few Metro stations and once, we climbed several flights of stairs to the exit because an elevator seemed to take forever to arrive. What disturbed me was seeing a number of young people panting up the stairs, along with some elderly folk. R was quite fit and we were one of the first to emerge from the subway station. I think hanging out with him inspires me to keep active as well!

So in short: When living in a country that has really good food, eat the healthy dishes more often, like grilled fish and vegetables. If you indulge in rich foods, do it in moderation. Join a gym, and/or find other opportunities to exercise. Partner up with someone who also wants to get more exercise, so that you motivate and challenge each other. Think of how fit you want to be and work towards it. And do it now!

Graduating

July 1, 2009 11:40 PM | Comments (0)

I’m graduating tomorrow with a Masters in Business Administration (MBA) from INSEAD.

After that, I need to make a big decision on my future. The big question is whether to do something I’m comfortable with and well-known for, or whether I should use this opportunity to take on something new. But a career change is difficult in a tough job market. I know a senior of mine is still holding out for a specific position, braving unemployment for several months. I hope to start work sooner than that, but also want to make the decision that is best for me and for whichever organisation I work for.

A lot has changed in 10 months. Externally, the world economy took a massive hit, forcing us to relook the way business should be conducted. Even while learning the basics of Finance and Accounting, I felt that being good at numbers was just the beginning - interpretations can be subject to biases and loopholes can be exploited. We learned that no two evaluations are exactly the same. I also learned it’s not all about the numbers, but about the people. You can have the best brains in the world, but if people don’t want to work with you, you won’t be number 1. And at INSEAD particularly, I saw the world getting smaller as I worked with bright people from all over the world. My eyes were opened, even wider than they already were.

Internally, I’m emerging with different thoughts than what I had when I began my first term. I felt encouraged to start new things again. My skin has grown thicker. I have a few options, but I’d rather have just one very good, clear-cut choice for everything important in life. On one hand I want to make an big impact wherever I work; on the other hand, I also don’t want to be taken for granted, and the question is how to ask for what I feel is right without appearing arrogant, because that’s not what I want to be.

Time to sleep, though my head is filled with heavy thoughts.

Personality type = job type?

June 28, 2009 7:52 AM | Comments (0)

It’s nearly 2am in Geneva and I spent my night searching and applying for jobs. Then I decided to revisit my Meyers-Briggs type indicator (MBTI) to confirm I’m searching for the right line of work. Ever since INSEAD, where everyone had to take the test, I’ve been curious to use the MBTI to improve relationships and clarify our purpose in life.

According to this site, as an ENFJ I can be any of the following:

  • Fund-raiser (haven’t done that yet - unless I really run out of money or want to launch my long-awaited album. Does selling tickets for the ACJC Fun-o-rama count??)
  • Recruiter (yes, I’ve managed to convince people to join my team)
  • Marketing Director (that’s one of the roles I aspire towards)
  • Content Editor for Web Site (done that)
  • Special Event Planner (haven’t dared to try that)
  • Christian Ministry (done that - mainly through worship, website outreach, facilitating groups)

So it sounds fairly close.

Then I learn from some discussions that Jesus could’ve been an ENFJ too. Whoa! How would they know for sure? As a Christian, I believe Jesus is God, and as God is omnipotent and omniscient and created the people who thought of the MBTI, Jesus should be everything rolled into one. An extrovert as he preached to the masses and met many people; an Introvert at the Mount of Olives as he sought quiet time with God. Sensing and yet Intuitive of His surroundings. Feeling for people yet clear in His thoughts as He debated with unbelievers. Perceiving, yet ultimately… Judging!

But of course it is nice to know that God in human form is thought to have my personality type… I have, of course, far to go and will never be perfect, but God, help me get closer to it. Also help me find the right job where I can make a difference (with career progression)!

I learnt today was that a well-respected colleague, Dr Kwang Yoke Pin, passed away recently. At first I thought there was a typo in the message sent to me. A quick bit of Googling, however, led me to find another blog post from a former colleague which mentioned her passing away. Her medical class also wrote numerous farewell notes for her, on their group blog. Even if you don’t know her, the number of posts and what’s written in them will easily attest to how well-loved she was.

Her passing has saddened me greatly. I interacted with Dr Kwang Yoke Pin a few times while we were on the same task force and it was a positive, enjoyable experience. I learnt more about her from what others said about her, which were all good things. She was very passionate about her work and was always cheerful.

I did not know her well enough to say much more, but I’m sure her department and her patients have many fond memories of her. I am sorry that she has gone. My deepest condolences to her husband, son and daughter.

How ironic it is to be reminded that even as we work in public health, we are not invincible ourselves. This post goes out to all the unsung heroes who have served the nation for many years.

Rest in peace, Dr Kwang Yoke Pin. You will be remembered.

The elusive R

March 22, 2009 2:25 PM | Comments (0)

The ‘meet the friends’ sessions have begun. Last week R and I attended the wedding of one of my Bristol law classmates and he got to meet a lot of people I was fairly close to.

Last evening, R and I attended my childhood friend DC’s wedding. What’s amusing is that I knew of DC’s wife before she even met DC, because she was the sister of my Bristol law classmate, SE. It’s a really small world in Singapore.

So anyway, the first people we met at the wedding was SE and his pregnant wife, JW, also from my uni. I introduced R to them (using his full name, of course) and SE said something like, “Ahh, you are the elusive ‘R’!” He then told me that if I made an announcement on Facebook, I should not leave things hanging, like the name of the boyfriend!

Halfway through the dinner I decided to look for my parents, who were friends of the groom’s parents and were sitting near the centre of the ballroom. Then I realised my aunt and uncle were there too! So they met R as well.

Then I saw my old CEO, Dr L, at one of the VIP tables, and she was waving to me! I went over to chat, and also introduced her to R. Then I realised one of my Directors, Dr RV, was at the same table! And she’s a really good sport, I like her a lot, so I chatted with her as well and introduced her to R.

She said ah, she heard something about me getting a boyfriend! I was stunned! A Director knows about my boyfriend?!?! Apparently one of her Deputy Directors, possibly Dr WML, told her about it (ahem!). It must have been through Facebook! News spreads fast - even to senior management!!!

As I was talking to her I suddenly realised that our Minister was sitting at the same table! But since I haven’t officially met him I decided that was as far as I’d take it. What could I say - “Minister K, sir, I took Minutes at one of your meetings… and BTW this is my boyfriend!” :D

Next weekend another group of girl friends (mostly from Bristol and NUS) will be meeting R at a birthday brunch. And I will also be meeting more INSEAD alumni - friends of R. It reminds me of the song “The more we get together”, for my friends are your friends and your friends are my friends…

So I think the aura of mystery will, in time, be replaced by familiarity.

My views on...

March 17, 2009 12:43 AM | Comments (0)

At the rate things are going, I have to rename my blog as it is surely no longer ‘daily’. Even ‘weekly’ would be good. Anyway I tend to be Twittering and Plurking and updating Facebook much more often than once a day so I hope that evens out my blogging GPA :)

I have a few things to say about all sorts of issues and will stick them all into this blog post:

SXSW and other conferences

Yes, I am forgoing all geek conferences and hoping not to experience withdrawal symptoms this year. Getting Twitter updates from friends at SXSW is painful enough, though I can live through it. Also I was invited by a classmate (Ivy leaguer) to attend a tech conference at his alma mater in a few weeks’ time. Turned it down. No money to spare, and I’d miss classes. ‘Keep telling myself next time when I’m back at work, earning money, maybe I can do it again…

Expats to blame for joblessness?

‘Saw a Plurk comment on someone else’s account about how more Singaporean grads are jobless. One commentor asked if this was due to foreigners taking the jobs. There was also a similar comment on the ST web page itself. I have to agree with the Government’s stand on encouraging foreign talent, even in difficult times. I believe in meritocracy, and if the foreigner’s truly better for the job, and able to get along with locals despite not being one, then so be it. Remember also that many expats have created new business and jobs for Singaporeans. If you’re anti-expat then I’m afraid I can’t hang out with you, in case all my brilliant and multinational classmates (some of whom are planning to work or start businesses in Singapore) are unwelcome in your presence. And don’t forget, some expats also do jobs that we snooty Singaporeans don’t like to do - like serving other people. [Update: New ST article says most new jobs that went to foreigners were in the construction sector.]

We act like we deserve to get hired and keep our jobs, but it’s a two-way street. I think we can still improve our own attitudes towards serving other people (the Filipinos beat us hollow at it), our language skills (how many of us can speak English / Mother Tongue fluently without having to throw in words from other languages/dialects?), our general knowledge and our social graces. Of course, sometimes it’s really not the employee’s fault, but perhaps a few things could be mitigated, like being politically aware of one’s situation, establishing good relations with your superiors, making yourself essential, or at least start looking around for a job when you sense things are unstable. I’m of the belief that more things are in your realm of influence than you imagine (but of course ultimately it is still God’s will, to those of us who believe in a God).

My own job search

People are asking me what my plans are. Well, assuming that I can indeed hold my own, “meritocratically” ;-) I hope to move into a position where I can actually make use of what I’ve learnt in my MBA, regardless of whether I go back or move on. I still love social media, but I also want more depth and breadth in my outlook. There is no point in returning to the same type of work after graduating from a top business school. If I don’t have the chance to apply anything I’ve learnt, I might as well not have spent 10 months and good money on my degree. I would do better to work in another organisation that appreciates it.

What sort of company would I want to work for? I’ve been in all sorts of environments (small startup, big local monopoly, public sector) except an MNC, so that would be a possibility. However, according to the psych tests I’ve taken, I also desire some degree of control, i.e. knowing that my decisions/actions have made a difference. This doesn’t necessarily happen in large organizations which tend to behave like bureaucracies. There are thus tradeoffs between what I’d like and what I’d have to give up.

Another desire is to lead a team of people. Of course, I want to do a good job, because this affects other people’s lives. My Dean has a name for people with fancy titles who aren’t up to the job - Leaders In Name Only (LINO). It’s a good reminder to myself not to be like that. Also, work culture and good bosses are very important to me. That’s the reason why I stayed on in my last job, and if you ever asked me about my wonderful ex-boss I’d tell you about him, possibly with tears in my eyes. Trust, good guidance and minimal processes let me do my job quickly and it felt like I was still in a dotcom. I had the feeling of ‘flow’. It is so amazing, like getting high doing work, being very innovative and productive, and I’m not sure if many other people have had the privilege of experiencing it. I believe it can be regained with the right environment. The search goes on…

What I've been up to

March 5, 2009 10:47 PM | Comments (0)

A short list on what I’ve been up to, of late.

Reducing clutter:

  • Unsubscribing from some mailing lists that send emails I’ve lost interest in reading
  • Filtering other emails and archiving them immediately, so my Inbox looks less intimidating
  • Throwing out old notes, putting in new notes.
  • Eventually, scan my old handwritten notes and throw the paper versions away. Burn all my INSEAD notes onto a disc and frame it up (ha!)
  • Deleting unwanted iPhone apps and adding new ones that increase my productivity.

Applying for jobs:

Times are hard, but I’m doing an MBA precisely because I wanted to enhance my career opportunities. Older folks are telling me to just take what’s offered already and go for stability; younger folks are telling me to pursue my dreams and choose something that can position me better. I’m making a move for a few positions and next week the big consulting firms will be visiting us, so things should get exciting very soon.

Collecting spare change:

Apparently I made US$9 on my blog advertising last month. It may not sound like much, but it’s better than expected, considering it involves pay per click and not just impressions and I haven’t been blogging as much as I used to. Thanks to whoever’s been visiting and clicking :)

Making travel plans and a move to France:

My next term starts in May in Fontainebleau. I and a fellow sister in Christ have found a little cottage to stay, along the River Seine. It’s nothing grand but more importantly I believe I’ll be in good company in a quaint neighbourhood.

Right before my move to France, I will be travelling through India on a study trip.

Social stuff

Attending lots of weddings this month. Roughly one a week. Phew! But this time I’m bringing my Mr R ;-) and in some cases, he’s bringing me.

Two's company

February 9, 2009 1:16 AM | Comments (0)

So, just in case some of my friends missed my change of status on Facebook: I’m attached. It happened last weekend. And it feels Right! Let’s call him R, for short.

Two of my girl friends were particularly excited for me, since they had met R at the same dinner. Turns out that R and I were from the same business school (he was an alumnus, and I, an aspiring graduate). We also happened to love technology. So we started comparing the apps on our iPhones and it turns out that we had a few of the same apps. Great minds!

In any case, R and I met up the next day for one of our favourite indulgences - foot massage! We found out we had other things in common. We’re both pretty advanced piano players. We love the same types of food. He’s definitely more fit than I am but my fitness will keep improving when we go on our brisk walking dates.

We went cycling on Saturday and it was the best workout I had in ages. 25km, all the way to the Changi Village jetty and back.

It helps that R has gone through what I’ve gone through, and understands how demanding my course is. Exams are in 2 weeks and I have a few graded assignments due this week and next, accounting for large chunks of my final results. Time management is so essential now. Fortunately, my family has been supportive of everything.

Gotta sleep now. The story has just begun…

Looking back at my 2008

January 14, 2009 6:35 PM | Comments (0)

2009’s come so quickly that I haven’t even written anything retrospective, or come up with resolutions. But here are highlights / what I liked about 2008:

January 2008

February 2008

March 2008

April 2008

May 2008

June 2008

July 2008

August 2008

September - December 2008

The origin of Christmas

December 25, 2008 9:14 AM | Comments (0)

Now that I have the Logos bible study software on my Mac, I consulted it to learn the origin of Christmas. My two main questions were:

How did the name ‘Christmas’ come about?

According to Harper’s Bible Dictionary,

Christmas, the annual festival commemorating the birth of Jesus, celebrated on December 25 in all churches except the Church of Armenia, for which it is January 6. The term appears as early as a.d. 1123 in Old English as ‘Cristes maesse’ (and variations) and ‘Christmas’ by 1568, meaning Mass of Christ.

Why is Christmas on the 25th of December?

This question has been in my mind for a while. After all, it’s not like the Bible recorded the exact date Jesus was born. I’ve read reports on how the actual date may be different but for various reasons, the Church settled on the 25th. According to the same dictionary,

The actual date of Jesus’ birth is unknown. There is no evidence of celebrating the nativity before the third century. January 6 became widely observed in the third century to commemorate the ‘manifestation’ (‘epiphany’) of Christ on earth, including his birth, baptism, and the visit of the Magi, with varying local emphases. The celebration of the nativity is attested in Rome in a.d. 336 (where Epiphany, January 6, commemorated the visit of the Magi), and this became widespread in the fifth and sixth centuries. Although there are various theories on the selection of December 25, the most widely accepted is that this date had already been a major pagan festival, that of Sol Invictus, the ‘birth’ of the ‘Unconquerable Sun,’ marking the winter solstice (the sun’s triumph over darkness). With the triumph of Christianity, Christmas replaced the pagan festival, Christians having applied ‘Sun of Righteousness’ (Mal. 4:2) to Christ.

I think that there’s no need to quibble over the most exact date because that’s besides the point. We should look to the spirit of the occasion and those who believe should see this as a special time to celebrate, anyway.

A blessed Christmas to you!

On Christmas Eve

December 24, 2008 11:58 PM | Comments (0)

On Christmas eve morning I visited my colleagues and joined the department lunch party. Then I went to town to look for golf bag covers. I went to Tangs (in real life, not Second) to spend some vouchers. Then I went home and helped mum prepare for the Christmas party. The turkey and ham was excellent, and the rest of the pot luck food was great, too.

I’ve been moving about the whole day without coffee and am really sleepy now. Good night and Merry Christmas!

A productive day

December 23, 2008 11:00 PM | Comments (0)

I had a productive day:

  1. Sent the car for servicing. Repaired the blown fuse in my cigarette lighter which I use to charge my iPhone
  2. Met up with ex-colleagues from Fynch for lunch. Took lots of photos of
  3. Went to SGL at Sim Lim Square to buy RAM to upgrade the family iMac and my MacBook Pro. Got SGL staff to upgrade the MacBook Pro on the spot. Bought a cooling unit for my MacBook Pro so it won’t get hot so easily.
  4. Went for Bible Studies
  5. Successfully installed the new RAM in the iMac by watching the instructions on Youtube
  6. Tomorrow I will be going for a HPB reunion and catch up with people.

(Observation: When times are hard, instead of buying new cars and new computers, we service them and replace or upgrade existing components.)

Other things to be done:

Go to Tangs (in real life) to use up a voucher that’s expiring really soon Visit golf shops to look for covers for our bags when we fly to Vietnam on Boxing Day Pack for the trip! Finish editing the INSEAD Dash video Fix the darn comment problem on my blogs (probably by removing a Typepad comment script I installed which worked initially) Upgrade to the latest version of MT. If it keeps giving me trouble I have half a mind to move to Wordpress. Seriously, after all these years, I’m getting fed up

Vacation plans

December 19, 2008 12:51 AM | Comments (0)

In several hours I’ll be on a cruise to Penang and back. I will be back before Christmas, but my schedule is filling up. After Christmas I will be playing golf in Vietnam. Next week:

  • I will be back at HPB for a department party and to catch up with everyone
  • I am resuming Bible Studies with my new cell group :)
  • There will be a Xmas party at my place (family/clan only)

Geek-wise, these are what I’m planning to do:

  • Play with my newly-acquired Bible software for in-depth study
  • Complete production of the INSEAD Dash video
  • Produce new songs in my studio (finally got my keyboards and sound system working again)
  • Upgrade the RAM in my Macs
  • Trying out new games on my iPhone
  • Starting development work on my iPhone app idea; testing it out with the target audience

Comments in my blog have somehow screwed up, which is interesting because I haven’t done anything to it (like, I don’t even have the time to mess it up?). My web server has been acting up a few times each month and spam attacks are bloating my database size.

So if there’s something important you can still send me a message separately. But I may not reply until after my holiday. Enjoy yourselves in the meantime!

On being "hardworking"

December 17, 2008 1:21 AM | Comments (2)

‘Hardworking’ was a label that teachers used to describe me. It was in my report cards for some years since Primary school. Presumably, it’s one of many commonly-used terms and teachers had to write reports for 30-40 plus students in each class, and I’m sure that some of my readers also have similar experiences. Still, I remember seeing that word occur often enough to remember it even up to today.

Tonight I had an interesting conversation with a classmate’s friend about a study he read on why certain races are more hardworking (ahem, i.e. Asians) compared to others. It can be traced back to our farming roots. Rice, grown in Asia, required regular tending, while wheat (European) needed somewhat less attention, and finally maize needed the least work (New World - South America). These racial tendencies apparently superceded individual personality traits. (I have yet to locate this study, so if anyone knows the source please send me the link).

Being at an international business school seems to have accentuated the differences to me, as we’ve noticed conflicts over working styles. Some classmates (from the rice and wheat) want to complete the work immediately, while others (from the wheat and maize) feel the work can be done later. So far it is consistent with the farming analogy. However we also depersonalised the differences as we had taken the Meyers-Briggs Type Indicator and when there are conflicts we will say “Oh, it’s because I’m a J (Judging) and you’re a P (Perceiving)”. So this study takes things to a new level.

Whatever the case, as we progress in our careers, I think it’s not that great a label to be known foremost as ‘hardworking’. That’s what Dick Cheney called Hillary Clinton today, among other things. Being ‘hardworking’ doesn’t give you the best-run Presidential campaign, nor the ability to control infighting or boost your team’s morale. Yes, being hardworking is a positive virtue (unless in some cultures you are seen as more ‘uptight’, competitive and harder to get along with). But being labelled foremost as such raises expectations that you will put in longer hours for the same pay (thus lowering your overall value), that you may be more willing to do the dirty, menial or technical work while other people ‘manage’ and ‘strategise’ above you.

My French language teacher, a Mauritian who’s half-Asian, told me he worked so hard that when he quit his last job his company had to hire a few people to replace him. I empathise. This has made me question how I allowed my own boundaries to shift.

Of course, it’s worse to be lazy than hardworking, but we need to address a perception - at a personal level, and for some of us, at a racial level as well. You don’t hear CEOs and other leaders called “hardworking” first, above other things. At that level, we expect words like “brilliant”, “strategic thinker” and “inspirational” to describe the very best of them (and given current times, “honest” would be great too). “Hardworking” is for the peons, the grunts and whatever other low-level computer game characters (who do menial things like chop the firewood and build houses) are called.

The upfront presence of ‘hardworking’ doesn’t negate totally other qualities but it reduces their luster. How likely will you see these pairings in a report on someone:

“Hardworking and strategic” as opposed to “hardworking and meticulous”

“Hardworking and inspirational” (apart from describing community workers and saviours of society, up to Mother Teresa level)

I’d say these combinations are possible, but are more likely a mismatch. The trick is not to suddenly become lazy - that’s like cutting off your nose to spite your face - but to show you can work smart, not just hard. That you work so smart you don’t always have to put in lots of overtime, unless that’s the company culture you’re in, in which case it’s a separate issue.

So: If you’re no longer in school, no longer very young and inexperienced, and “hardworking” is still the first thing that comes to mind when you are described by your boss and peers … maybe it’s time to emphasize other skills that can put you in a better position instead.

A disturbing dream

November 27, 2008 4:46 PM | Comments (0)

Earlier this week, I had a strange dream. I dreamt that I and a group of classmates were sightseeing in another country. Being a dream, I did not know the name of the country but it felt like a more exotic Asian country, bustling with nightlife and low-lying shophouses.

As we walked down the street there was a ruckus from behind, and a car drove up and stopped in front of us. There were about three dark-skinned men men with serious, determined faces who asked for directions, then sped off. Being in a dream, I was omniscient and somehow knew they were terrorists making a getaway, and so did my classmates. My male classmates jumped into the next taxi to chase the terrorists, while I and 2 other girls jumped into another taxi to make a police report. Strangely, the police station was right in front of us, but it was difficult to reach as there were many extremely small steps which made it difficult to climb up, plus there was a metal/wired gate all around. So we had to get to the police station in a most roundabout way, and the road in fact took us further away from it. I woke up before we reached the station.

As I recounted this dream just now to one of my female classmates (who was in my dream, in the taxi with me), she asked me what day this dream occured. I said it was 2 days ago. She said that would be Tuesday, and added that she may be superstitious but she heard that if you have dreams on Tue, Fri and Sunday they will come true, and if you have dreams on other days then the opposite will happen. I suddenly remembered the terrorist attacks in India and wondered if there could be any link or whether it was plain coincidence. I would prefer it to be the latter, because the alternative would be a terrifying gift, especially if you cannot interpret it well, or cannot do anything about it anyway.

This has made me realise that prophets had to be strong-willed, as they had to risk their lives by telling people things they didn’t want to hear.

Updates!

November 23, 2008 12:43 AM | Comments (1)

Apologies for not blogging as much. I was horrified to see, prior to this, that my home page had only one post because everything else has been archived. Efforts have been channeled to the INSEAD blog, and even then I am running out of time and things to say. My thoughts for the past few weeks, in summary:

I am glad that Obama has won, in case you didn’t see me dressing in all blue in school to indicate my support for the Democrats. However no party or philosophy is perfect (nothing made by man is), there is a shitload of fixing to be done. I think it makes sense for Obama to send his kids to the best school for them, but at the same time work on fixing public schools. He does not have to react in a knee-jerk fashion to criticism, but still he must be careful not to go back on his word too many times (e.g. campaign funding). Clinton as Secretary of State? Looks most likely, and career-wise it is a promotion for her - First Lady role not counted.

School has been very hectic; I am actually beginning to miss work, because no matter how stressful it was, I had a greater sense of control over the outcome. We have been doing crazy things and the past week was possibly the funniest ever. I will try to provide more details in the other blog when I next crawl out from the rubble of homework and impending exams. I wish I were in the Cabaret considering how I used to write stories (and was President of the ACJC creative writing club - ha!) and compose and produce music… but my efforts are focused on the exams, Student Council and being the incoming president of the Technology, Media and Telecoms club (formerly High-Tech club). Quite a handful already.

Personal life wise, I haven’t been actively searching, but something nice happened very recently and that’s all I can say for now.

My resolution to exercise every morning is an unrealised one thus far. I work late and therefore sleep late, thus am in no mood to exercise in the morning before school. I even dreamed about waking up early and exercising, only to wake up in real life to find out that I hadn’t. It’s a travesty, especially since I have a home gym with treadmill, weights and a cycling machine. Plus my health has recovered so I can resume exercise. Really, no excuses. You may nag me about exercising when you next see me. Maybe that will rile me into actually doing it.

Time to sleep.

On personal positioning

November 23, 2008 12:23 AM | Comments (0)

I attended a former classmate’s wedding bash and asked to meet the lucky man who was now her husband, to offer him my congratulations. She told me it was good to meet him because he was also a headhunter. True, even though I wasn’t desperate for a job it would be good to make first contact with him.

However I think I need to update some of my old friends regarding my career plans, because the first thing my friend said in way of introduction was, “Vanessa is a web designer!”. I immediately received a job offer … to redesign his website.

I haven’t officially been a web designer for, like, 5 years. Yes, in my last job I whipped up web pages and newsletters during emergencies or when there wasn’t anyone else to do the job, but most of the time I would be managing online communication channels, vendors, giving advice on new media strategies, monitoring popularity of our websites and keeping our blogs and social networks going. So I added quickly that I used to do it, but not anymore; I said I was currently doing my MBA at INSEAD. That changed the subject matter of the conversation.

I’m not in denial of what I’ve worked as, but neither do I wish to be pigeonholed in a role that I no longer seek. I still value the substance of good design, and will implement it as far as possible in any work I do. But I think I really need to meet up with old friends more often to make sure their well-meaning statements actually help my positioning ;-)

Thanks anyway, A, and have a wonderful marriage!

Health update

November 1, 2008 3:05 PM | Comments (1)

Went for my last checkup and fortunately didn’t need to have another scope. The internal bleeding has subsided though there is still a pocket of blood that hasn’t yet dissipated. I’ve completed my 2nd round of anti-inflammation medication and am raring for a spot of exercise. By next week I expect everything to go back to normal.

This weekend I will be revising for my Prices & Markets (microeconomics) makeup exam on Monday. Because of my health checkup and my forthcoming exam, I decided not to go for Podcamp #2 this morning, as much as I’d have loved to. Hopefully this period things will get a little easier for me and I will be able to regain a bit more of my social life.

Exam fever

October 18, 2008 10:47 AM | Comments (2)

Yesterday I woke up with chills. I thought it was just the air-conditioning, but the chills remained for a while, even after a hot shower.

During microecons class, my section learnt that we came in first, beating other sections from Wharton and Fontainebleau. Within my section, my group came in third! The top three groups received chilled champagne from our professor and we drank it on the spot. Then we gave him a huge sending-off and drank a lot of Tiger beer.

Thus by the evening I thought my queasy stomach was due to the alcohol consumed earlier in the day. I went home for dinner then went back to school to study. I was even queasier and felt like puking as I drove home.

When I came back I learnt that other family members had it too - and even worse than me. I tried hard not to purge myself, took antibiotics and went to sleep. In the middle of the night I woke up and finally puked out my entire dinner. Then I had surge after surge of diarrhoea. Altogether this kept me up till 4+am.

By the time I fell asleep, my alarm rang. I decided to skip the 8.30am microecons tutorial and the 10.30am stats tutorial because I was still not feeling good. However I absolutely cannot miss the 1.30pm finance class because this is the only chance we have to learn how to answer a past year paper. I will probably try to sit away from the others so they don’t catch my bug.

But what a terrible time to fall ill!!! My exams start on Monday and it’s not like I’m a quantitative genius who already knows how to answer every question - I’m still trying to understand things, especially topics that we only just learnt the last week or two!

I think I need to bomb the loo one more time… Altogether, it is really a terrible feeling.

All hands on deck!

October 5, 2008 5:26 PM | Comments (0)

I am postponing all social engagements until after my exams*. I won’t be responding to emails, comments, showing up at dinners or anything that will take up too much time. Likewise I won’t be giving my input on links you want me to check out, or long articles to read. The only other things I’m doing now is bible study (finally resumed it after being spiritually empty for the last 1-2 years) and French class as I need to pass it to graduate with my MBA. My major club involvement at INSEAD will be the High-Tech club and our Second Life conferences, but again I hope to be more involved after the exams.

Math and finance whizzes may find this period a breeze, but I and some others are taking this quite seriously. I know things will get better next period onwards, but for now I’m trying to keep my chin up so that my nose can stick to the grindstone.

  • Declaration: Just in case you see me in town on Monday and think I’m being naughty - I’m popping by after school to see some overseas friends for dinner then going straight home to work. Assignnment deadline is the morning after!!

Weekly wrap-up

September 29, 2008 1:45 AM | Comments (0)

This is a weekly sum-up, because I have no time and not much of a life anymore. This week, I :

  • Was advised by various classmates to be more assertive and drop the Asian humility because everyone else isn’t like that.
  • Celebrated my dear friend Monolog’s birthday.
  • Continue to be on medication for a blood clot accumulated from internal bleeding.
  • Did lots of schoolwork. Still behind but am able to work out most stuff on my own with some help from groupmates.
  • Am preparing for 2 graded assignments and a graded quiz this week.
  • Nearly went to Formula One but couldn’t be in two places at the same time, and I don’t like being rushed.
  • Had a sleep paralysis moment 2 nights ago with a disturbing blackish object appearing beside me, muttering chants into my ear. It was not a pleasant experience being unable to move and defend myself, but singing hymns in my head drove it away.
  • Asserted myself at home and got into a shouting match because of it, but I got my point across. Long-missing boundaries need to be enforced in my life.

Taking charge!!!

Updates

September 15, 2008 12:15 AM | Comments (0)

All the activity is happening at my INSEAD blog for now, so head over there if you don’t mind reading ‘back to school’ insights.

I am contemplating going to a church retreat in JB but alas it’s in the first week of my second term and I am not sure if I can skip Friday classes to make it on time. We’ll see how that goes. I doubt there are many people my age who’ll be going…

Other good news: Perhaps due to being back in school and feeling stressed like a student again, I’ve had tunes popping in my head and have been scrambling to record them down. At this rate I may have a new album by the time I graduate. Pity my G5 PowerMac’s broken down and I haven’t had time to send it for repairs yet. So I have to switch to my MacBook Pro to make music already. It runs Logic Pro just fine, but I haven’t got an audio connector yet.

Anyway, this post is getting geeky so I should stop blogging and go to sleep. It will be a looong Monday.

Busy weekend plans

August 31, 2008 1:26 AM | Comments (0)

A quick update as most happening things are, well, happening on my INSEAD blog. Survived the orientation week but it will continue into next week where I will hopefully join some interesting clubs. My team is working fine and we are all contributing in class discussions.

Social life apart from INSEAD is down to a minimum. I can only spend time with my nearest and dearest - family and friends. Body is aching from Outward Bound. Thinking of getting a massage but I am collecting my iPhone at 3pm at Comm Centre this Sunday … anyone feeling bored can join me while I wait in the queue. I think 24 months is too long a contract because by then there’ll be an iPhone 4G with two cameras or iPhone 3D or whatever Steve Jobs can churn up that will blow our minds once again.

Sunday I have a Bristol BBQ party, but at the same time there is an INSEAD BBQ. So I imagine that I will get the iPhone, dash home to charge it if necessary. I may have to skip the INSEAD BBQ because I haven’t seen my uni friends in a while. We’ll see if I can squeeze it all in! And Sunday’s supposed to be my day of rest? :P

Last week of respite

August 23, 2008 11:03 AM | Comments (3)

This is my last week before officially starting school. Apart from 2 meetups with friends that were made several weeks ago, all my time has been spent going for French classes every day, doing French homework, catching up with my pre-readings and in the last couple of days, meeting up with classmates.

I think I’m going to take it easy socially and see how it goes in the next two weeks. I hope life can be close to normal, but I’m really not too sure about that. Next week, I will also take my French test to see if it meets INSEAD’s third language requirements. Wish me luck!

Of Koi and Autobots

August 15, 2008 6:15 PM | Comments (3)

We have a pond of koi (colourful Japanese carp). They are generally happy and friendly. Over the week, one of my sister’s koi died. Interestingly, it was full of eggs. It is apparently rare for koi in a normal house pond to breed and get pregnant.

We thought that was a one-off incident - until the next day, when one of my koi died. I named all my 3 koi after the Autobot leaders. I wished it had been Ultra Magnus because I didn’t think much of him as a leader, but alas, it was Optimus Prime.

The loss of a pet fish is nowhere near the loss of a dog which you could at least hold and communicate with. However, I’ve known most of these koi since they were babies. I would tell guests at my home about how I saw the baby koi explore their new pond on their first day. The baby koi lined up in a row and the one in front would swim headfirst towards one of the oxygen pipes in our pond which was producing lots of bubbles. Then the koi would relax and get blown away by the bubbles. I even saw the koi’s mouth open up, like it was enjoying itself! What was amazing was how the koi after it would do exactly the same thing. They were like little playmates, taking turns to enjoy their jacuzzi playground.

Koi

The koi as adults, in happier times.

Even as adults now, when they see us they swim towards us (especially when they’re hungry). Our chagoi - a black species of koi which looks scary but is the friendliest of all koi and is usually seen as the leader - would be particularly communicative and would make first eye contact with us. I call it Koizumi, after the Japanese presidentPrime Minister who was then in power. Thankfully, it is still alive. We cannot have a leadership crisis in the koi pond.

We will be getting replacements for the two Kois that just died. Optimus Prime may have been killed, but he lives on through the Matrix. In the meantime, Hot Rod has of course been elevated to Rodimus Prime and will be the leader of the Autokoi for now. The new koi shall take on his name, new movies shall be made and his figurine will be available in various limited edition collections ;-)

I will be commencing the Business Foundations course at INSEAD this week from Monday to Friday. While lessons end at 3pm, we are expected to spend another 5 hours doing homework every day.

Thus, I do not expect to have any social life outside of INSEAD. If all goes well I shall still be able to see my family members :)

INSEAD update

August 10, 2008 1:25 AM

Just a quick update: INSEADers are great socialisers. We went out on Friday and Saturday and those taking the Business Foundations Course will have a dinner together on Sunday.

Since I’m local, I’ve helped my newly-arrived classmates with various things, mainly giving advice about where to buy things. As I don’t have a particularly strong sense of direction, it was amusing that I was now the one-eyed leading the blind, although I give thanks to Google Maps which is now my Oracle.

Ironically, being in Singapore for so long, we take some things for granted. Some classmates are fascinated with Singapore and I am glad to explain its history and culture to them - from Independence to Mas Selamat ;-)

At the risk of sounding humorously stereotypical: The French are impressed at our efficiency and the fact that nobody seems to be going on strike. The Spanish have realised they cannot kiss and touch any stranger they’re introduced to immediately, although I quickly assured them that since we’re at INSEAD, the uber international school, we will not mind :) The Westerners are now aware that they don’t need to tip for service. Another classmate just learnt that coffee, when ordered at a kopi tiam, comes with milk and sugar already added in it. It is such a fascinating series of ongoing observances that I must catalogue it.

I will be mentioning the rest of my business school experiences very briefly on this blog as most of my experiences will be recorded on the INSEAD blog. It’s for those who are interested in my life as an MBA student, those who wish to apply to INSEAD and those who are curious about studying business in a global environment.

Renewing my IC

August 5, 2008 11:15 AM | Comments (2) | TrackBacks (0)

If you’re Singaporean and are about to turn 30, you have to renew your Identification Card (IC). I realised that around my birthday, when I received a letter from the Immigration authorities citing the Regulation requiring me to do so.

The letter

The letter sounded a bit stern, but I told myself I’d get round to doing it - after my trips to Berlin, London and Bangkok! Then I was sent a first reminder and thought I’d better act fast!

On taking photos

July 28, 2008 1:44 AM | Comments (1)

We’ve all had terrible shots taken of us from time to time.

As we grow older (and fatter and more speckled, etc) the likelihood of this occuring increases. Some tend to feel especially self-concious when standing beside someone who’s prettier / taller / slimmer than they are.

But to this, I say: So what?! So what if there is someone else in this world, sharing your photograph, who happens to have some feature that you’d like to have? Unless you’re a supermodel or Miss Universe, there’s bound to be some imperfection somewhere. I expect my highly educated girlfriends to be able to withstand being in a photo where they look less than perfect! :P

Of course, my own feelings come into play here. I pride myself on being able to take decent photos. If you ask me to retake (and retake, and retake) a photo which I think looks perfectly fine, it gets annoying and it implies that I suck. I like taking candid shots because people are themselves, not posing with a forced smile. Sometimes the angle isn’t what they’re looking for, but that’s how I usually see them anyway, and I think they look fine. I would never be so evil as to upload a photo of a friend which I think looks terrible.

So pardon me if you felt there was actus reus, because I can assure you there was no mens rea.

Over the years I’ve felt like confronting the situation by responding, “But you normally look like that, what.” God knows how many times I have swallowed that phrase. I value my friends for being beautiful inside, above physical appearance, and they should have nothing to be insecure about.

I’ve been photographed at events for magazines, and even if the photographer shows me what he’s taken and I think it could’ve been better, I don’t make him retake it. As can be expected in group shots, there is always some other damsel who is younger / taller / slimmer / better dressed than we are. Short of having my bra exposed or an olive stuck in my teeth, the photo is probably just fine. The rest of the world won’t notice or care unless you’re a celeb. If there are other girls who are happily bitching that you look worse than they do, then let them bitch because they’re just insecure and they can think whatever they want.

To re-iterate, I don’t upload photos which I think are terrible. The truth is, I think my friends look fine just the way they are. I’m not going to sit around altering people’s faces because they don’t feel pretty. I can do some quick cropping but really don’t have the time or inclination these days to do major touch-ups.

So there. No hard feelings, girls, but I want to set the record straight :)

Gmail junking valid emails!

July 26, 2008 1:17 AM | Comments (0)

Oh dear oh dear. ..

I noticed that Gmail was applying the ‘Junk’ filter to a lot of valid emails. Many of them seemed to be just newsletters, but I was also disturbed that it had also filtered emails from my own family, my Media Socialist mailing list buddies and other good friends whose email addresses were in my Address book.

Tonight I went through my Junk folder in detail. Imagine my horror when I saw an email from Adam Greenfield, author of Everyware, asking me (and any other Singapore readers) to hang out with him at Changi when he was in Singapore.

He emailed me in Sep 2007, which was LAST YEAR!!!

This is so embarassing. I just sent Adam a note. I really loved his SXSW presentation on ubiquitous computing. I gave it a full 5 stars. Despite attending lots of panels at SXSW for 3 years in a row I’d still say his was the most mind-blowing presentation because it represented a tangible and exciting new future and I learned the most from it.

My job in Health Promotion would also have been related to some of the examples he gave in his presentation and it would have been marvelous to have met with him.

The question now is, how did Gmail apply a Junk filter which I never asked for?

I suspected it was my syncing Entourage for Mac with Gmail’s IMAP … however I did a timeline check and Gmail only launched its IMAP service in Oct 2007, a month later. By right, all emails sent via my Contact form on my website, should appear in the Inbox. However it and many others were marked as unread and in Junk. From that period onwards I noticed a few other emails sent via my Contact form had somehow landed in Junk too. I still can’t figure it out.

One thing worse than having email overload, is not even receiving important emails in the first place!

I have been meeting up with many friends over the past month and thought I should list out my schedule here. It has been filling up rapidly.

I have something on almost every day, until the end of July. And I have French classes in the mornings.

I still have 3 evenings available for the first week of August. The week after, my Business Foundations course starts. The timetable states that we should allow 5 hours per day for homework!!! So I do not intend to go out for dinner. At most, I may hang out with classmates especially if we have to discuss the homework together.

The week of 18 Aug still looks clear, although I would like to keep a few days free in case anything school-related crops up. I notice that INSEAD is taking the opportunity to organise visits to potential employers’ offices during this time. I may spend that week hanging out with my new classmates as they settle down in Singapore, if they’re interested.

It is scary how time flies. Soon I will be back in school after 8 years in the workforce!

Hobbling

July 17, 2008 2:20 PM

I sprained my ankle yesterday as we were about to leave for the airport in Bangkok. I stepped onto an uneven, cracked pavement, my foot slid and now my left ankle is in a bandage. I think it’s more of a sudden muscle pull but I am not taking any chances.

However I need to return to the office to hand in my pass and do some other admin stuff. And before that, I need to run other errands. So I will be hobbling around town today…

While I may be in London and Bristol this week, I will not be contacting most of my friends in the area.

Dear friends, I don’t mean to avoid you, but we have a busy schedule and I don’t wish to be the black sheep in the family.

My very good friends will probably understand what I mean :P

On hobbies

July 6, 2008 10:50 PM | Comments (0)

I discovered to my horror, while at a recent ‘welcome the new staff’ session, that when asked what hobbies I had, there was nothing significant to speak of. If you asked me this question over ten years ago, I’d have given a few answers:

Reading. I still read but in bits and pieces. My mind’s been conditioned to read for the web, and I find myself jumping from book to book, as if they were hyperlinks. I now have plenty of books on my shelf that I’ve wanted to read, but had hardly any time to read them.

Art. I stopped designing web pages and have given up doing anything fancy to my blog. I used to be a great cartoonist up to ACJC days (where my comic books would be confiscated by teachers), and then somehow while studying Law, things dried up.

Music. Despite doing less heavy reading and drawing, I still continued to write music in my home studio for the usual audience of one (i.e. me). At most I’d let a few very trusted friends in on my projects, as they would give constructive advice. You could say music was the last frontier remaining. Then, in February this year I stopped my Jazz piano lessons because I lost the drive to practice. As my hours grew longer I lost the will to sit in my studio, make recordings and figure out technical glitches between my PowerMac and other equipment. I just abandoned the studio, too.

I don’t suppose playing Mob Wars on Facebook counts for much of a hobby, and it’s time to wean myself off these time-wasters anyway.

So in effect, I did have hobbies but somehow they kind of … hob-bled away from me.

I hope to renew my lost loves now that I have a short break before the killer course begins.

Since possibly 30-40 people have asked me similar questions over the past few weeks, I have decided to compile this FAQ which I can, regretfully impersonally, refer them to when I don’t wish to repeat myself over again.

Q. You’re leaving?? Where are you going?

I am going to do my MBA at INSEAD.

Most people know I’m leaving for further studies but a few think I’m leaving for a new job. I’ve never applied for any new jobs in my 4 years at HPB. All offers made to me were flattering, albeit unsolicited, and rejected.

Q. You’re doing an MBA … in what?

In business, lor! MBA = Masters of Business Administration. If you meant to ask what area I’m specialising in, my business school doesn’t officially have specialisations but we can opt to take more modules in a specific area.

Q. INSEAD … what’s that? / blank stare

INSEAD is one of the top European business schools and currently enjoys a #6 ranking from the Financial Times (2008), one place below Harvard, which many Singaporeans hold in awe. It has the widest alumni network in the world because of its strong international focus.

Q. Where is INSEAD?

INSEAD has two campuses, one in France (Fountainebleau) and in Singapore, near Biopolis / ACJC.

Some think that the France and Singapore campuses are separate, and the former is harder to get into. This is not the case at all. We have every right to choose which campus to start in and switch to. However, Fontainebleau has the larger campus and thus there are more opportunities for interactions with classmates and tutors. The plan is to gradually give each campus equal weightage in student population.

Q. So will you be in France or Singapore?

I will start in Singapore, since I heard the earlier periods will be quite tough and it will be more convenient to stay at home then. In my last 1-2 periods I intend to move to Fontainebleau, since it has a larger student base thus I can interact more. But it also depends on which modules are available on which campus, and whether I need to go for interviews.

Q. Wow, France is so nice! Maybe I should come and visit / bunk in / etc.

Don’t think about it. This is an accelerated Masters with a very competitive environment, not an extended holiday. I am going to focus on doing well and interacting with my new classmates, with whom I may only have 2 months to know better.

Q. When does your term start? (one of the most popular questions, and complicated to answer!)

Officially 1 September BUT there is a lot to prepare for it!

Firstly, we must all enter INSEAD already with 2 languages under our belt, and we have to graduate with a third language. Since the INSEAD MBA is an accelerated course, we pack what US schools take 2 years to teach, into 10 months. So you can imagine how tight things will be.

On top of that, we can’t graduate until we pass a test in our third language. You can either study for your third language before term starts, or in the midst of lessons which is not a good idea unless you have no choice. So I am studying French now and hoping to pass the RELC examination set for INSEAD students, in the last week of August. Wish me luck.

Q. Oh, your term officially starts in September? So you must be quite free now …

Don’t call me free, baby. See above answer.

Q. Why INSEAD and not NTU / NUS?

INSEAD is ranked much higher than these local schools. For business schools, reputation is important, although I agree that beyond paper qualifications it is still what you can contribute as a person. Also, INSEAD is truly international. And they’re partnered with Wharton for an exchange programme, so if you want top US MBA experience, there’s always the option.

See Why I Chose INSEAD for more details.

Saying goodbye

July 2, 2008 5:57 AM | Comments (2)

I’ve had 4 action-packed years at the Health Promotion Board. Yesterday was my last official day. I was deeply moved by the farewell lunch and speeches, tickled by the farewell video and the many kind words said to me. Many colleagues have become friends. The most common goodbye phrase was “See you on Facebook!”

I wish the new New Media team well, despite having little time to brainwash familiarise them with all the work that needs to be done. But hopefully things will settle down now there are more hands to lighten the load.

I will be back, popping by to clear up my cubicle and also to say goodbye to some people I didn’t get to see on my last day. Technically, I’m clearing leave…

No turning back

June 21, 2008 11:55 AM | Comments (1)

Over the past couple of weeks I have been asked numerous times about my plans for the future, why I’ve made certain decisions and whether these plans can be reconsidered.

My plans have been fairly straightforward. Like any young person, I seek an environment that allows us to learn and grow, where we can be empowered and challenged. Alternatively, we will seek new opportunities and cut our own path.

In any case, I had long planned to improve myself with a Master’s degree. This was made known in writing years ago. Over the past year, I decided that an MBA would teach me many things that I would not be able to learn on my own, at my present position. I was also at a suitable age and turning point in my life. So I acted on it.

God was truly gracious to grant me a good GMAT score and a place at INSEAD, which was top of my list, so I believe it is also HIS will and not just mine. And even though I’ve heard the course can be gruelling, it will also be a great experience, with the opportunity to meet dynamic individuals from around the world.

I believe this is the right move, as I can contribute far more when my passion for certain issues is complemented with added knowledge and skills which can benefit any organisation.

Also, I understand that the MBA is not just a piece of paper that I can fling in someone’s face just to show I’m somehow better, or that my opinion overrides theirs, whether or not it makes more sense. Those who’ve worked with me will know that’s not my style, anyway. I will start my course with priority on vastly improving my knowledge, contributing my 8 years of work experience to group discussions, making new friends and creating new opportunities.

And so I stand by my first decision - to pursue my MBA.

As for the other decisions? To be continued…

Today's schedule

June 16, 2008 7:37 PM | Comments (1)

This morning, I intend to:

  1. Wake up at 7am or latest, 7.30am after taking lolling-around time into account
  2. Run on the treadmill to burn off fat accumulated from consuming too much German beer and sausages
  3. Shower and get my hair into some semblance of neatness
  4. Have juice and freshly-ground coffee
  5. Go to work for a quick meeting
  6. Dash off to the film studio and possibly spend the rest of my day at the film shoot. Look out for something new on YouTube, soon ;-)

Let’s see if I can accomplish all of this today…

Discontinuation

June 8, 2008 12:26 AM | Comments (0)

I suppose I should be excited about my travel plans and starting a new phase of my life, but my mind is set on cutting off things that have been part of my life until now.

The next year of my life will be intensely gruelling. For what is hopefully a better future, I am prepared not to see my friends and family, to work till midnight every day during my course. That is what I am told could be life as an MBA student in a top school, if my groupmates are difficult to work with. Apparently we are put together purposely to clash, so we get used to multi-cultural issues and are prepared for a more global role.

Other things will also have to make way. To cut down on emails, which have become a chore to read since I get hundreds every day, I am unsubscribing from mailing lists and warning people I will not be contributing so frequently. If unsubscribing doesn’t work I will start marking emails as spam. I won’t answer queries from my website asking for web design or hacking iPhones. Go look somewhere else - I’m no technician.

And to PR agencies who’ve never bothered striking up a meaningful relationship with me, yet send me generic press releases expecting me to blog about their client’s product launch - FORGET IT. If you treat us like a dime a dozen, we won’t give you even two cents’ worth.

To conserve my physical energy, I have turned down three invitations in a row and backed out of other social commitments. I’ll do what is best for my health and won’t tire myself out. And I don’t owe anyone a reason why I cannot make it.

I get random calls on my iPhone. I won’t return them if the number’s unrecognised. Unfortunately the iPhone doesn’t recognise numbers if the caller ID has a +65 in front of it while my Address Book doesn’t have it, or vice-versa. It’s too much trouble to go to my laptop, key in the numbers and search through my Address Book to see if it’s a friend. If it’s really important the person will call me again. More often than not, it’s to make me sign up for another credit card, and I’m not going to be earning money for another year, so scram.

I won’t meet up with people who suddenly tell me they’re in town and want to meet in an hour’s time. They can do something else. I will continue doing whatever I was planning to do. This has happened 3 times in the past few days as well. Sorry guys, give me advance notice next time.

And my new principle is: If I’m treated just an afterthought for anything, I will cut off ties and move on to something new. Following advice given by a good guy friend, VL: If you’re trying too hard, it probably isn’t working out. There are many other people and opportunities out there. If you’re not valued, or it’s not shown until it’s too late, then move to another (bigger) pond.

Since I’ve announced my MBA plans, I’ve been approached by a number of people asking me to freelance while studying.

My answer to this is: No. There simply isn’t enough time, even if the work involved is more strategic and less operational.

Those who are not familiar with what studying for an MBA entails - and even more who are unfamiliar with INSEAD’s system - may not realise there will be no time for such things.

Doing a full-time MBA at a top business school is already challenging. The classmates I’ve met so far are brilliant; many already have more than one degree, and are already high-flyers in their organisations. What’s more, our MBA syllabus is compressed into just 10 months while many American schools may take 22 months.

I want to dedicate my time fully to doing my MBA, and doing it well. What precious little time I have left will be spent with family, loved ones and friends. And that’s that.

Birthday summary

May 25, 2008 11:22 PM | Comments (2)

Had a great dinner with my SCGS girlfriends on Friday at La Forketta at Dempsey Road. We had a lot to catch up on. We called another schoolmate long-distance to wish her happy birthday as well, as that was the actual day for her.

On Saturday I had lunch with my mum and sis as usual, and then I did some shopping. Bumped into a Bristol Uni law junior along the way, had coffee with her and met two of her friends. Headed to Margarita’s at Dempsey for dinner and drinks with my Bristol Uni mates, and then to Angelshare a few units away for Bellinis. Talked until we realised it was just past midnight, and then the glass-clinking began.

On Sunday, I went to church as usual, had lunch with the clan, went to the driving range and did pretty well considering I had not practiced in perhaps half a year. Most of my shots went a decent distance in the right direction, and my drives were decent, almost as good as when I was playing more regularly. Had dinner at Gyu-Kaku where we cook our own BBQ meats. So glad my grandfather, who’s had a poor appetite lately, had finished all his food and the birthday cake my dad had sweetly arranged for. Ultimately it is not about going to a super fancy restaurant, but enjoying time with family and friends.

Not shyly, I congratulated my parents for their 30th anniversary of being parents, my aunts for becoming aunts and my grandparents for becoming grandparents :)

I have a couple more dinners to go over the next week. Should be great fun.

Birthday plans

May 18, 2008 2:17 PM | Comments (1)

I never thought the day would come, but soon I will be starting a new decade in my life. Ugh. I feel so old! The only consolation was that another Singaporean INSEAD classmate thought I looked younger than her, and she’s only 28, so that made me feel better :)

Up to recently, I harboured thoughts of organising a huge bash, inviting friends from all walks of life to party-party. But that’s more like a 21st birthday bash. At this rapidly maturing age, I’d rather spend quality time with each group individually instead of flitting about from table to table.

So. These are the dinner dates already arranged:

  1. With my nearest and dearest SCGS schoolmates. 22 May, venue TBC but in the company of cultured foodies like Dimsumdolly, Monoceros and Fatgirltales, I don’t think we can go far wrong. And yes, we will all wear dresses, OK?

  2. With my former bible study mates and church friends. Booked for 23 May (venue TBC) and 31 May (Min Jiang at Rochester Park, yum yum).

  3. Family - probably on the day itself. Nothing planned yet.

That’s all for now!

And happy birthday today to another old SCGS schoolmate and ‘bad tennis’ partner, Tinkmartini, who is celebrating by climbing a mountain. It must be a HUGE mountain, for her to begin climbing at age 29 and descending when she’s 30 ;-P

Cancellations

May 16, 2008 9:06 AM | Comments (0)

Just cancelled my French class this morning as we have an urgent rehearsal before an event this afternoon. That’s three lessons in a row this week, which confirms my suspicions it won’t be possible to study an intensive course and do my kind of work at the same time. And this is just to meet my third language requirement so I can graduate next year!

Come Fall, we will be fully submerged in a heavy-duty MBA syllabus, squeezing what US schools take nearly 2 years to teach, into 10 months. Some classmates may still be learning their third language during this time, which will be tougher on them. This is why we have all been advised to clear our third language requirements before starting school.

I really hope to take and pass my French exam before starting school, but at the rate I am going, it is not heartening. I have to carve out some real personal time to catch up with the rest of my language classmates now. Hopefully this week’s series of urgent events will be one-off and I won’t be required to cancel my leave again.

On lateness

May 14, 2008 12:06 AM | Comments (2)

It is disturbing to see myself becoming tardier about punctuality. Over the last few years I have developed this unrealistic belief that more things can be squeezed into less time and that I can magically appear at another part of Singapore in a few minutes, in a parallel universe where no traffic exists and car park space is abundant.

Part of this tardiness is due to psychological reasons. Sometimes there is a fear of offending someone by walking out of an overrun meeting. So we leave late and start the next appointment late and the domino effect begins. I always marvelled at how American TV shows showing how schoolchildren packed up their books and left class as the schoolbell ran, even while their teacher was talking. They have less stigma about leaving on time.

At work, perhaps scarce rooms are a solution - when they’re booked at fixed time slots, the next group will be knocking on the door when time’s up, and the meeting will have to be concluded quickly. And perhaps rooms should only be booked for one hour slots or less, so that nobody should be late or longwinded or unprepared at a meeting.

The worst experience I myself have had as a customer, was with my new personal banker. I asked him to meet me at a restaurant near my office. I sent him a food review page from Hungrygowhere.com, which also contained a Google map of the place. He parked somewhere else, walked off in the wrong direction and lost his bearings. After a few phone calls he was still lost. When he finally found the restaurant, he was an hour late. He paid for lunch.

So, my two new mid-year resolutions are: To smile more, and to be on time. Dare I?

On smiling more

May 13, 2008 1:47 PM

In the space of a few days, I was told by people from different walks of life - my mum, a random French shopkeeper, a couple of friends - that I should smile more.

The thing is, often I’m not feeling unhappy but my default expression is a :-| not a :-> and I don’t realise it.

Last night I was Twittering about how a local gal in French class was annoying me by pouncing on my every mistake. She’d go ‘Harh?!” when I asked a question or said something not quite right, even though she herself wasn’t that good in French either. She would also chat to the Brit guy beside her but not turn to talk to me. There are only 3 of us in the class.

In the light of the weekend’s feedback on my demeanour, I thought I could do a couple of things (apart from punch her in the face, which @dominik recommended :).

I could work harder on my French so that I’d make less mistakes and we’d learn from each other instead of pointing out each other’s faults.

Next, I could smile more and make the effort to talk to her, as much as I initially thought she was one of those who were nicer to expats than to their own kind. But we tend to stereotype each other when we have bad first impressions. Maybe she assumed I was unfriendly because of my serious face, and I classified her as a snob when she ignored me.

As it was, it was our second lesson together today and it was much more enjoyable because we actually loosened up more and found out more about each other. Somehow my French had also improved and the vocabulary I picked up 11 years ago was coming back, so I could enhance the sentences we were learning to make. We left, feeling positive about our lesson and looking forward to tomorrow.

Going to INSEAD

May 13, 2008 1:36 AM | Comments (7)

I’m officially announcing that I will be doing my MBA at INSEAD this Fall.

It took me many years to decide to do an MBA, and it was not easy. I told God I could not do it without Him, and He answered my prayers.

Of course, an MBA is not an end in itself - as if any paper qualification would be, though some places peg your prospects to it - but I hope it will teach me things I’ve haven’t learnt at work, and open up more opportunities for me. There are many worlds I have yet to see, explore - and dare I say, conquer?

This explains why I have been rushing to take my French exam, as we need at least 3 languages to graduate at INSEAD. It is certainly not easy, but we’re up to the challenge. Being in an international school requires you to communicate in different languages. Speaking 5 or 6 languages at INSEAD is not too uncommon, from what I’ve heard.

I finally got to meet my classmates at the Open Day on Saturday and it was great. We spent the whole day together. I think there are many nice people around, and the number of countries we’re from is mind-blowing. Some may prefer US schools but I’m happy with going to a school where no nationality is dominant. A cross-cultural understanding is important in today’s globalised business world.

Some friends had the impression I would be leaving Singapore very soon. To be precise, I am going to my sister’s convocation in the UK in early July. My orientation and preparatory course (for those with no business background, such as ahem public officers) will start in August. The actual term will begin in September. Next Spring I intend to make my way to the Fontainebleau campus, and that is where I may spend 2-4 months.

It is a big time in my life, as I step into a brave new world. In some ways I’m sad to leave some great memories and people behind; in other ways, happy and excited at starting life anew.

I’m quoted in the papers today regarding YouTube as an outreach channel. Thanks to Tan Weizhen for the coverage!

Singapore Government agencies using YouTube

I was explaining how some may have concerns that uploaded videos could be downloaded and manipulated, etc. But this also happens with anything else you put online. You have a corporate website? Well, someone could modify your logo. If you’re afraid, then forget about this new outreach channel. Don’t be too upset if something rips your copyrighted videos and uploads them to YouTube instead - on the positive side, that gives you more exposure. If some have bothered to go through this trouble, it could indicate they’re interested enough in the cause.

And if you want to see what our youths can do in a user-generated video contest on health, check this out for quality and depth!

This Labour Day, I...

May 2, 2008 1:15 AM | Comments (0)

…fell asleep earlier than expected, and woke up, also earlier than expected. Since that shouldn’t be happening on a public holiday, I went back to sleep. Sleep does magical things for mouth ulcers, like making them almost disappear overnight. I should apply more sleep for a longer-lasting effect.

Surfed the net as usual, bummed about. Explored some eating places near Mustafa Centre for lunch. Went to the neighbourhood mall to buy fruits and stationery. Went home and completed my French homework. I suck at doing homework cos I’m just lazy and every time I use my MacBook Pro, I end up surfing the web instead of looking up French conjugations online.

Went to Sin Huat Seafood restaurant at Geylang for dinner. Waited for nearly an hour, as is the norm, but other family members were too hungry, so we headed off to Roland’s for late night seafood. Moral of the story: Never go to a famous restaurant during peak hours, especially soon after it’s received a writeup in the papers - in this case, for its crab bee hoon.

Came home late. Surfed the net, as usual. Going to sleep. Felt I had to post something. Done. Zz.

A quick note

April 30, 2008 1:13 AM | Comments (2)

Been working till 10pm for the past 2 days and the long hours may continue. I’m trying to complete as much work as I can. A couple of very good things have happened and I hope to impress upon the powers that be of the important work our team is doing and hopefully that will give us more leeway to venture into more interesting projects. That alone has motivated me to keep going.

On top of that, I’ve resumed French class - exams are in less than a month’s time. I wanted to take only one exam, but it appears that my teacher thinks I can take an even more difficult exam, plus an easier one, so it looks like I will be taking 3 papers in total! They will all be on different days; possible 3 days in a row. And right after my birthday :(

So, something has to give. That has been my own personal time and sleep. Which I am about to do, now. Zz

Peranakan Museum sneak preview

April 23, 2008 11:18 PM | Comments (5)

I was fortunate to gain a sneak preview of the new exhibition at the Peranakan Museum along Armenian Street, courtesy of the curator. My family donated some items so we were given a private tour.

We often hear about Peranakan cuisine but seldom delve deep into Peranakan culture and history. At the museum, we saw artefacts that we never even knew existed. I will not post any photos here, because I’d rather encourage people to visit the museum instead.

Check out the pottery, jewellery, baju (clothing) and beaded articles. The Peranakans bead everything! Some items I felt could be converted to modern-day TV remote control holders and iPod cases (particularly the latter - maybe it will be a new fashion statement). There are also a few brilliant pieces of embroidery which other museums in the world are interested in, so that’s something to be proud of.

No more commitments

April 21, 2008 1:12 AM | Comments (1)

I have decided to turn down all requests to commit myself to “extra-curricular” projects. On the spot, when asked, I tend to be flattered and genuinely excited that people want to involve me in something new. However, when I go back and think about it, I realise I’m spread out too thin already. Then I tell them I can’t do it. It’s happened twice in the past month already. Sorry, guys.

Thanks to Nick Pan for finding this photo of me on the new Singapore search engine, rednano.sg.

The photo was taken for my 2006 Straits Times political desk interview as part of the Gahmen Bloggers feature.

The photographer was at my place, and I recall telling him as I sat at my piano, “I work for HPB. Don’t make me look fat!” :P

He took many, many photos before he was satisfied. (Hmm)

He let me see the photos, which I thought were decent, but wouldn’t let me download them.

Now I know why. A full-sized pic of me costs S$100! But that’s very clever. Imagine this business model - taking lovely shots of people featured in the papers and allowing them to buy them back for a premium.

We’re egotistical, and how often do we get our photos in the papers (unless we’re famous politicians, businesspeople, artistes etc)?

Now if SPH completes the loop, this is what could happen…

Interviewee: Can you send me the photos you took of me?

Photographer: Sorry we can’t, company policy. But… (whips out card) after the article’s out, you can purchase your own photo at rednano.sg or newslink.com.sg!

Too many emails

April 18, 2008 1:38 AM | Comments (2)

When you receive 60-100 emails a day, but are in meetings for most of the day and busy covering duties, there isn’t time to finish checking and replying to all messages.

Now I resort to skimming. I wish I could put up an autoresponder like Tim Ferriss’s, saying I will only check email twice a day. But I wouldn’t dare.

Email is now my Red Sea. Red is the colour of emails I haven’t ‘read’ yet. See, is what I need to do with the red. Get it?

Living in a Glass House

April 13, 2008 7:31 PM | Comments (0)

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I was at the Glass House today to support Cheyenne, aka Siren. She was holding up pretty well, not having smoked for the past 3 days.

Busy busy weekend

April 12, 2008 1:54 AM

Saturday morning - meet Greek blogger Zanatos. Lunch with family. Visit Cheyenne at Glass House. Hope to bump into more Gunners. Take photos and blog about it. Somewhere in between, finish urgent paperwork. Try to study French.

Sunday - go to church (as usual) Play bad tennis with Lisa (though we seldom meet, it is usually bad) Somewhere in between, finish urgent paperwork. Try to study French. Go to the Times Business Books sale. Head off to the Liz perhaps, with all the Gunners, post-Glass House!

Missing

April 10, 2008 2:03 AM | Comments (0)

I’m resuming French tuition at my new language school from today. I hope all goes well. I will be dashing in and out from class to office, from cubicle to meeting rooms. I can barely reply to all the emails being sent. I would love to apply the principles taught in the 4 hour work week, but it is not going to be easy.

While I was MIA on Gmail and Facebook, I nearly missed a dinner appointment and learnt, 12 hours late, that Flickr now supports videos (Pro users only). For some reason lots of friends want to meet up with me now. With late hours and social gatherings, I haven’t even seen my parents for the past day, even though we live in the same house.

Something has to give.

I sold another Thinking Cap!

April 7, 2008 11:15 PM

Cafepress.com emailed me today to inform me that I had sold another Thinking Cap!

Black Thinking Cap

Cafepress.com allows me to see my customers’ profiles. So here’s the breakdown on all the people who bought my cap: All my customers live in the US. Two are from Florida, one’s from New York, one’s from Iowa, one’s from North Carolina, and one’s from Michigan. My latest buyer hails from Wisconsin. I get US$1 commission per cap sold. Thanks, guys!

One of my buyers did return a cap, so I have US$6 in commission altogether. Looking at the rate I’m making money (relatively slow), it will take me several more years before I actually get my first cheque! But still, I am happy!

For new readers who are wondering what I’m talking about, see the previous history on the Thinking Cap. I designed this in honour of my friend Ivan aka Ramblinglibrarian, who was dubbed by the media to be a ‘Thinking Man’.

Update 11 Apr 2008: I just sold 1 more cap! This latest buyer is from New Jersey. Woohoo!

French, Faster

April 5, 2008 11:04 PM | Comments (1)

The French Delf exam is coming up in May, and yours truly is intending to go for crash courses until she is suitably prepared to pass it.

Alliance Francaise’s Delf preparation classes were already in progress when I decided to take the exam, so I couldn’t join in; and besides they don’t offer classes for the basic level I want to take. They also told me they didn’t think I could get ready in time for the exams in May. Gee, thanks.

So I decided to surf around to find other schools that could help me, pronto. I found a school called French Faster and they have had recent experience helping students pass their exams.

La française

March 31, 2008 10:31 PM | Comments (0)

Bonsoir.

Je m’appelle Vanessa. Je suis étudiante a l’Alliance Française. Je voudrais améliorer mon Français.

Il estC’est vingt-trois heures est je suis fatigue.

That’s about all I can recall / figure out at the moment.

I first studied French at Alliance Francaise in 1997 while waiting for my A-level results. I completed two levels, Elementary 1 and 2. Did fairly well at the test. Recently I decided to learn French again, took a placement test, didn’t know much of what was going on but just picked what looked right. Turns out I had about half correct! How lucky was that. So I was placed in the Elementary 3 class.

I went to the school to book my classes and asked if I could start off at a lower level to brush up what I learnt 10 years ago. The new receptionist mixed up her records and assured me that this week a new Elementary 1 course would be starting. So I signed up. Several days later someone else from the school called, saying that I had been booked for Elementary 3 instead.

So I’m here, a stranger in this class where the students have already bonded for 2 terms. I’m doing my best to recall what I’ve learnt. I still remember some basics but my vocabulary is nearly forgotten. There’s another new girl but she learnt French 5 years ago and qualified to enter Elementary 4 instead of 3 so she’s definitely better at it than me.

It looks like I’m possibly the weakest in class. But my professeur said to give it 2 days and see how it goes. If I have problems I can go for private lessons instead. But it’s much more expensive.

Ah, the things I have to do for a better future…

Arrived in Austin

March 7, 2008 9:39 AM | Comments (0)

Had a good, quick flight to Austin. Took a taxi straight to Kristen and Mark’s place, played with Alexander, had dinner. Will meet my conference roommates later.

Typing this on my iPhone. Excuse the terseness while I get used to the keyboard. i’m not getting 100% functionality on Movabletype 4.

And speaking of the iPhone: I’ve had requests to get more iPhones. I’m declining these requests.

Remembering Por Por

February 6, 2008 11:16 AM

My first memories of my maternal grandmother, or Por Por as I called her, probably began with soup. She was Hakka but cooked a delicious Cantonese soup - and many other dishes as well. As a child, I would keep asking for seconds.

My parents and I used to visit her over the weekend in her previous home which she had lived in for decades. Then she moved much further away, we saw less of her and over the last few years her health deteriorated.

Those thoughts went through my head at the dinner table last night, when my parents informed me that Por Por was in her final hours and that we'd be going to the hospital to visit her right after our meal.

The waitress brought in the soup of the day.

I tasted the soup and commented, "It's like Por Por's soup." Nobody else said a word.

By the time we got to the Intensive Care Unit, most of my cousins, aunts and uncles were there. They were all in tears. It was the sight of everyone, reunited and sorrowful, that moved me most. My oldest cousins were the most affected because she brought them up, and they all lived under one roof - even after moving house.

I and my sister, not being able to speak Cantonese, would miss out on the dining table conversations and had to rely on other people to translate the punchlines for us. As such, we didn't feel as great an attachment to the gatherings. My Por Por did speak English as well but often the conversation among the entire family would be in Cantonese.

However, I remember with fondness the time I drove Por Por to her favourite Tekkah Market where she bought ingredients for cooking, and she took me and my sister to a favourite hawker hangout to eat. That was perhaps the most memorable time she spent, just with us.

For the past few Chinese New Years, I'd visit her. I'd make the long drive up to Ang Moh Kio with my mum and paternal grandmother to deliver foodstuffs. It was sweet, seeing my two grandmothers ask about each other. Usually they would both say something nice about me and my sister, and I would squirm politely. Over the years she had to use a walking stick. In her last year she was already in a wheelchair.

Every time we made the visit, I took photos of my grandmothers together, knowing that as the years went by there'd be a less likely chance of seeing them together again. A few days after that, my paternal grandmother would tell me that Por Por had taken a taxi all the way down to return the favour. It is in both my grandmothers' natures to give, no matter how trouble they might go through.

Recently my paternal grandmother heard about my Por Por's recent health problems and told me that Por Por had once said she would live on to see me get married. To that, I replied that Por Por would have a very long life! At least she lived long enough to have a great-granddaughter, with another on the way.

My little neice was too young to comprehend the graveness of the situation late last night as the whole family gathered around Por Por, who was being pumped with Adrenaline. The doctor had already told us she was in her last hours. As I saw the little girl scampering about, I recalled the time my own great-grandmothers died. I was the first great-grandchild for both of them, and had the rare opportunity to know them for the first several years of my life. When they died, I knew the fact but was too young to feel much emotion. Likewise for my neice.

The last thing we tried doing was to keep Por Por's heart beating by talking to her. Every time one of us called her and identified ourselves, her heart rate would pick up. Still, it was at best half the rate of a healthy person her age. Her heart rate picked up the most when her great-granddaughter called her, not surprisingly.

We left the hospital close to midnight, asking the other relatives to call us when it happened. At 2am my mother received the phone call and I heard the news when I woke up this morning.

It will be a solemn Chinese New Year for us.

Trials

February 3, 2008 11:18 PM | Comments (0)

The past couple of weeks have been emotionally trying.

Firstly, I faced the fact that my former boss and long-standing mentor was finally retiring.

It's also the time of the year to say goodbye to others whom I'd consider friends - LSD, EL, JT, DT, MML... all great people to work with.

Most recently, I learnt that our resident Superman, SW, is returning to a place similar to his original planet Krypton. I wish him all the best and hope he will fly more freely, just as I had, and put his superpowers to better use.

There are other trials, outside of work. Two of my grandparents are fighting to regain their health right now. My maternal grandma has been in intensive care for days. It's a day-to-day survival for her. Mentally she's still fine, but has difficulty with breathing and eating. She's also tried yanking out her own tubes, probably because she's so uncomfortable. She's always been a rebel. When I was a little girl, I used to tell her to stop smoking. She'd promise me she would cut it down to a stick a day. And now I'm working in HPB.

My paternal grandfather is in better condition but is getting used to a more restrictive and careful lifestyle. This was a man who was over 6 feet tall and would swim out into the sea and back. In his late 70s, he once got up from the dinner table and hit the dance floor, taking my grandmother with him. I'm less worried for him but hope that the family speaks as one, and not as many conflicting voices, in our well-meaning attempts to restore his health.

There are a few other trials as well, even closer to home. Spiritually I am leaning on God and am planning to rejoin a home group in the next few months. There are many other things I have to do soon, and my life may change quite a bit. Until then, I'm soldiering on.

The farewell speech

January 30, 2008 6:57 PM | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

As requested by JS, here’s the farewell speech I made earlier this afternoon for my former boss, who is retiring after 30 plus years of public service.

I’m proud to be here today as someone who has worked under Richard Lim.

Richard is a boss who empowers and encourages his staff. As a newcomer to HPB nearly 4 years ago, I appreciated how he’d make the time and effort to explain things to me.

Throughout his work, you could tell that Richard had a passion for health promotion and serving the public. Everything he did, he did with the best interests of the organisation and the nation. He was unafraid to speak his mind.

Richard played a key role in developing the Internet Section, as we were then known, by encouraging us to explore new frontiers, such as podcasting and mobile technologies. HPB is now viewed by many in the public service and beyond as a pioneer in these areas.

Richard was a boss who let us play hard as well. As chairman of the HWC* Sports & Games subcommittee, Richard encouraged us to get active. We have to thank him for getting some of us started on golf!

In time, I also discovered that Richard had a sense of humour, which made even the most difficult challenges more bearable.

Richard, you have set a great example for many of us as a mentor and a boss.

I can only hope, one day, to be as great a boss as you have been. And as good a golfer as you already are!

Thank you, Richard!

Man, we’re going to miss him.

*HWC is our Healthy Workforce Committee.

I am preparing a speech to my ex-boss who is retiring from the organisation. He was asked to select a few staff members to say some words about him, and I was one of the people he chose. I am honoured.

He was always there to give us guidance at the start of a project, so that few things went wrong in the end. When things did go wrong, he would help out and support his staff, and not point the finger at them. I appreciate this as I've known bosses who give no guidance and then blame their team to avoid making themselves look bad (without realising that will backfire).

The word 'empowerment' is often thrown around as part of corporate-speak. I don't think my ex-boss used the word on us, but it was all in his actions. He'd let us run our own projects - he didn't need us to CC him on every little matter. Unlike the micromanager type, he wasn't insecure in having staff know more details about their own projects than he did, because he had the big picture in mind all the time. He let us manage our own meetings with internal clients, because he said he wanted us to grow.

Indeed, I grew a lot under his supervision. Very often, my morale was high and I was in a state of 'flow' - where I was so engaged with my work that I felt as one with it. It never felt like drudgery. I never woke up feeling that I didn't want to go to work, or that I was too bogged down by bureaucracy to be productive. 'Flow' is a feeling that is hard to come by for many of us, so I will remember it and hope to sustain it.

Without the empowerment given by my ex-boss, I wonder if I'd ever have dared to launch the very first podcast in the Government and start the Gahmen Bloggers group. If I was under a restrictive, tyrannical boss who wanted me to do nothing but stick to the Workplan, I might have thought twice about trying anything new. Having been under such a boss before, I can imagine the response would be: "Not enough work to do, issit?" And I would probably be asked to focus on simply meeting KPIs.

My ex-boss didn't agree that staff performance was all about KPIs, because quality counts, not just numbers. There's no point rushing out several mediocre microsites when all we need is a good one.

I also wonder if I'd ever have dared to ask to be sent to an overseas conference - something that nobody in my Department (service line, relatively low priority) had done until then. He supported me, and I went to SXSW in 2006. This gave me new insights which I applied to my projects and to future talks that I would be invited to give.

My ex-boss's passion for serving the nation is also moving. He often reminded us that our real clients were the public, not other departments whom we serviced. We should therefore produce materials and websites that appealed to the public and not simply because the internal client likes the colour green. He never pandered to anyone and had the courage to stand by his views.

In my previous 7 years of working experience, I have never had such a good boss before. Most of my other bosses have been pretty decent too, but this one hits the spot. He helped me to fly.

I really have to give him a good speech but if so, I hope I don't break down on stage this Wednesday. Many of us will miss him a lot and we can only wish him all the best.

New Year Resolutions

January 20, 2008 9:04 PM | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

I recently helped produce this video as part of a health campaign. To date it remains exclusively on Youtube. It's a new approach we're trying out - using new media channels instead of paying a bomb for traditional media airtime. Let me know what you think.

I don't smoke myself - but many of us are passive smokers, inhaling smoke from other people and that is harmful too. When I was in China earlier this month, I had respiratory problems due to factory smoke outside and people smoking indoors. I can handle spit-covered pavements and smelly toilets, but my nasal lining was worn out from the pollution and I'm still coughing out phlegm up to today. It makes you appreciate the air quality in Singapore (provided the neighbours don't burn anything).

In 2008, I resolve to:

  1. Seize the day. 'Carpe Diem' will be the overarching approach to everything I do this year and beyond. Too often I have regretted not doing things more than doing things and making mistakes. At least with mistakes, we gain experience and grow. When we don't even try out new things which we're probably capable of handling, we never know if we could've moved on to a higher plane and improved our lives. In 2008, I will kiss stagnation goodbye.
  2. Improve my overall fitness. I did more brisk walking in 2007, but put off serious exercise too often. It was partly due to the fact that I fell ill often in 2007 and was not supposed to engage in vigorous activities too soon after recovering. Then I'd catch another bug and my exercise plans would be delayed again. In 2008, I intend to take better care of my health and break this vicious cycle. This will involve changing my lifestyle quite a bit - namely, improving my work-life balance so I can get off my butt, stop staring at the screen and spend more time at the gym and improving my golf. Maybe this year I'll finally get my handicap. I intend to sleep and wake up earlier so I'll have more time to exercise in the morning.
  3. Spend more time with God again. This isn't the least important resolution but I put it at the end because it's a good way to wrap up my plans. In 2007, I turned down all offers to help out at church courses like Alpha and Christianity Explored, because I could not promise that I'd be able to tear myself away from work in the evenings. It would've been worse to say yes, then not show up most of the time. However, in the eternal scheme of things, that is not how it should be. I must set boundaries for myself and address any guilt triggers which make me feel obliged to overcompensate with time or effort.

These are more like 'big picture' resolutions. Of course, I have plans to do geeky things like restore my Mac, recover all the lost files in my 1TB external hard drive, get a MacBook Pro (not the costly Air), get an iPhone (if it doesn't break the law), upload an album and become an iTunes artiste, go to SXSW 2008, collaborate with entrepreneur-type friends, speak at more events and revamp this blog. Apart from that, other aspects of my life may be drastically changed this year. But that's all part of my plan to seize the day.

Start of a new year

January 1, 2008 9:21 PM | Comments (2) | TrackBacks (0)

New Year's Eve: I went to work for half a day but ended up staying till 2+pm as there were still a lot of things to do. I went home to freshen up, then headed down to Suntec City to deliver my clicking external hard drive to Datasavers. I didn't want to procrastinate anymore on things - that's one of my resolutions for 2008.

Since I was in the area, I decided to walk through Citilink to Funan Digitalife Mall and exercise my options as a new member of computer superstore Challenger. I decided to be naughty and bought computer games: Command and Conquer - the First Decade, because it brought back good memories; SimCity, because I like strategy games and want to start running/managing things in 2008; and Football Manager, because I love football and am probably a closet Jose Mourinho / Arsene Wenger / Alex Ferguson.

I also spotted the HP Touchsmart PC, a lovely modern-looking computer cum TV system with a 19" touch screen. Yup, you heard that right. I was ogling it for a while and despite the S$2999 price tag I was seriously contemplating getting it for my room so I could do stuff and watch shows on it.

We had a huge family dinner (huge in terms of number of family members attending, as well as the amount of food served!). I sent one of my cousins back to the office as she still had work to do, poor gal. I drove my sis and two other cousins around the Esplanade area and we saw crowds gathering to watch fireworks.

At home, we had numerous blackouts due to a power trip. Turned out it was the air-conditioning - so we would spend our New Year's Eve night sweating away! Nevertheless, I started playing Command and Conquer. To my horror I realised I was still highly addicted to it, even though I was a bit rusty at first. I was so immersed in it that I didn't realise 2008 had arrived until several minutes later. What a way to begin the new year! Anyway we all wished each other at home and I replied to some SMSes from friends.

New Year's Day: I was much more productive. I woke up late as I slept at 3+am playing aforementioned computer game. I swore to myself that I did not need to be addicted again. I helped mum prepare lunch and dinner. We went shopping for clams at Tekka Market to go into our seafood soup which we were cooking for dinner with our grandparents. After that, Mum helped me re-arrange the work space in my room. Now there's more space and it looks neater. I am so pleased. However we realised we needed some new stuff for the home, so we went to Ikea. I bought myself a new swivel chair for my re-arranged desk.

Mum bought baguettes to go with the soup, but we were concerned about carb overload. I remembered how I once learnt how to make finely-sliced bread by putting it in the freezer first. It worked - we had fine slices of baguettes smeared with butter or olive oil and herbs and spices like thyme, nutmeg and pepper. It was a great meal.

The whole family is now watching the next Arsenal match... so this is Van, signing off for New Year's Day!

2007: Looking back

December 31, 2007 1:45 AM | Comments (3)

For me, 2007 began where 2006 left off. I gave the bulk of my public presentations in the first half of 2007, speaking to the HP Alumni and Raffles Girls, then at an Internet course. More recently I spoke at SMU on the topic of Persuasion.

In March I made my pilgrimage to Austin, Texas to attend SXSW, and met the Dell team. Right after that, I met the (former) CTO of Second Life, then made many new friends at Nexus. In July, I attended Singapore's first PodCamp. I got a press pass (as a blogger) to the State of Play conference, and interviewed the CEO of There.com, a virtual world.

Some of us met up with Kevin, and he videoed me reviewing my HTC Touch. I hit the 200 mark for subscriptions to this blog's feed. Kevin also formed the Media Socialists group, of which I am honoured to be a member. In case you're wondering, it's not as political as it sounds - we deal with Social Media.

Music-wise, it was sluggish (as it's been since I graduated from University, frankly) but at least I had a concert in June with a spanking new fusion jazz band. It got me to finally complete a smooth jazz piece I had started a couple years ago. Inspired by the John Legend concert, I wrote a review and got Tomorrowed, then posted my own rendition of Ordinary People. I capped off the year by playing at a church carol fundraiser.

In September, we went on a lovely Mediterranean cruise. In October, I headed to Tuscany for Jeanne's wedding and sang in the choir. I helped arrange some music for the violin and harp, and it was a wonderful feeling hearing Italian musicians playing the score I wrote. It's like witnessing your own creation come into life.

16 March is now a special date to me - this year, two dear friends, Queenie and Kristen, gave birth to their first children, both sons and by Aussie husbands. A pity I was flying back from the US to Singapore at the time, and only heard the news later. [Correction - Kristen's son was born 17 March. OK, so now there are two special dates for me!]

December was Mac disaster month, as I upgraded to Leopard and a subsequent update (Keychain?) cut off my Airport internet connection, made my MIDI card unable to relay data back to my KORG keyboards (drivers for Leopard unavailable yet), prevented me from syncing my Windows Mobile phone. Then my second hard drive crashed. Also, my blog's server crashed, leading to a series of errors, all of which have hopefully been fixed by now.

Spiritually, this has been possibly the emptiest year for me since I became a Christian. I didn't attend a bible study group, and stayed back at work so late that I didn't commit as a helper for church courses. In October redesigned my church website and realised it was much harder as we had to grapple with the Joomla CMS. I realised I was no longer as interested in coding and at one point in the project, was feeling so low I didn't want to go to church anymore. God has not spoken to me with His voice this year, but has prompted me to do certain things which have worked out, so I know He's still with me but I better put my coal back into the fire soon.

If you asked me, I prefer my 2006 to 2007 for various reasons. Maybe I've just outgrown some things. What's still constant is my love for generating ideas, working informally with people across ranks and divisions, sharing information openly and acting on things spontaneously. I'm a dotcommer at heart, not a bureaucrat. We shall see where 2008 will take me.

In late 2007/2008 we will also bid goodbye to some good people. That will be a separate post when the time is appropriate.

Stay tuned to my next post on New Year Resolutions...

Update for the week

December 18, 2007 9:32 PM | Comments (0)

I'm still busy but thought I better update this blog at least once a week!

I've been attending weddings the past few weeks, and two hen lunches for colleagues. If you're a Facebook friend you may get a glimpse of the silly things we made them do.

For some reason, I've been falling asleep very easily in the evenings (no alcohol involved). Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe it's the rainy weather. Or maybe it's because my complexion gets better when I sleep more, and I'm becoming more vain.

I've finally faced the fact that I will have to wrap Christmas presents. I was thinking that if I went to sleep now, I'd wake up earlier and be able to do it in the morning, which is an even worse idea as I am not much of a morning person. So I will get down to this after updating this blog.

I'm happy to report that since my last post, a few more people have purchased the Thinking Cap which I designed, on Cafepress.com. It is quite encouraging! If someone's been publicising this, thank you.

I just got in touch with one of my mentors and it was very encouraging to hear from him. All this time I wasn't sure if I should call, but it was simply a matter of asking. It brought back some fond memories and reminded me of the days when I was really creative, making back-end systems more usable and pretty, and designing public-facing websites for MNC clients.

Musically this will be a busy month for me as well. I've agreed to play piano for several Christmas carols at St George's Church this Saturday evening. The following evening I will be playing at my Tan clan gathering. On Monday morning I have agreed to lead the singing of carols for our division's Christmas party. So again, I have taken the plunge. I practice the hardest when I know I have to perform for an audience, so maybe I just have to thrust myself onto the stage more often.

I still have many half-read books on marketing, business and management, psychology, social media and innovation. They're so interesting but I wish I had more time to devour them all. Come the Acmabook 23% sale I will probably purchase more books, and the cycle will continue...

I am finally back in Second Life. Linden Labs charged me US$72 for another year's membership and I am not downgrading myself now because I'd lose that value (IMHO it is a silly, inflexible policy). So things are back to normal for my Avatar and me.

That's it for now. I have to wrap presents.

Alive

December 5, 2007 12:40 AM | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

This is to let you know that I am still alive. Over the past several weeks I had to do a couple of important things and just finished in time... and soon I will have to do other important things. It's complicated and I can't say more, but in time you'll understand. It's related to work stuff, in a way. More deadlines there.

My tongue ulcer has, thankfully, dissipated just as quickly as it appeared. I really hope it never happens again as the pain was excruciating.

Other updates - I've bought lots of books related to business, PR, marketing and ideas, all of which I'm trying my best to finish reading and hopefully absorb something. My jazz piano practice time is almost nonexistent now. I have to get my jazz band going again. I am still having problems with my Mac, since upgrading to Leopard - it can't connect to the Net, and after upgrading to Logic Studio I can't seem to sync up with my KORG keyboard via MIDI anymore, so a lot of my songs now have no sound. Basically there are a lot of geeky things I need to fix and I may have reached my threshold for solving problems!

It's 2am, I better sleep.

Feeling sore

November 27, 2007 9:32 PM | Comments (2)

If you've met me this week, you may notice something's different when I speak. That's because I have an ulcer on the left side of my tongue, about 3mm wide, and it HURTS!!!

I just put salt on it and my eyes are tearing. The pain has been going on since Sunday and this has tensed up the left side of my head and neck. Now the inside of my left ear aches. And I think it's all because of that silly ulcer.

Yes, I've been nagged about not getting enough rest. So sleep, I must. I am also avoiding social events this week because I can't talk properly, I eat slowly and it hurts all the time. So don't mind me if I seem to be more antisocial than normal.

Two's a crowd

November 22, 2007 10:50 PM | Comments (0)

I'll be pretty occupied the next few weeks as I'm covering for two colleagues, one serving the country, the other on a well-deserved honeymoon. Blogging may be sporadic while I catch up with email overload. Your patience is appreciated as I assume more responsibilities and figure things out.

Apologies to those who've asked me out for lunch/coffee; I can't promise anything now but I will carve out some time, hopefully.

My colleague Prema and I gave a talk to final year students at the Singapore Management University (SMU) yesterday. It all started when I bumped into Assoc. Professor Susheela Varghese at Podcamp a few months ago, and told her what we were doing in Health Promotion.

I mentioned we had just launched a new Sexual Wellness website. This was probably intriguing as probably not many people would imagine the Gahmen addressing such issues in a direct way (as with my idea of launching a podcast 2 years ago). Anyway she found our activities interesting enough to invite us to give a presentation to her class, and we took on the challenge!

Me and Prema taking questionsWe expanded our presentation’s scope to include many other health issues and campaigns - some ours, some from other countries - to show how persuasion works for different people. Our focus was generally on the youth market, which is very important but difficult to reach especially for a topic like health. Usually, youths don’t worry about health because they’re in the prime of it, until they fall ill or know someone who’s seriously ill. But habits are often formed during one’s youth and I feel it could be more effective in some cases to focus on providing the know-how and environment to foster healthy habits and relationships then. It takes more effort to change one’s behaviour when one is older.

Updates. The new church website is about to be launched very, very soon. This Sunday. This means lots of time spent fine-tuning it, and we had some new things to fix after adding additional components. Joomla is one killer app. It kills you when you try to learn how to use the more complex features.

Another of my projects, for work, is going to be launched a few days before that. Its back end is more 'Web 2.0' oriented than my other projects and I'm smug about that. I'll talk more about it when it's announced. If you're on Facebook, you may have noticed me campaigning already... If I know you and we aren't Facebook friends yet, add me!

This just means I will be feeling harassed until Sunday afternoon. Hopefully both launches will go fine. I have to brace myself and remember that we cannot please anybody. For the church site, we should please God first. For the work site, we should appeal to our target audience.

The only good thing I've been hearing, in increasing measure is that people are liking how the look and feel is coming about. I am glad for it as first impressions count, and initially it wasn't easy getting the right look out. Hope people will get some meaning out of the content as well - which is at least as important!

A near accident

September 28, 2007 11:48 PM | Comments (3)

This evening, I was driving down the middle lane of Holland/Napier Road, approaching a large vehicle that had stopped on the left lane. The vehicles on the left lane were all signalling right to change lanes so they wouldn't be stuck behind the large vehicle. I continued driving on...

Then suddenly a commercial van on my left swerved into my path! The driver probably didn't check his blind spot, or assumed I would take some drastic action to avoid hitting him. I certainly hoped it was the former reason.

Now, I am the type of person who seldom screams, and likewise when I drive, I seldom sound my horn unless I really, really need to. I usually flash my headlights at oncoming traffic to remind them when I have the right of way - more a 'glare' than a scream.

But this time, I HORNED and HORNED even as I stepped on the brakes and turned my car slightly to the right. The van jerked away from me and swerved back to the leftmost lane, narrowly avoiding hitting me. Still, it was moving faster than I was, so it edged forward. By that time I had slowed down sufficiently for the van to cut back into my path at a less dangerous angle. I'm generally OK with people cutting into my path when they're blocked, and if they've signalled their intentions.

I observed the driver as he straddled the middle and left lanes while passing the large stationery vehicle. Then I noticed his probation plate.

As I drove on, I realised that if the driver had swerved into my path and we had an accident, that driver would be in trouble. Then I realised I've been driving for about 8 years.

Thank God there wasn't an accident today.

I was having a conversation with an uber-geek friend a couple days ago, and he started showing me how his place was networked. As the different types of protocols went over my head (and I assure you it wasn't as straightforward as 'TCP/IP'), I grew increasingly confused and indicated as much.

The uber-geek friend looked at me quizzically. He didn't believe I didn't understand him, as he got a different impression about my aptitude from my blog! I insisted I was no expert in protocols, and never claimed to be. He said, "but you were a designer!" But does a web designer need to know such advanced protocols? HTTP and FTP were all I used. HTML was the key. Everything else was handled by the tech guys who set up file sharing and firewalls, databases and servers. My job wasn't System Administrator.

So if any of you have any notions of me being some super expert in any techy area, I am NOT. I used to design, I know CSS to a certain level, I know how certain things work although I no longer code for a living. I haggle with vendors more than the average client does, just to make sure everything works. And if they still have problems figuring things out (as with some designers new to CSS), I'm the first to give them advice.

Yes, I have fixed some people's computer problems and I know some workarounds for various types of software. I have learnt how to fix a serious problem with my Mac by going into Unix mode - but that was simply a case of following instructions. I've taught myself how to wire up my home studio, but without knowing all the jargon that comes along with the equipment. Simplicity is good. It helps one focus on the bigger issues in life. That is one quality I find lacking in certain types of people.

I haven't invented a new programming language; I don't know Rails or Java or Perl; I knew enough about Coldfusion tags to move content around in my design, but that was it. I set up a Movable Type blog but did so by reading the instructions. I installed plugins likewise, by following instructions. I don't really hack things. I know how to use Yahoo! Pipes for mashups and filters and I'm happy with that.

I subscribe to 700 feeds, most of which I don't read regularly anymore because I either don't have the time, or I've lost interest, so the few of you who give me surprised stares when I don't know the latest update on some sensational local blog, please shove off or do something more valuable with your own time. Ditto to those who like to throw acronyms around in a typically Singaporean way, and sound surprised when I ask what those acronyms mean. To them, I say MYOB! CB! FO! :P (Don't ask me what they mean.)

I buy gadgety stuff, but don't expect me to know what are all the differences between my HTC Touch and several other new iPhone imitation models popping up all over the world, because I am not interested in spending time poring over spec sheets and comparing prices. If I buy a 1 Terabyte hard disk drive, it's 1 TB to me, not 500GB because I want it that way; I know I really need the space.

For all it's worth, I have learnt a lot of things on my own, and find it surprising that sometimes I'm expected to know even more than that. You may have got a degree in it; I do not. You may still base your career on it; I no longer do. I hire vendors to do that now. Oh, and you are...?

My life plans are changing and so is my focus. Whatever I need to know, I will find out. Without intending to offend anyone in particular, the frank truth is: whatever I don't need to know, doesn't matter to me, even if it does to you. Don't expect me to devote hours, days or weeks to become an expert like you on a topic that won't improve my life. I'd rather have friends like you as experts and leave it as that. Strength in diversity, you know what I mean.

[Note to self: Use this post as a Memorandum of Understanding in future encounters with hardcore, purist geeks who mean well but may not realise they are perturbing me.]

The power of flowers

September 22, 2007 1:23 AM | Comments (2) | TrackBacks (0)

I'll be at the National Healthy Lifestyle Campaign this morning and afternoon, at the Botanic Gardens. PM Lee will be the guest of honour. This year's theme will focus on mental wellness. To start off, why not send a flower to a friend or loved one:

Flower Power

Blogging revisited

September 16, 2007 1:33 AM | Comments (1) | TrackBacks (0)

I attended the church wedding of Shawn and Jean in the morning, followed by dinner in the evening. Having known the couple for 10 years, I was very happy to see them finally tie the knot. They are really nice, decent people and truly deserve each other. I also met many seniors from the University of Bristol. It was good catching up with them after all these years.

What got me was how many of them mentioned, on separate occasions, that they visited my website/blog. I didn't expect them to know about it, because I didn't have a blog in the late 1990s when I was in University. I purchased 'vantan.org' and set up a simple website where I manually posted updates on my life.

I learnt that each senior found my website on their own, via web searches for restaurant reviews and other things. One senior found my blog via another friend's blog, which she was referred to by another friend. Another senior found my site also by accident, then read my profile to check if I was the Vanessa Tan from Bristol.

Interestingly, I sat next to the parents of one of my seniors, who's due to give birth to her first child soon. After telling her parents about the new media work I was doing, the mum shared that she also had a blog! However she stopped blogging early this year. I encouraged the mum to keep on blogging and suggested she could post photos of her forthcoming grandchild. I told her how I kept in touch with friends who were overseas, by looking at photos and videos of their kids.

I went home and immediately checked out my senior's mum's blog. It was well-written, with lots of photos that were nicely cropped. As she mentioned to me earlier, she had good rapport with her readers and I could see it from the number of comments posted. I too posted an encouraging comment, to remind her to keep blogging.

Who knows, Singapore may have a new 'grandma' blog soon!

Road rage

September 13, 2007 8:06 AM | Comments (5) | TrackBacks (0)

There are many unhappy people around.

This morning, there were many cars moving slowly along the road, including mine. I was in the first lane (in a three-lane road). As I was eventually going to turn left, I signalled and changed to the 2nd lane. Then a car that was still in the first lane, signalled and edged his way in front of me.

In some other, more highly-stressed parts of town, a driver would have zoomed forward to block him. I could have, too. But since he had the right of way, he was signalling properly, and it didn't make much difference to me, I let him through.

Then it was my turn to filter to the extreme left lane. As there was a bus and many other cars already on the leftmost lane in front of me, very near the filter lane, I realised I had to move in quickly or I might not be able to turn left at all. I signalled, saw a space, and turned my car into the leftmost lane, right in front of the bus.

Then a loud horn blast sounded behind me. It was another car that was on the leftmost lane. While there was enough space for my car to move in front of him (i.e. he wasn't that close to the bus), he seemed rather unhappy about losing his place behind the bus. I waved 'Sorry' to him, and worried about what he was probably saying about woman drivers.

But I thought, I gave way to the guy on my right who was signalling properly, even though it was tight. Then I did the same thing and this guy reacted totally differently. We were all moving slowly on all 3 lanes so it wasn't a sudden switch at high speed.

Anyway, to avoid inciting him further, I filtered left and zoomed off so I would no longer be in his way. It was another three-lane road. I filtered to the middle lane. The lanes on either side of me were clear.

That wasn't enough for him. He out-zoomed me, filtered all the way to the rightmost lane, overtook me, filtered to my lane and drove slowly in front of me (it could have been on purpose), before filtering to the leftmost lane then turning left into an expressway.

Then I noticed his licence plate number: 666.

I'm sure many of us have experienced similar incidents on the road. But would you stalk another driver who was in the right of way, and circle your car around him/her?

Some people have a lot of anger inside them, ready to explode at the slightest provocation, even if it wasn't intended.

Update

September 13, 2007 12:12 AM | Comments (0)

This blog will be a bit quiet as I'm preoccupied with work, the forthcoming new church website, wedding choir rehearsals, and some other things. With the little time I have left, I've cut down on reading blogs, writing posts and emails.

Call it survival mode.

This press release is brought to you by the Too Much Information department. If you do not like to hear stories of pain and torment (I bet you do, cos I'm the one suffering) and vivid portrayals of rear end treatment, do not read on.

While no photographs of the affected areas will be taken, because I still love humanity, there may be hyperlinking to medical websites to better illustrate the situation. Doctors and good friends may be able to take this. At least, I think good friends will forgive me.

My sister and I will be attending our very first National Day Parade (NDP) tomorrow. We will be shooting videos and taking photos. Have any of you attended NDP before? Any tips for us?

Our equipment: a HD video camera, a Nikon D70 SLR and my own Canon Ixus 50.

Oh, and we ordered Final Cut Studio yesterday. Heard it arrived this afternoon :) Can't wait to play with it :)

LASIK - Day 2

July 21, 2007 3:30 PM | Comments (2)

No need to wear this outside anymore!This is my first day after having LASIK in my left eye. The eye patch (as photographed) is off and I have a contact lens in my right eye. Already, people treat me a bit differently. It is quite interesting to note. It is something like what Gwyneth Paltrow felt in a fat suit, when Hal's attitude towards her changed just because he saw her as a good-looking person.

Me after the checkup
Me with sunglasses
Firstly, walking into shopping centres (slowly, with family members around me) with my "shazom" red Ferragamo Swarovski-studded sunglasses has made a few more passers-by look at me. I suppose with my old-style pony tail and spectacles, I looked like a dime-a-dozen plain Jane. With new clothes, heels, hair let down and sunglasses, outwardly I look different though inside I am still the same. I wonder if people care at all about the latter.

I received a similar response two weeks ago, when my eyes were unfocused after a pre-LASIK test, and I was sitting in a Ya Kun branch drinking 'teh' (tea) with my family with the sunglasses on. People from other tables were staring at me and even my mum said I looked pretty good. I decided to let them stare. Maybe they were wondering if I was a celebrity.

The second effect it had today, was that police officers thought I was a security risk!! We were queueing up at a bank, and within 2 minutes a police officer came up to me and asked me to remove my sunglasses. Plaintively, I told him, "But I just had an operation!" and looked really unhappy about it. I showed him my left eye which was red. I really didn't want to take my sunglasses off, in case dust and other stuff got in.

The young officer backed off and said, "OK..." Anyway, to be safe we thought it was still better for me to wait outside, just in case they still thought I was going to rob the bank.

It is just fascinating how you can be treated differently just by the first impression you make. Over the next few months, I am planning to change more things and will be closely monitoring the difference in how people treat me. Perhaps there will be more similarities with another movie, Miss Congeniality. We shall see.

Going for LASIK

July 20, 2007 9:15 AM | Comments (6)

I'm going for LASIK starting with my left eye today. Wish me luck!

Just before the surgery:
Me before LASIK

After surgery, back at home:
After LASIK on my left eye

Thanks for the well-wishes!

Revisiting the past

July 18, 2007 11:53 PM | Comments (4)

Old SCGS gateI revisited my old school on the way up Emerald Hill this evening. In a way, some parts of the structure haven't changed - perhaps a new coat of paint was given a few years ago, but now it is starting to look just like how it used to be when we waited outside after classes, for the school bus or parents' car to fetch us home.

Still, it's part of the end of an era. I suppose it could have begun when we moved out to larger premises, leaving an inherently Peranakan area which was part of our identity. Old SCGS stepsThen our Vice Principal passed away suddenly, and my girl guide teacher died of cancer. The famous Mee Pok man died. Miss Heng retired. You'd think some things never change but after a while, they do, shifting gradually onto a new generation of people.

A certain song I wrote back in 1994 for my alma mater, rushed back into my head. Maybe it's time to re-record it.

Dinner was with distant cousin LT, at Akira at the end of the road, past the residential shophouses. Its Japanese buffet comes at a decent price ($22 for lunch, $30 for dinner) despite its sometimes unreliable service by waitresses who don't totally understand good English or bad Mandarin. We Peranakans are not very good at the latter language.

We were joined by 2 of LT's old friends. Nearly considered going with them to Zouk but decided to go home and rest. Need to get more sleep.

I've been planning to go for a LASIK operation. Which also means I've been planning to get a glamorous pair of sunglasses. But I can't choose sunglasses all by myself; I need to bring girlfriends along! One girlfriend had a camera, so I got her to video the entire shopping experience, where you can catch me in various poses, finally in the Tangs changing room where I tried on a red top together with my sunglasses.

If you have trouble viewing this, try viewing the video on its original page.

For the record, Shin invented a new sound for the effect my newly-acquired red Ferragamo sunglasses encrusted with Swarovski crystals would have when I wear them:"Sha-zom!"

They felt the sunglasses gave me more of a 'Xiaxue' look. I never planned to emulate her but was feeling quite sassy yesterday.

And I have no idea why Doris liked videoing me at chest level! Check out the part where she films me for a few seconds while totally denying she's doing it. Ha!

Other funny scenes not captured on video: The Tangs ladies undergarments changing room, where we weren't allowed to take photos. One room had a pole and a lit-up stage. Shin discovered a whip and struck with it several times, while Doris made corresponding yelping sounds. That video would have been a gem.

Silence

June 14, 2007 12:51 AM | Comments (4)

I won't be writing much, because there is too much real work to do. This is just to break the silence and let you know I'm still alive, somehow.

Band concert on 23 June. Not fully ready yet, but getting better.

Church website - I've been asked to design everything in Joomla 1.5. I'm going to tell them I'm just a designer and not a PHP programmer. That's not the skill God gave me, as much as I've tried to figure things out.

Work. As always. A few big projects coming to a crunch at the same time. Wondering how it can all be done.

Sleep is precious. A few hours a day for the past week. Coming home past midnight regularly. So, so tired but have to wake up.

And the cycle repeats itself.

Dreaming of boundaries

May 31, 2007 10:50 AM | Comments (3)

This year, in my quest for work-life balance, I decided to relook the way I respond to things. A Christian self-help book mentioned that we need to set boundaries for ourselves. This, and advice from other friends like QO, told me that I had to be more assertive and say 'no' when I really cannot commit extra time to a new request, be it from friends, family or work.

There is no need to say 'yes' too easily when someone else could (and should) have done the job; when my main work is affected; when it really isn't important or urgent as it looks to be. I say yes either because I want to please or impress the other person, or I'm afraid, or I really don't know the boundaries and genuinely want to help out. Of course, in an emergency many of us probably won't mind helping out, but we shouldn't be taken for granted, either. Some 'emergencies' occur because of bad planning, and when it happens regularly, we should not encourage it by offering to clean up the mess again and again.

Saying 'yes' blindly also means less time to do existing work, resulting in a drop in quality. Then, onlookers (who don't know the full story) will say oh, she's not so good anymore. The person who suffers is the one who takes on too many things. Priority should be given to the proper projects (within scope) that were planned way in advance. Overall, it's an issue I've prayed about frequently.

This morning, I dreamed of two imaginary instances where my boundaries were again tested. Firstly, I was back in time, planning my 2nd trip to SXSW in Austin, Texas. While packing my bags, my (dream) parents suggested that since Austin had nice golf courses (which I frankly haven't heard of in real life), I should bring my golf clubs along as well. I said no, it's crazy to bring them! They're so heavy, and I'm probably going to carry lots of other stuff back home. They insisted again. I said no and finally they left it at that. That was part one.

The second scenario: The landscape quickly morphed into a school-like setting, beside a swimming pool (perhaps it's my exposure to the ACJC Swimathon that did it). Free fruit juices were available and I ordered a mango drink. It was very refreshing. As some of us sat by the poolside watching the competition, a schoolgirl (who was, disturbingly, dressed in an RGS pinafore - maybe it was my HP Alumni talk in January that triggered this :P), came up and sipped the drink in my hand!!

As I didn't know who she was, I protested, and used the excuse that I had mouth ulcers (which was true) and she shouldn't be sharing drinks with me. She responded by saying, "I'm using my own straw". As she continued sipping from my drink, another of her friends came along (also in RGS uniform), took out her straw and both quickly sipped their way until half the drink was gone. At which point I thought enough was enough, and told both of them to stop nipping my drink. Of course, they were not happy, but I didn't care what they thought. It's my drink! Go get their own. [Disclaimer: I have nothing against RGS girls! This is just a dream! :P]

Shortly after that, I woke up and realised that God was perhaps testing me in theory, so I could reinforce my actions in practice. So far, in real life, enforcing my boundaries within reason has resulted in the other parties (so used to me being compliant) being unpleasantly surprised, realising that they can no longer take advantage of me. Initial reactions were harsh and, for want of a better word, reactive. But so far, I haven't been bothered again. In fact, these people have become nicer to me now.

My dreams were very realistic and I think I'd behave that way in real life, too. I just need more practice enforcing my limits and be more confident about it. If not, the only person who suffers will be me.

What I did on 25 May

May 25, 2007 11:41 PM | Comments (7)

I awoke this morning earlier than expected. Though I was on leave, my body's alarm clock was still geared towards working hours. In any case, I was spending my birthday shopping for new clothes with mum!

However, I soon learnt that it was Day 1 of the Great Singapore Sale. Thoughts of crowds of aunties elbowing people around, and long queues, filled my mind. However, the places we went to along Orchard Road appeared relatively tame. Total clothes tally: 3 dresses, 3 tops and 3 bottoms. A mix of casual stuff and a couple of items suitable for work.

We had lunch at Dome and because I was a member and it was my birthday, my main course was free! My coffee card expired, but the Dome manager kindly extended it by a few weeks. We ordered two Cafe Viennas. I threw in a $10 voucher that Dome sent to me last year. That made our entire meal free! Hurrah.

Next, I wanted to get body-pampering products. Was torn between products from Crabtree & Evelyn and Body Shop (think of the Paradox of Choice), but eventually chose the latter. Some of their pastes smelled good enough to eat. I was thinking that if there was a bomb attack and I was trapped in my bathroom for days, the first thing I'd try eating would be my Body Shop products!

Had dinner with parents at Valentino's. We had beef carpaccio, baked eggplant, porcini mushrooms, different types of seafood pasta and a super soft braised beef dish cooked by the mama of Valentino. Finally, the staff surprised me with a birthday cake and song! Other patrons in the restaurant clapped as well. A little boy from another table ran up to us, shouting "HELLO! HELLO!" and we said Hello back to him!

All in all, it was a busy but good day. Life should be like this more often...

Today, May Leong, the woman who died from overwork last month, was supposed to turn 29.

She would have been 29 today. I wonder how her mother, other family members and friends are feeling right now.

Work can be satisfying. Work can pay the bills. But work isn't worth dying for.

Over the weekend, friends told me of a Singaporean woman who recently died due to overwork.

The woman, May Leong, had even written on her blog about her overwork before she died.

I asked my friends to send me the article ... and they did. It's titled 'Vitamin M won't cure my health' from the New Paper - a popular English language tabloid in Singapore. It is really worth a read because surely none of us, not even I, would want to literally kill ourselves with work.

'Swell' news

May 1, 2007 4:12 PM | Comments (4)

Yesterday, I was diagnosed with a high fever (39 degrees Celcius) and acute tonsilitis. Apparently the swelling went all the way down my throat and two doctors who looked into my mouth, had the shudders. It sounded pretty bad. Even today, it still hurts when I speak.

As such, I will be resting at home and trying my best not to do any work. I've been suffering from broken sleep, often waking up in the middle of the night. Sometimes I dream of the work I haven't completed yet. Definitely have to re-prioritise my life as my health, social life and time with God has been affected.

I will thus be cutting down on all activities until I get better. For those who are kindly planning farewells and birthday dinners later this month, I think (and pray) I'll be well enough (and not contagious) to share in the celebrations. To friends with babies, I have been quite tardy and promise to visit you ... once I stop falling ill so often!

Taking myself as an example, I appeal to everyone not to overwork yourselves, because it really isn't worth it. Friends have been saying that to me over the past couple of weeks and I know theoretically that it makes sense, but felt helpless to change things myself. Slowly I have to assert myself more, say 'no' more often instead of trying to please people all the time.

Being physically, mentally and emotionally worn out will whittle away the enthusiasm and passion for the things we currently love doing.

Bird on a live wireless

April 16, 2007 11:04 PM | Comments (0)

The Marketing to Women conference Day 1 was generally good. As mainstream marketing is not my core function, I learnt more than the average Marketing graduate working in a Marketing role. Day 2 tomorrow should be good too.

As can be expected, there are many more women than men attending the event.

I couldn't help but notice one guy who remained at his seat while the rest of us had got up for lunch in a nearby room.

The guy was the only one with a 15" Macbook Pro.

I also couldn't help noticing he had a working internet connection.

Altogether, that was enough to make me approach him.

"Hi! Are you connected to the Internet?" I asked. He replied yes.

"Did you have to pay for it?" I probed. He said no.

"Oh, are you staying in this hotel?" (he was a Caucasian and I assumed he had travelled from a neighbouring country to attend this conference, and maybe he was given free access).

He said he wasn't staying in this hotel, and in fact that conference organisers(?) had given him the wireless username and password for free. He even showed me a slip of paper containing the login information.

(At this point I felt like turning into the Incredible Hulk, because I had so very nicely asked the Conference organisers the same question in the morning and they told me there was no wireless connection available. I asked again, if there actually WAS wireless but I had to pay for it, and they said yes.)

On my way out of the conference room, I bumped into one of the organisers and I asked her the same question. She insisted that there was no free wireless internet available.

Just then, the guy with the Macbook Pro and free wireless connection walked up behind her. That triggered off a sense of injustice that only the most wireless-deprived geeks would understand.

I didn't want to be too confrontational, so I simply muttered, "That's not what I've heard." And walked off.

On hindsight, maybe the guy needed to use the Internet in an emergency and they gave their account details to him, while agreeing to tell everyone else that there was no free wireless connection available.

Or maybe he was just very charming. After all, how often do ladies get to see a dude wielding a 15" beauty?

Marketing to Women

April 16, 2007 1:26 AM | Comments (2)

I'll be at the Marketing to Women conference at Copthorne Waterfront this Monday and Tuesday. I recall there isn't free wireless available, but if you do know of any 'lobang', let me know!

It's funny because I don't consider myself a 'typical' woman, so I might learn more at this conference than the average female attendee!

Nails.

April 8, 2007 10:50 PM | Comments (1)

A few of my girl friends commented that my blog was too techy for them. Well, here's a lightweight post which may sound very unlike my usual self!

Some long-suffering friends may be pleased to note that yours truly FINALLY went for a manicure and pedicure - for the first time in possibly a year.

The weirder thing is that 3-4 years ago, I bought a package for 10 manicure and pedicure sessions. Then I stopped working for a few months before moving to my current job. Somehow, I just stopped going and forgot about it for a long time, until my mum reminded me about it this year.

Today, I decided to stop procrastinating. I called up the salon this afternoon and gave them my details. They found my records and fortunately they still honoured it. So I turned up this evening for a nail session. The lady attending to me probably spent an extra long time shaving all the excess skin off my feet! I could see bits of wet skin coming off with every stroke of her instrument. My soles are feeling soft and tender now.

OK, it feels weird talking about beauty stuff. I hope my girl friends are happy. Let's say that I'm _so_ not used to having painted nails that the moment I walked out of the salon to my car, I immediately nicked one nail. Reaching into my bag for my keys was another hassle. Even going to the loo was... OK, you get the idea. Fortunately as my nails are still short, I can type on keyboards and play the piano.

I wonder what my band will think of me when I show up tomorrow, with painted hands and feet. Everybody else will probably be wearing jeans / T-shirts / cargo pants / bermudas... and there's their band leader appearing in open-toed sandals, afraid to swipe her fingers down the keys lest she chip a nail. Maybe I should bring a change of clothes and wear gloves. (BTW, we found a new drummer!)

This weekend, I...

April 2, 2007 1:18 AM | Comments (3)

(in chronological order)

  • Spent some time reading the latest issue of The Economist. Being alone at home has its perks - I get to read the newspapers and magazines first.
  • Tried to make it in time for a company event in the morning, but missed the main action. Decided to patronise the remaining stall that hadn't closed shop yet, and got a back massage by visually handicapped people. At least they made some money.
  • Tidied up one teeny portion of my room, leaving me with about 90% more mess to clear. Still contemplating getting a new work desk, or improving what I currently have.
  • Went out for dinner with relatives. Coughed like there was no tomorrow, and took some new medication.
  • Filed my taxes. That helped me to sleep better, knowing the deed was done.
  • Woke up on Sunday feeling much better - but still coughing.
  • Couldn't sing properly at church without coughing. The strain of having controlled lung actions was just too much for me.
  • Tidied up my car's glove compartment.
  • Went out for lunch with relatives.
  • Went to Tanglin Mall to buy cough drops, and stopped by That CD Shop to ask if the new Tracey Thorn album was out yet (the answer was no). I bought 3 compilations instead. Contemplated doing a music review on this blog, since I haven't written one in ages.
  • Created a private social network using Ning.com (thanks to Preetam for the link)
  • Created another private social network. Thinking of using it for my new band, to communicate and upload files.
  • Composed a music loop using my Korg Triton and Logic Pro 7. These will come in handy when I finally start my video podcast.
  • Had dinner at Waraku with the Bristol girls, to celebrate Shin's belated birthday.
  • Shot videos of weird scenes during the dinner. I'm wondering whether they're suitable for uploading and viewing by the public, or whether they would be too politically incorrect. Heh.
  • Uploaded a couple more video clips to Revver.com. Pending approval.
  • Pondered when I'd next update my blog, since I didn't have anything substantial to blog about yet.
  • Decided to blog about what I did this weekend.

Pre-Chinese New Year to-do list

February 14, 2007 7:41 PM | Comments (1)

Things I have to do:

  1. Pack for my Chinese New Year trip to Chiangmai
  2. Call up the travel agent to ask why I have an extra stopover en route to SXSW
  3. Call up the Apple Store to find out how come my Apple Keyboard and iPod radio controller haven't arrived, despite the online records saying it was delivered 2 days ago (I suspect dodgy delivery or untrustworthy neighbours)
  4. Upload all the photos sitting in my camera (once I get a new keyboard for my G5 Mac)
  5. Upgrade to Mint 2.0
  6. Upgrade to MT 3.34
  7. Finish reading all the marketing and trends books I've been reading halfway
  8. Clean up my desk further (both at home and at work)

Exercising with Nike+

February 9, 2007 12:52 AM | Comments (6)

I've never been an exercise junkie. Getting a 'Gold' rating for my physical fitness in my second year at Junior College was much the exception to the norm, as I was normally too lazy to exercise. As a geek I'd rather sit at my computer, surf websites and blog (like what I'm doing now).

Updating my exercise data on iTunes Until Nike and Apple got together and decided to do something special. I bought my Nike+ shoes and kit, followed by a red Nano (the AIDS edition). I started exercising again because I was so impressed with the way the two companies had integrated their services together.

However I initially had trouble logging in on my G5 mac (it can't access any https sites as well as the Nikeplus.com site). So tonight I decided to sync my Nano to this Dell laptop instead. It managed to connect to the Flash-based Nikeplus.com website.

Overview of my runs / walks It showed me a summary of all my runs so far. Well actually I ran once around a lake at the Botanical Gardens, but that was about it. Everything else was brisk walking at best. And in crowded areas it's difficult to walk fast.

Overview of my longest run/walk so far This is a detailed analysis of my walk and run at the Botanical Gardens. You can tell I stopped moving at a certain point. I think this was when we all got caught in the rain and were standing under a shelter. Incidentally, after I had completed and saved my workout, NeilLance Armstrong's voice came in through my headphones, congratulating me on my 'longest workout yet'. How cool is that?!?! That made me want to break my new record so I might hear another Nike+ celebrity, like Maria Sharapova.

So all in all, it's a kit worth having especially if you're a geek. This is because 1) at least you'll know how to use all these gadgets , 2) and you probably aren't exercising enough right now, anyway.

Keeping calm

January 30, 2007 12:48 AM | Comments (1)

With 8-9 projects to handle and close within the next couple of months, I'm in a state where I should be panicking - yet somehow I'm not.

I am in the eye of the hurricane. A step out of place and I will be swept away. So I simply remain, standing where I am, shifting slightly as the hurricane moves around, so I can remain in the centre.

Of course, to remain calm and productive, I have to focus on important matters. Work emails should get answered before personal emails. Right now, I am not answering most of my personal emails and please do not take it personally. I must get my work done first.

I will ignore emails with huge joke attachments because that takes up time and file space. At this stage, I may simply delete them without viewing them.

The time I've set aside to do work has been taken up by unexpected meetings, thus I am now burning the midnight oil in the hope that a few more pages of work can be done. I can only count on the Lord to keep myself calm and controlled.

(After the weekend's burst of activity, my time in SL shall be limited this week until I get all my work done. I'm serious...)

My HP Alumni talk

January 26, 2007 11:52 PM | Comments (9)

[Update: Hurrah, one student has blogged about the talk!]

I gave the presentation this evening. Murphy's Law threatened to cause a few surprises, but all was well in the end!

I started with a cover of Time Magazine's person of the year 2006 - "You". I talked about how new media technologies have empowered people to such an extent that traditional barriers are being broken down.

Then I asked the question, can anyone be too old to blog? (That was because an Alumni member reportedly said he wasn't interested in my talk as he was too old to blog.) I said to the contrary - 'older' people have more knowledge and experience to share. The Yesterday.SG museum blog has older bloggers who are prolific. I forgot to mention how an 80-year old man called my office line one day, asking me how to start a blog. That was one of the most amazing things I've heard.

I told them how my blog enabled me to reach out to people across the world. Book reviews I'd written, were read by the authors themselves. I told the story of how Stephen Williams, author of How To Be President, wrote in to me after reading my review on this book. Later on, a Czech publisher wrote to me, asking to be put in touch with him as he wanted to translate his book into the Czech language. I put them in touch. This story seemed go down well with the audience.

I elaborated on certain technologies such as news feeds and mashups, as well as trends like crowdsourcing. I showed them local mashup, Bookjetty. The finale was Second Life. I took the audience through Virtual Hallucinations, since I was able to play through the lecture hall's speakers (see my previous review). We could hear the haunting voices telling my Avatar, "You're not good enough... you don't deserve to live". The audience saw the floor disappearing in front of my Avatar as she tried to walk down a corridor. I told them this was so much more effective than a textbook description on schizophrenia.

A number of schools were invited as well. RGS students took up a few rows, and being RGS girls they asked intelligent questions at the end of the talk, which I was thankfully able to answer.

I was really glad that my CEO and my former boss were able to attend the talk. While the turnout was much smaller than I initially thought, the majority of the audience participated in it by asking questions. In fact the Q&A session was much longer than I expected. Which was a good sign.

One concerned parent asked how children could be prevented from reading objectionable blogs which contained inaccurate or slanderous information. I told her that one way was to monitor every single blog in Singapore, but that would not be feasible. Besides, everyone has the right to have his say. It also takes too much effort to correct every inaccurate post. The best solution, I argued, would be to train our own children to be discerning, so that if they come across a blog with dubious content, they would be able to realise it themselves.

One older man asked if it was feasible to set up a blog for his group cycling activities. I asked for more details about the blog. As the group uses different cycling routes and also take photos during each trip, I said it sounded like the blog could be sustained with fresh content.

An even better sign was the number of people coming to talk to me after the official Q&A session. I had parents asking me for advice on dealing with their children who seemed to be glued to their computers, and schoolgirls asking me about future trends.

One mother said her son played online games (presumably Warcraft) and had so many friends in his online chat list that he wasn't studying hard enough. I told her that it was good her son had so many friends. In fact that morning I had attended a Yahoo! youth survey presentation which confirmed that youths could have as many as 100 or more chat contacts - and this was normal. So I told the mother that her son was normal and having lots of friends would provide him with emotional support.

I added that the ability to make many friends (presumably good ones) is a valuable life skill that he can carry on through his life and career. It would certainly get him farther than someone who studied or worked all day and did not have any friends. She left, looking satisfied and less unhappy with her son.

Next, I spoke to different RGS girls.

The first girl asked me if I thought print media was going to disappear, in say, 20 years' time. I said that print media will always be around. In my own presentation earlier, I had stated that new media will complement and not necessarily replace traditional media. Perhaps in time, print media's role may be diminished slightly further. But as long as there are people who prefer reading paper instead of on-screen content, there will always be print. I asked her if she expected to see books disappearing off the shelves in 20 years' time. She said no. I said, well, likewise with other print media. That seemed to satisfy her.

The next girl asked me why I didn't become a lawyer, so I told her the full story. She asked me, "But am I happy with what I'm doing now?" I said yes wholeheartedly and that seemed to make her happy as well. I told her, you are bright girls and you can probably do anything you want. So, make sure you choose a path that you really like. The girl left with a smile on her face, like I had confirmed something she was also thinking of.

Another girl told us she'd like us to go into Podcasting. I told her we already had podcasts but maybe she could listen to ours and tell us how to improve them. Not surprisingly, she preferred podcasts that had two or three-person dialogues in them, not one-way messages. (We have been planning to amend our scripts so they'd have dialogues in them, so this kind of confirmed it.) She said was going to produce her own podcasts with friends, so I asked her to drop me a line when that happened so I can also find out what youths want. Who knows, maybe we can all collaborate together one day ;-)

One SJI/ACJC boy is going to install Second Life and ditch The Sims. I'm hoping more students in Singapore try it out and do great things with it. (And if the young gentleman in question is reading this post, do drop a note to say hi!)

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Geek happenings

January 11, 2007 2:41 AM | Comments (1)

This Monday I was hit by the stomach flu, with chills, aches, diarrhoea and a general loss of appetite. The loss of appetite has persisted up to today. So what geeky things have been keeping me up at this unearthly hour?

  1. Preparing my presentation slides for the HP Alumni.
  2. Making preparations for my SXSW trip. Travel arrangements. And panels, panels, panels! So many to choose from, in a short space of time!
  3. Organising some work stuff. Am getting quite fastidious about tidy workspaces, even on my Windows desktop. But was tickled to read about the British Government's attempt to add black tape on civil servants' desks.
  4. Looking out for new mashups and discovering LiveWorkPlay, where a group of Bristolians are keeping track of what they're doing in their everyday lives! (such fond memories of my University days there)
  5. Wednesday morning was first spent gloating over the second consecutive Arsenal win at Anfield. I have nothing against Liverpool, in fact I think they're generally nice blokes except for Craig Bellamy who is still rather talented, but it showed that the young Gunners have promise.
  6. Finally I decided to take the plunge and check out the iPhone. At US$499 (4GB) or $599 (8GB) it's a good deal compared to other PDA phones, considering its software features, ease of use and sheer beauty. I would ignore the cynical comments made in the meantime, because the real trial is when the product comes to the shelves and we actually get to use it.
  7. [Bleah. Sorry to readers who received a garbled combination of points 5 and 6 earlier on. One annoying thing about my laptop is that it doesn't lock the touchpad when I'm typing, so sometimes with a swipe of my wrist I select and unwittingly erase a block of text as I type.]

Happy New Year!

January 1, 2007 11:54 AM | Comments (5)

Looking back, 2006 was a generally good year for me and I'm grateful for it. I hope we can all continue to improve ourselves and grow stronger - be it at work or with family and friends.

Looking back fondly at 2006

Geek-wise, 2006 was a good year for Web 2.0 - though I feel it's happening mostly in the West, and Singapore has yet to fully catch on to the spirit of things. At least Google Maps made it to Singapore, finally. Politically, in the US, the Democrats capitalised on anti-Bush sentiments by winning the majorities in the House and Senate. This may signal a different approach on foreign and economic policy in 2007. The year ended on a grim note with the hanging of Saddam Hussein, which probably won't do much to end all the fighting anyway.

In late 2006, I underwent health screening and received a bill of good health - no diabetes or high blood pressure, low in bad cholesterol and high in good cholesterol. I braved a super 'flu bug without antibiotics, am still coughing periodically but hopefully I will recover on my own without the need for extra medication. After purchasing my Nike+ kit, shoes and a new red Nano, I started exercising again and walked/ran over 5km last Sunday.

Media interest in 2006 was beyond my expectations, with several interviews in print, web and radio featuring my blog, myself, the Gahmenbloggers, a foray into Second Life and work-related projects. The reporters who interviewed me were most polite and professional and in some cases we ended up SMS'ing and emailing each other with more ideas, which is a great way to work together. Also, the publicity got me back in touch with other friends who wanted to know more about my faith. So, thank you, God for putting me here and giving me these opportunities.

My second interview with Radio Singapore International was broadcast last Friday evening. I was part of a group interview in the setting up of a new blog for my agency. It's called the Youth Advolution for Health (YAH) blog and it is a CCA where students take the lead in proposing new activities and events to promote a healthy lifestyle.

I'm thankful to my group of Gahmenbloggers and the support and frank advice we have rendered to each other - may we keep the spirit alive in 2007 and beyond. I joined Yesterday, the Museum Roundtable Blog, and took part in my first music mashup with the Rambling Librarian.

I'd also like to thank management for being open-minded and supportive of all these new initiatives, trusting me to step forward and, in the words of a Canadian-Indian comedian, "Do the right thing". I'm reading Stephen M.R. Covey's book, The Speed of Trust and realise there was a lot of that going around. And based on IDEO's 10 Faces of Innovation, there was a lot of 'cross-pollination' with certain colleagues too and I hope this will continue, along with other aspects of innovation.

Forthcoming engagements

On 17 January 2007, Web Standards aficionados in Singapore will take part in the very first Web Standards Meetup. This has been initiated by my WebSG partner-in-crime, Lucian and you bet I'll be giving it my full support. Again, this is something worthwhile that is taking some time to catch on in Singapore, probably because it isn't taught in school and people think they can still get by with making things look good only in Internet Explorer.

On 26 January 2007, I will be giving a talk to the Hewlett-Packard Alumni, over at Raffles Girls' School. If you are attending this, drop me a note or leave a comment if there's anything in particular on new media trends that you want to hear about.

In early March 2007, I will attend the South-By-Southwest Interactive (SXSWi) conference in Austin, Texas. Of course, considering that bestselling authors, experts in blogging, podcasting, AJAX, microformats etc will be there, I'll be taking notes.

In June 2007 you can catch me and my new fusion jazz band, the Moon Jumpers, in concert (venue and exact date to be confirmed). The band is made up of talented individuals, but we need to practice more together, to gel as a band.

And for other iPod users who believe in paying for music and movies, like me - fingers crossed for a Singapore iTunes online store in 2007!

Christmas Blues

December 22, 2006 6:29 PM | Comments (0)

This morning I woke up, realised I may have overslept, lunged towards my alarm clock to check the time, and was smartly reminded of the presence of the solid, sharp wooden corner of my bedside shelf.

The welt just above my right eyebrow was a little red but otherwise looked fine in my bathroom mirror. I drove to work. Then I went into the lift and saw my reflection. A purple mound was rising.

I put an ice pack on my head in the morning, and it fit very nicely on top of my spectacles - much to the amusement of people around me. Most of the swelling subsdided eventually , but there is still a tiny bump ... and it still hurts.

As misery loves company, I'd like to note that A L stubbed her toes recently and they're blue-black too.

Youth party at the Esplanade

December 12, 2006 7:04 PM | Comments (0)

Wanna join in the party? It's at DXO at the Esplanade this Saturday evening (16 Dec 2006).

YAH is a project I'm supporting. It stands for the Youth Advolution for Health, a peer-led programme. We helped to set up a blog for the youths and are happy to let them run the rest of the show!

We're celebrating because YAH's turned one year old... and we want to have fun!

I'll be at the party so hope to see you there. Because it's healthy, there won't be smoking and alcohol ... but there will be Mocktails galore. I even thought up one new Mocktail name myself.

Admission is free but you need to register so we know how many people are coming.

There's also a contest where you can win an iPod nano. Details are on the registration form. Feel free to spread the word, blog about it, email your friends...

Cheers!

Second Life update: Lighthouse revisited

December 11, 2006 10:40 PM

I've always liked lighthouses. The strong pillar that guided the ships. The bastion of light in a field of darkness. And now, someone's living quarters in Second Life!

In the Lighthouse!
If I ever had to live in a lighthouse, I wouldn't mind if it looked like this. (Note: A Mac with a large Apple display helps a lot)

Then I looked around me and realised it was a bit like Myst, the beautifully crafted game. There were clues as to the owner-creator's identity. His website was on the Apple display. Mysterious letters were left on his table, in wingding format (which I couldn't be bothered to sort out right now but maybe someone will, one day).

Looking back at the archives of this guy who presumably set up the Lighthouse, it turns out he is a virtual conservationist of the nearby forest of Kahruvel! He attended a wedding in Second Life between two spy characters, one whom I recognised from the pages of Mad Magazine.

Imagine that - protecting and restoring virtual forests, and attending virtual wedding ceremonies.

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I'm going SXSW 2007!

December 10, 2006 12:58 AM | Comments (2)

It's confirmed - I'm going to the South By Southwest Interactive conference in Austin, Texas next March! I've booked my accommodation. Thankfully it is nearer to the venue than the hotel I stayed in this year, which was along the highway.

Do drop me a note if you're going as well. We could meet up.

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Cough update

December 6, 2006 10:49 PM | Comments (0)

I'm still having a bad cough - hard to suppress. I'm now on new medication that will apparently get all the phleghm out, but it will make me drowsy and cough a lot. My throat is hurting, and it's time to sleep. Hope to recover soon as it's been hell trying to have decent phone conversations and giving presentations.

Off to Byron Bay!

November 29, 2006 9:09 PM | Comments (0)

Tomorrow evening my mum and I will be off to visit my sister to celebrate her birthday together.

My biggest concern is not that I have yet to pack for my trip. Nor is it the never-ending flow of work while I'm gone for two weekdays plus a weekend. Work will never end, anyway.

My biggest concern is that I have yet to recover from the last dregs of my 'flu, which is a prevalent cough and a slightly runny nose.

I don't mind the runny nose so much, because the Yellow Pill can take that away (I forget drug names exactly). Today, three people have warned me that being ill while on a plane, especially on a long flight, will exacerbate my cough due to the dry air. If my throat already feels dry in humid Singapore, I dread how I will feel when I'm thousands of feet up in the air.

What I also don't like is infecting other people and making lots of noise coughing away on the plane. It's just bad timing that I'm the last one in the family to catch the bug, and that it coincides with my trip.

I'm going to take all my medication with me and to be safe, declare it to Aussie Customs. The last thing I want to be, is a burden to others when on holiday.

Please pray for my speedy recovery. Thank you!

I'm in the papers today!

Snapshot of the article

I gave a phone interview to Hian Hou, a journalist from the Straits Times' Digital Life supplement. Actually, he was one of the first (if not the very first) journalists who ever interviewed me.

This time it wasn't about blogging but Second Life and why it isn't taking off as well in Singapore, compared to games like World of Warcraft and Maple Story.

There are different schools of thought on this, but in any case, I don't like to play games which make me feel pressurised. Judging from my coordination skills and reflexes, or lack thereof, I am much better off in a virtual world which lets me do my own thing.

Many years ago, I used to play games like Dune 2 and Command & Conquer. Even then, I got tired of sticking to the storyline. I preferred playing one-on-one with the computer, leaving behind one enemy unit at the far end of the map (so the game wouldn't end), while my troops continued to harvest more spice than we could possibly consume, erect more buildings that we wouldn't even need, and build more vehicles than we'd possibly require to eventually eradicate that hapless remaining soldier (when I finally got bored and wanted to finish the game).

Coming to think of it, I do tend to gravitate towards less violent games like Sim Earth, Sim Tower, Sim Ants, Sim Island, The Sims, Civilisation and Alpha Centauri, although I haven't touched any of these games in years.

I didn't expect myself to featured in a column, nor to be classified as an 'Explorer' but I guess if the cap fits ... :P Thanks!

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What to do with the flu

November 27, 2006 9:23 PM | Comments (2)

I've been hit with the 'flu. It began with a fever on Friday night, a splitting headache on Saturday, followed by a cough on Sunday night. This morning when I woke up, my voice was gone. Worked for half a day then went home to rest.

I hate being ill. Good health is something we take for granted, until we don't have it anymore. There are so many things I haven't started or completed yet. But if I think about them now, I won't be able to sleep, which will slow down the recovery process. So I just have to shut everything out, pray, and hope for the best.

When sorrow isn't good enough

November 26, 2006 12:15 PM | Comments (2)

Reading about British PM Tony Blair's intention to express 'sorrow' at the slave trade centuries ago, brought to mind a more recent event in my university town of Bristol.

Traditionally, members of our Malaysian-Singaporean Students' Association would raise money by 'auctioning' off first-year students (called Freshers). It was all in good fun, although by the time it reached my generation it became increasingly randy and outrageous - no thanks to me.

We got along well with students from other countries and they too were invited to participate in our slave auction. One Eastern European hunk dressed in drag, together with his friends.

But when Z, who attended the same law course as I, appeared on stage to be sold as a slave, something came up from the back of my mind and smacked me on the forehead.

You see, Z was Nigerian-born. As she stood on stage smiling, I recalled what little I had read up on Bristol's shadier past as a major player in the slave trade. It was ironic, yet symbolic - a sign that perhaps history had been forgiven by some, if not forgotten? That it was no longer taboo and we didn't have to worry about political correctness anymore?

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Jay-Z in Second Life

November 24, 2006 11:30 PM | Comments (0)

I watched Jay-Z live in concert yesterday. He appeared live on the ABC News Network. I received a notification email, signed up to receive an official invitation, and was immediately given free entry into the concert hall. Around me were other fans, head-banging, clapping and cheering.

This all happened in Second Life.

Here are some pre-concert pics. We were waiting for a loooong time. But we made history.

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Top view of the stadium

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Me 'head-banging'.

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More people gather.

(More pics will be uploaded next week - with Jay-Z in them! Sorry I forgot to transfer all the screen shots to this computer.)

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AIDS play and clubbing

November 12, 2006 1:23 AM

Just got back home after watching a play at Mox that raises awareness of protecting oneself AIDS by avoiding high-risk behaviour (for gays). The storyline is about a gay man who has a one-night stand with another guy he meets at the bar. They don't use a condom and as a result, the man gets infected with HIV. He then has unprotected sex with his own partner, then goes for an anonymous HIV test to learn he's positive. How does he break the news to his partner? Is there anything he could have avoided at each stage of the scenario?

Roy is hauled up on stage What's special about this play is that it isn't a one-way performance. After the main storyline is acted out, the audience is invited to suggest ways to improve his situation by going back into the past. Should the couple have clearly communicated to each other their views on fidelity in a relationship? Should the man have avoided flirting in the first place? If they had to do it, should he have insisted on using the condom? Could he have broken the bad news to his partner in a better way?

It was entertaining because the members of the audience who suggested an alternative approach, had to take the place of that character and act it out with the other performers on stage. That made it more meaningful as it wasn't just theoretical but practical as well. Thanks to Action for AIDS who organised it.

Take-home points:

  • People who have AIDS/HIV can look normal like the rest of us. So you can't judge by looks.
  • Also, whether you're a top or bottom (gay speak) doesn't make your chances of contracting HIV any better or worse.
  • If you're unsure whether you've contracted HIV, go for a test, but bear in mind that even if it reveals you're HIV negative, you should re-take the test in 3 months to confirm this as the virus may be undetectable initially.

After the play ended, a friend gave us a brief tour of the gay clubbing scene in Singapore. We looked at a few clubs and ended up at Happy, which was what we felt after drinking a bit and dancing on the floor. There was also a 'fashion show' where models carried placards with safe sex messages.

Steamy words Standing in line

All in all it was a fun and educational night. Now it's time to sleep.

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Peranakan pics!

November 4, 2006 7:17 PM | Comments (2)

Because I didn't take any photos on the night of my performance, I had to rely on the graces of other relatives to send photos and videos to me. Here are a couple of contributions:

Me and Vicki
Me and my sister Vicki...

Sheryl and me
Cousin Sheryl and me...

Singapore Second Life meetup

October 30, 2006 1:18 AM | Comments (2)

Singaporean SL Group photo

We had our first SL Singapore meetup at 9pm last night. We took a group photo. Then Ivan, Kevin, Preetam, Alvin and I started talking geek, and the younger members slipped away. We moved to Chilin's Yacht. Thanks to Chilin for being such a tolerant hostess as we messed up the place with furniture, booze and weapons!

It's morning - breakfast time! We talked through SL evening to dusk. Then I made breakfast, and watched Ivan and Kevin engage in a Star Wars lightsaber battle.

In other SL news, I decided to sign up for a premium account while the L$400 monthly allowance still holds. Now shopping around for land. Like a real Singaporean - looking for condominiums!

Early this morning while sitting in a cafe, chatting to Ramblinglibrarian and some new friends, a man appeared out of nowhere. He took out a gun and fired it in my directon.

I didn't realise what was happening until I saw sparks flying around me. I realised I might have been hit. Almost as quickly, one of the members of the cafe came to my defence and drove him off.

Fortunately, I wasn't hurt. This is because it all happened in Second Life. (no, not Half-Life, which is what that jerk should be playing if he really wants to shoot people)

As in the real world, rules or guidelines are drawn up to ensure public order, but they sometimes get broken. While experiencing my first ugly encounter in Second Life, I was glad to see some redemption through the kind and decisive acts of another Second Lifer who had the authority to boot the gunman off the island.

I'm not really scared, because you can't die in Second Life. Most people I've met so far are nice, or at least curious about this new world. I've met people from the US (of course), UK, Mexico, Greece and probably more I've lost track of. This normally doesn't happen on mainstream chat channels like MSN where you just stick to your regular list of friends and family. We Second Lifers are also bound together through interest groups.

There will be a Singapore meetup tomorrow evening. If you are already in Second Life, join the SL Singapore group! I'll try to make it for the meetup myself.

A grand family affair

October 19, 2006 11:53 PM | Comments (2)

We survived.

The singing went well. When I went on stage to sing 'Girl from Ipanema', I took off my spectacles for aesthetic reasons. Turned out there was a practical use as well - because I couldn't see the audience clearly, I did not panic. I didn't forget my lyrics or sing the wrong note. My cousin and I kind of figured out the dance steps as we went along.

The family choir item went well too. We were all smiling and we even managed to coordinate ourselves to the letter. The photographs turned out better than I had hoped.

Later on we were congratulated by various people, some of whom I didn't know. Thank goodness I'm in Singapore, where an older stranger can safely be called Uncle or Auntie.

It was a massive family event and I think my grandparents enjoyed themselves, which is most important.

This is an inflammatory post

October 15, 2006 1:37 PM | Comments (7)

On Friday night I suffered from an inflammation of my lower intestinal tract. It started with a massive 'traffic jam' caused by a pileup the last few days (too busy, working, sleeping late preparing for family event etc etc, no time to care for my own health, the usual crap) which resulted in me trying too hard and making the 'road block' even worse.

The inflammation caused external and internal swelling, to the point where flow to my bladder was blocked. I was unable to pee despite drinking lots of water. My abdomen started to bloat. Altogether it was a disturbing feeling. I could barely get in and out of bed. I couldn't walk but hobbled back and forth from the bed to the toilet every hour or half hour on Saturday morning. The pain was so great I didn't feel sleepy.

Finally, I saw a doctor who put things back in where they should be. I've been on medication since. At the same time I was trying to respond to people's urgent text messages, emails and then I decided to ignore everything because I was in so much pain, everything else didn't matter.

Ironic, isn't it. I decided that many things I'm doing aren't worth sacrificing my OWN health and time. I feel like I've lost control. I've said NO a few times already but I should be saying NO even more, because:

  • I haven't had time to read all the books I've bought half a year ago.
  • I haven't had time to learn how to fully utilise all the music production software I've bought.
  • I haven't even had time to meet up with someone who could be a potential life partner (ha, how's that for perspective???)
  • I haven't re-organised my room.
  • I haven't resumed my gym sessions, two years after hurting my back.
  • I haven't had time to meet up to discuss a potential radio show.
  • I don't have time to continue griping on this blog ... so let's leave it for now. It's a long list.

So I say ...

October 13, 2006 5:51 PM | Comments (2)

Friend A (to pregnant friend B): You should eat bird's nest and Buddha Jumps Over The Wall*
Friend B: That's so expensive!!
Me: Why don't you get Buddha to jump over the wall, land on a tree and pluck the bird's nest?

* soups with expensive ingredients

Meeting Theory and Thoughts

October 5, 2006 11:59 PM | Comments (2)

Yesterday I met up with Kevin, the man with the Theory, and Ivan, aka Ramblinglibrarian. Kevin has more to say about it on his blog, so go read it. See, I don't look so fierce in the photo...

[I nearly named this post "A doctor, a librarian and a lawyer walk into a bar". Well, Kevin's nearly got his doctorate but I'm definitely no qualified lawyer. Just couldn't resist thinking of a title that sounded like a corny joke. ]

Meeting Teo Ser Luck

October 4, 2006 1:30 AM

Teo Ser Luck, Parliamentary Secretary of MCYS

I met "Ser Luck", as he introduced himself to us, yesterday evening at Villa Bali. It was pretty cool.

Blinkymummy has a more exciting story to tell. It is a rare privilege to be suanned by an MP. Will he be her new Beng?

Damien took incriminating photos of me with finger food. I reciprocated by taking photos of him.

There may be problems listening to my radio interview on this page (the last I tried, it played someone else's interview instead). So, you can listen to the mp3 recording here.

Thanks to Joel from Radio Singapore International for the file! RSI did a great job putting everything together seamlessly.

Note to readers who haven't met me before: My voice doesn't usually sound so low. No, it's not because of the late night I kept before the interview, nor my singing. I was told that voices in recorded interviews tend to sound lower.

Anti-procrastination day

September 24, 2006 11:53 PM | Comments (1)

Today was my anti-procrastination day. It began a little shakily with me getting out of bed 10 minutes later than I had planned, but thereafter I set about tackling my overdue to-do list. I:

  1. Gave up trying to activate my newly-purchased copy of Adobe Photoshop online (there was a connectivity problem with my PowerMac). In the end I activated it by phone. I'm usually quite loathe to make phone calls, especially to do with software problems. Ugh, at least I got that out of the way.
  2. Informed the people at church that I and a friend would be signing up for the 'Christianity Explored' course. My friend may be reading this post. Yes, it's you.
  3. Threw out some old clothes I used to wear in university, which I'd never want to wear now.
  4. Finally bought new music software which I was eyeing for a while. At first I felt it was too amateurish for my needs, especially since I already had Logic Pro 7. Then realising that it was so easy to use that I'd save a lot of time while practising for my jazz piano lessons.
  5. Restored/reformatted my buggy iPod. Quite a big task, considering my 60GB iPod is nearly full. Imagine how long it took to load back all my songs and photos!
  6. Returned to dance lessons today, after skipping alternate lessons due to my busy work schedule. Managed to recall some salsa steps taught in previous lessons. Learnt some basic ballroom dancing steps.
  7. Completed another family project, taking photos of old photos. Worked past dinnertime to complete the job.

I still have yet to sign up for new gym classes and sort out lots of other things. But it's a start.

See you at Suntec

September 2, 2006 10:14 AM | Comments (0)

I was at the Suntec City Tropics Atrium yesterday, and will be there again today and tomorrow. We have set up a mock HDB flat with a 'healthier' take. I will be at the playground section. Bring your kids along!

I have been impressed with children's ability to take something ordinary and turn it into an obstacle course. You'll see what I mean if you go there.

Outside Carrefour, there is also a Healthy Food Bazaar where you can buy healthier choice products and food. That area was very popular yesterday. Food is at the heart of Singaporeans...

Time to read

July 3, 2006 7:30 PM | Comments (0)

I realise that when you let yourself get caught up with things around you, you forget to do the one thing that has enabled you to get thus far:

Reading.

I was a bookworm when young. At age 14 I attempted to read Stephen Hawking's A Brief History of Time - even though I didn't study physics. I kept on reading, beyond what was necessary in the school syllabus (unless it was in Chinese).

Then I discovered the Internet and my eyes re-adjusted themselves to reading digital text. I liked how one link would lead to another. I discovered people through through their blogs. Online academic papers led me from one footnote to another. I

Today, we don't just link to other people. We tag stories, rate them and give trackback pings on our own blogs. In that process we learn more about what the community is thinking about at the time.

After so many years I realise I've never really said it until now - the web is a beautiful thing.


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Busy again

June 23, 2006 12:56 AM | Comments (0)

Well, I'm back to my busy phase. Got back from my holiday and had a few surprises when I checked my emails. May not bother replying to social emails. Work, work work.

Maid's on a 3 week holiday, so after coming home late, I start doing housework. I watch the World Cup, fall asleep on the sofa, wake up sometime between 1-4am, change out of my work clothes and go to sleep.

Then the day starts again.

In between, I have band rehearsals and piano lessons to practice for.

No, I still have not registered the song I performed last July, with COMPASS. No, I still have not sent any music to Taxi for appraisals.

No, I have not met up with various people I've promised to meet up with. I have two more friends with newborn babies that I haven't visited yet. Anyway, I've had the flu since I got back to Singapore, so it's just as well.

Bahhh.

Return notes

June 4, 2006 10:54 PM | Comments (1)

After two weeks in Europe I can't say I'm absolutely elated to come back. I've seen the best museums and tasted the best cheeses in France, eaten the best cured hams and paella and drunk the best sangria in Spain, shopped at the finest store in London, read quality newspapers that (finally!) didn't have English mistakes in them, and visited my university city, Bristol.

The last thing I wanted to do upon coming back was to fall ill, but my throat became sore after leaving the plane yesterday. And I wasn't the only one. Today, my PowerMac G5 refused to start, showing the grey screen of death every time I started it up. I went to our family iMac, downloaded various instructions from the Apple Support site and tried them all out. Finally, pulling out the power plug for 15 seconds seemed to reset the system and it has gone back to normal (for now).

I did wonder if it was a heavenly sign that I was meant to purchase my MacBook Pro now. I was fingering the individual keys on the new MacBooks a few days ago at the Apple Store in Birmingham, wondering if I could buy one and claim back my VAT.

However, I did not receive a confirmation from God, and the G5 has since been fixed, so I will hang on until those new Intel processors and Mac OS 10.5 emerge.

[A side note - after this happened to me, I tried to back up more data to Strongspace but the service was also down! Looking at the forum, it seems this has been happening lately. Murphy's Law.]

I will backdate my blog posts to cover my visits to Paris, Madrid, London and other areas. You can start by viewing Paris day 1 here, along with photos of the Louvre and Orsay museums.

My day

May 1, 2006 9:12 PM | Comments (2)

Today I finished re-writing chord charts for a song my new band will be learning.

I am recovering from a viral throat infection and a tongue ulcer.

I am now cleaning up my iCal because somehow during sychronisation between my Mac, the Missing Sync and my O2 Mini, I now have repeat dates for events such as friends' birthdays, one day after the other.

iSync also rebelled against me today, saying it was unable to sync with my O2 Mini. I wondered if the recent firmware upgrade to my phone has anything to do with it. In any case I just discovered (duh!) that I was using an older version of the Missing Sync and was entitled to a free upgrade to version 2. So I'm doing it now.

Easter Sunday

April 16, 2006 7:15 PM | Comments (3)

Had a great service this morning. The church was packed full - to the point where we could barely stand without knocking into someone. Children were made to answer some basic questions about Easter, and as always, their answers were honest, candid and surprisingly accurate - apart from a comment that bunnies laid eggs.

Back home, as I re-launched my site this afternoon, it suddenly occured to me that this was a significant moment. My old server was subject to occasional taunts, insults and abuse by spammers. Eventually, one attack caused my account to be suspended last week. My friends (hosted on my account) and I stood innocent but were made to pay for others' crimes.

I found a new home with a new web host. Over the weekend, I kept late nights (early mornings, 4am to be precise) moving databases, files, and waiting for the domain name servers (DNS) to point to the new server. Since the site was down, I decided to do some housekeeping. I also decided to upgrade my friends to MT3.2 - a new body, capable of more powerful things. And I figured out how to reduce attacks on the trackback file (I think).

Finally, I published my home page. Resurrection!!!

Coffee, tea, me or me again?

April 10, 2006 10:09 PM | Comments (4)

Two Vanessa Tans

My boss: I've been watching Miss Singapore Universe 2006... do you know there's a contestant called Vanessa Tan?
Me: Is it? ... (recovers from mild shock) Shh! Don't tell people I'm moonlighting!!!

I went home, found the website and my namesake's profile page. Flight stewardess. Can lah :P

SgBlog's top 10

April 9, 2006 1:58 AM | Comments (0)

My referral software occasionally points me back to sgblog.com, which keeps a top 10 list of Singapore blogs. I've been on the list for a year or two, but have no idea how I got there. Not surprisingly though, XX is there, along with SPG and a model who appeared in FHM (against her will). However many other popular bloggers were left out.

Alongside each blog name was a figure in brackets. The higher the number, the higher the ranking.

Out of curiosity, I signed up for an account. Then I clicked on my own blog... and the figure in brackets increased by one.

So that's how it works - a simple clickthrough to measure popularity.

I won!

March 19, 2006 11:31 PM | Comments (5)

My singing trophy

I was too tired to report it earlier ... but I won!

More importantly, we raised over $3000 for the old folks' home.

Resurgence

March 18, 2006 10:30 AM | Comments (3)

Just checked my Mint stats and found a re-surge in referrals from Zeldman.com due to his new Ma.gnolia bar*. A friendly 'hey!' to all newcomers. I just signed up with Ma.gnolia myself. It looks much neater than Del.icio.us.

[Update: Since there were no Ma.gnolia groups for 'Singapore', I've just created the Web Standards Singapore Group. Membership is open to all. ]

In other news, I will be singing at the Hilton Hotel Singapore for charity tonight. How this has happened is a long story, but the voting money goes to an old folks' care centre that my company adopted. I'll be having a simple lunch - no spices, no fried food. Then I'm going for some beauty treatment! ;-)

* A pun that some Singaporeans may get - we had a famous Magnolia Snack Bar (our parents may have dated there!) that was restored briefly when Times the Bookshop was revamped at Centrepoint.

Last night in Austin

March 15, 2006 10:26 AM | Comments (0) | TrackBacks (0)

Lucian left for the airport this afternoon, so I hung around and started chatting with some other participants who were also not satisfied with the way our panel discussion was going. Then everybody packed the hall for sci-fi author Bruce Sterling who said lots of funny things about the world and America (think Michael Moore) and received the only standing ovation I've seen at SXSW.

Then I walked around town, taking photos of my last evening in Austin. I had dinner at the Rio Colorado (good, cheap Mexican food and burgers and really polite service), bought some souvenirs and took a cab back to the hotel.

Tomorrow I'm thinking of checking out at noon (the stipulated time), leaving my bags with the hotel, walking to the nearest Target (over 5km away)shopping centre for a look-see. Along the way I'll have lunch and walk back to the hotel. Then I'll catch a cab to the airport at 3pm, and fly at 6pm.

There doesn't seem to be much left for me to do in Austin.

I'm gonna upload lots of pics to Flickr right now, but thought I should just blog about this first.

#1 line: "I was linked on Zeldman.com". I said this only to the academic guy in the kilt, actually.

Standard line: "We're from Singapore." coupled with either "That's 14 hours' time difference!" or "It takes over half a day to fly here."

Not so sexy pickup line: "Ve vork for ze government."

More info over at Break Bread with Brad.

Checked in

March 10, 2006 4:06 PM | Comments (3) | TrackBacks (0)

Checked into the DoubleTree Hotel Austin in the early evening. It's one of the older hotels, as I had heard, but thankfully it's been recently renovated and my non-smoking room is clean and well-furnished.

After I left my bags in the room, I had dinner with Mark and talked football (Premier League, Champions League, World Cup) and geeky things. We ate at Hut's, possibly the most famous burger joint in Austin. The burgers lived up to their reputation. We each ordered a diet Coke and they gave us two huge glasses, about 0.75 litres each. And refills were free. I couldn't finish my glass.

More office work coming in, and more photos to upload. Ta ta for now!

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I woke up late this morning, had a quick chat with Katie and went back to sleep. Woke up again, washed my hair, changed, made myself a cheese sandwich (yum!) and continued to sit at the dining table with my laptop, watching the workers move in and out. I'm good at doing that.

Rosie and Bonnie are now lying at my feet. Both dogs are asleep. I'm listening to a symphony of doggy snores.

Arrived in Austin

March 9, 2006 8:01 AM | Comments (2) | TrackBacks (0)

After a short but comfortable flight from Los Angeles, I'm now in Austin, staying over at Kristen and Mark's new place. It's coming along nicely!

Finally got to meet Rosie and Bonnie. We're going out for dinner soon. Ta!

Update: Had a most satisfying dinner at Salt Licks. Managed to finish (nearly) a full slab of baby black ribs. The ribs were huge! If that was a baby, I'd like to see an adult. Oh, I forgot ... this is Texas.

Movie and book review

February 13, 2006 3:38 PM

Since I'm suffering from an ailment that begins with the letter 'D', resulting in frequent trips to the loo, I'm back at home. Anyway, it's about time I updated this blog!

Movie review: Brokeback Mountain

Last week, I watched Brokeback Mountain with some friends. Interestingly it was an almost all-girl outing. I often wonder why some straight guys shy away from any mention of the word 'gay'. Jesus ate with tax collectors. We shouldn't marginalise other human beings just because they're different.

Anyway, the movie itself was what I had expected it to be. The acting was riveting, and silences spoke words. Personally I thought it would have been better if they had either lived together immediately (and risked getting lynched), or forgotten about the whole thing and brought up their own families. Trying to have their own cake, and eating it every four years or so, is kind of difficult, especially for simple-minded cowboys who think their wives don't know what they're doing.

Based on my little knowledge of psychology, another thing which interested me was the family background of the two men. Both felt unwanted, and had low self-esteem. I haven't read the book but it sounded like a lot of thought went into crafting these characters.

Geek news

I succumbed to the Mixed Grill offer two weeks ago, but am still waiting for my Strongspace and Joyent accounts to be set up. On scouring the forum, it appears that most of us just have to wait a bit longer.

The reason why I decided to sign up with Dean Allen and team was that when things go wrong on my current server, my queries are 'outsourced' and sometimes the answers I receive are not so intelligent. To be fair, things have been pretty calm in the last couple of months, but the next time something major happens, at least I know I have a permanent space elsewhere that I can move all my stuff to.

Book review: A Whole New Mind

Which leads on to a long-overdue book review. I greatly enjoyed reading Daniel Pink's A Whole New Mind because he has a lot of foresight and gives advice on how to adapt in this new Conceptual Age. Essentially, the Information Age is over. Some jobs can be done more cheaply overseas, at the fraction of your salary. How do we adapt ourselves, so that we can still remain relevant at work? He shows you how, in an open-minded way that doesn't involve Machiavellian tactics.

My favourite chapter is on 'Design' - how we should strive to look at ordinary things in different ways, and improve on them. My own work experience has been a melting pot of different trades - designing, consulting, writing newspaper columns and software reviews, producing music, blogging. So I relate well to it. Another chapter I liked was 'Story'. How people remember stories better than numbers, and how you can make them remember things better by using the former.

'Empathy' was another thing we could have more of. I've had my fair share of mindless cold calls from people who don't really care about you - and many customers can sense if that's the case. Kindness and understanding is increasingly rare in cut-throat industries, where only the bottomline seems to matter.

Pink's writing style is also easy to digest. Busy people can appreciate that they don't have to plough through this book. For its delightful insights, and for making me read it over and over again, A Whole New Mind is my favourite book for 2005.

(Yes, this review is slightly overdue, isn't it!)

SXSW 2006

February 6, 2006 3:42 PM | Comments (4)

Breaking news: I'm going to SXSW!!!!!!

If I wasn't feeling a little tender from jogging three mornings in a row, I'd be doing cartwheels.

Austin, here I come!

SXSW veterans can send me their tips, just post a comment below!

[ Update:
1) I've registered at sxswbaby.com. Thanks, Lucian!
2) I just joined Jambo. Hello new friends!]

I outrank Playboy.com

January 25, 2006 12:12 AM

I just re-discovered an old blog game I used to play. It's called BlogShares, based on BBC's Celebdaq.

It all happened when I clicked on a random blog link which pointed to the Blogshares value of the Playboy.com site. It was B$10,379.76. Then I searched for the value of my blog and it was B$18,662.34.

Meaning that I outrank Playboy. *flex flex*

Woo-hoo!

[ps. I'm no big TV/movie fan, so would not be very good at Celebdaq. However, I do play Sportdaq. No guesses which sport I buy into.]

New Year Resolutions

January 11, 2006 9:15 PM | Comments (3) | TrackBacks (0)

Had lunch with DSD today and she asked me about my new year resolutions.

I had given up making resolutions for a few years already. But at the end of 2005 I did decide, after a culmination of incidents, that certain things would certainly improve my life and relationship with other people.

My first resolution this year is to develop the ability to say no. 'No' is a powerful word that could evoke strong feelings of guilt, especially if you are refusing someone close to you, or a worthy organisation.

However, a sincere 'no' allows the other party to look for other alternatives, as opposed to a half-baked 'erm, maybe' followed by a cancellation shortly before the deed is to be done.

The next resolution is to listen more to people, and talk less. I will try not to give a perfunctory 'hmmph' as if I was listening, when I actually want the person to go away and let me concentrate on my task at hand. (Of course, I should also be able to say 'no' if I am truly busy and don't wish to be interrupted in the first place)

I won't give myself another resolution to lose a certain amount of weight, but I will resolve to tone myself up better with the right exercise and diet. When you set a target with a specific outcome, it can be dangerous if the means of achieving that outcome are not specified as well (e.g. using slim 10 pills as opposed to healthier methods).

Also, I hope to further develop the ability to bounce back faster and discern - shutting out the unconstructive negatives, sifting out the criticism that is well-grounded, and building on the positives.

But this isn't all about resolutions - I would also like to thank God for putting me where I am right now. It's a special feeling when your contributions make a big difference and your thoughts are valued. It took me four years as a nomad to appreciate what I have now and I pray for continued good leadership and fellowship. May we all grow strong together. Amen.

The beginning of the Canopy Walk

This morning, the Tan clan went for a canopy walk at Kent Ridge Park, followed by a visit to 'Reflections at Bukit Chandu' war memorial.

I liked the dog poo sign:

Signs

Just outside the museum, I decided to salute our brave troops.

Me joining the sculptures

From the title of the museum, you'd think the its displays would be pretty mild, until you see the pictures, videos and sounds of Japanese troops killing defence troops and civilians. I wonder how Japanese tourists would feel if they went to any war memorials in south-east Asia.

We learnt that this area, Bukit Chandu, was defended by a small number of Malay troops, who fought bravely against ten times as many Japanese soldiers. You can guess the inevitable outcome. I was fairly moved and feel that every young man should visit these war memorials before going for National Service!

Inside the museum was a guest book which had a mix of messages. Some thanked the troops and the museum for providing the information. One Irish lady had written that her father had fought in the army, and she had come here to honour the memory of the troops. However, I heard there were other comments saying this place was boring. That's sad to hear. This is part of our heritage and certainly something we should be proud of.

Early adopters

January 10, 2006 7:48 AM | Comments (1)

I am quoted on page 14 of Digital Life magazine today. Thanks to DSD for referring me to the journalist. The specific quote involving me is extracted below, from the article:

...RSS and podcasting have changed the way people consume media, giving them more say in what they want to see and hear.

RSS constantly scans the contents of your favourite websites or blogs and then broadcasts those updates to you through a feed.

Through this method, frequently updated websites can easily syndicate their content, and web users can also get updated information from their favourite sites or blogs automatically served up on their desktops.

Internet executive Vanessa Tan, 27, explained: 'It's a very convenient tool for those people who like information overload.'

'Instead of having to plough through a long list of webpages, I get updated by the tons of news feeds by just logging onto Bloglines.'

Yes, I like 'information overload' sometimes, although I am seriously considering cutting down on quantity and focusing on content. In fact, I had just cancelled my long-standing account with Audible.com because of the availability of free podcasts now.

Also, even if only several percent of online users do read blogs, use RSS and podcasts, they are also part of a very important, and growing, online community (that's you!). Every trend has its 'early adopters'. So I'm not too sure about the 'cautious' tone, as reported, by the professor:

Assistant professor Lim Sun Sun from the National University of Singapore's Communications and New Media Programme cautioned that while RSS and podcasting have caught on with bloggers and blogging enthusiasts, most web users are still unaware of the technology.

According to a survey by Forrester Research, only six per cent of online users read blogs and two per cent use RSS.

Dr Lim explained that many users are deterred by the effort needed to set-up their computers to receive such a service.

She said: 'Over time, the popularity of RSS and podcasting will grow. But for now, they don't ease themselves into existing user patterns, so there are high barriers to entry.'

It misses the point. There will always be a segment of the population who haven't 'done something' yet, or may not do it at all. Some may not drive a car. But we still cater to the needs of drivers, as well as non-drivers. It's not that non-users are being forced to adopt the technology, but that existing users get to benefit with added feeds.

On that note, I was glad to learn a few months ago that the Gahmen mothership site, www.gov.sg, has started its own news feed already - isn't that a positive step?

In fact, the Poynter Institute has a recent article on RSS for journalists - who probably take on the biggest information overload as they look for newsworthy stories. The writer uses - what else but - Bloglines as an example of managing feeds.

Pain, puns and perusals

January 8, 2006 6:30 PM | Comments (1)

I've been a little out of action since yesterday night after suffering a relapse (?) of my spine 'injury'. I certainly hope it's only a pinched nerve and not a slipped disc or tumour. If the pain persists, I will need to go for an X-ray.

Anyway, that hasn't stopped the puns and corn from rolling, even though it hurts when I laugh now. (ie, "Ha ha ha ha... ouch."

Many readers who haven't met me before, may not know that I like to pun people (family, colleagues, friends) to death. An uncle of mine told my cousins to start a new website, "whatmycousinsaid.com" to record my quotes. It hasn't been done yet. Anyway, here's a sample from today:

- We were in a Japanese restaurant having Teppanyaki. I told one of my cousins, imagine if a waiter suddenly appears and shouts, "Samurai?" and we go, "huh?", thinking we're about to get our heads lopped off. The waiter repeats, "Samurai?" and we start to wonder if he's referring to a sauce used in a former McDonald's burger concoction. Finally, we'd realise he's asking if we want 'some more rice'. Evil!

- While still at lunch, my cousin decides to give up his only piece of oyster, to my grandfather. I told my cousin, "That's really unshellfish of you." (Hey, that's really a hum-less comment!)

- Back home, I caught up on world news. For one, I find it sadly ironic that Turkey has been hit by bird flu. I'm not laughing at all about this - the affected area is near the City of Van!

In other news, I am valiantly attempting to finish reading several books which I started since a few months ago - all non-fiction. And another delivery from Acmabooks.com is coming soon.

Merry Christmas!

December 23, 2005 11:50 PM | Comments (4)
Merry Christmas! cake

Countdown.

At work, some of us went a-carolling and I sang a solo item (view pic).

Today, boss treated us to some stollen cake (which I felt would go well with poached egg). I decided to play with our food, making Bambi bugger Santa Claus.

Tomorrow evening for pot luck, I will contribute a salad and some baked yam. And probably some evening entertainment - floundering at the piano.

Updates

December 6, 2005 8:21 PM | Comments (2) | TrackBacks (0)

Yes, I haven't been updating this blog lately. As a few of you know, I was quite busy with family matters and a backlog of work that hasn't stopped piling up since I got back from Vietnam.

Anyway, in the last week:

I coded my first XML podcast file, by hand. It will be officially launched soon, hopefully. I wonder if my organisation is gonna be the first in the industry to do this.

A month's hiatus from jazz piano actually did me some good, because I'm back in the studio producing music again. The bigger question, as always, is when I'm going to get off my ass and actually submit something to an A&R agency. (Friends are hereby allowed to nag and harangue me to no end, until this happens)

PC gave me a book written by a Singaporean Christian who lived in a haunted house for a year. I hope this will not be a bad case of deja vu for me. Haven't read it yet as I haven't had time. Also, it's not something you want to read when you come home late after work!

I attended an AIDS forum yesterday and it gave good insight into what's been going on in the region. By sharing our findings and and speaking frankly with each other, we can strengthen our own efforts in the battle against the disease. The same goes for almost any other topic (like the GBM).

This weekend, I ...

October 30, 2005 10:11 PM | Comments (2)

Went to HMV and picked up several CDs by James Blunt, David Gray, Beth Orton, Beck, Beautiful South, Clementine, Lee Ritenour, Nik Kershaw, and Youssou N'Dour. Since I had to take some $#(*% work home to make up for the holiday I'm taking this week, I decided I should at least listen to some new music.

[ I recently learnt that Blunt was from the same university as me, though he's a couple years older. He (a student of aeronautical engineering) was probably in the building next to mine (Law). It is so inspirational. Of course, in law school we had a Cypriot junior who represented his country in Eurovision and has a few albums to his name... see the things we have to study (for our day jobs) so we can live out our dreams? ]

[Correction: According to the University of Bristol Alumni newsletter, Blunt did not study engineering but sociology. ]

Met up with Krisalis, Wuyuetian and Tribolum. We each whipped out a camera, and geeks that we are, started discussing their features. Also, we learnt that some Isetan staff didn't even know there is a Dome in their building. And it's been open for months. Bollocks.

Played 9 holes of golf (finally!) and didn't do too badly either - I actually managed a bogey for one hole. My joints were creaking, though, and it was disturbing to see how many children there were on the course - and some of them were probably better than me!

Anxiously await the arrival of a good friend's baby girl ... here we go again!

My first spa affair

October 17, 2005 10:47 PM | Comments (6)

As part of a promotion, I was treated to a free full body massage at a new spa today, right after work. How refreshing!

However, soon after the massage began, I realised I had forgotten to cancel my regular appointment with a foot reflexologist. But it was too late to get up - I was already lying, topless, face down on the mattress and my masseuse was applying cream on my back! However, the phone didn't ring for a while.

So I decided to forget my long-term 'relationship' and just enjoy my little fling with this new spa. After all, you wouldn't know if another spa can offer you something better, until you try it ;-)

(Read more about the whole steamy affair, and to find out if the spas have been telling us a load of bullshit)

Innovative dreams

October 13, 2005 1:08 AM | Comments (2)

I had lucid dreaming last night. Thought I'd better write about it...

You know how you start off doing one thing in a dream, and it slowly modulates into something else?

First, I dreamt that I was with a group of friends in a studio, watching a band play. But I ended up playing in the band because one of the members (the drummer) had gone somewhere during the break and was held up. Just as I struck the snare and cymbals, he walked back in with an Apple bag.

[Subconciously, I must have been thinking of Steve Job's forthcoming announcements.]

Since he was going to be busy playing, he handed his bag to me and told me he had just purchased Apple's latest product, which had arrived at the AppleCentre and was not due for release until the next day. However he had friends at the store who let him pick up the product early.

And what was the product I dreamt of? No video iPod ... but the coolest typewriter in the world. It looked like it was made of the same plastic material as the Apple mouse - transparent with a whitish base, and slightly wider than a sheet of A4 paper which you could fit in. I even typed on it and held it in my hands twice - it felt like I was holding something real!

Later on, my dream modulated further and I was now in a semi-heaven, walking through a peaceful area where my yuppie uncles and aunts stayed. I bumped into an aunt who was driving a golf buggy on the road (Apparently, in this dream city, people drive small vehicles to conserve fuel and reduce pollution). So I hitched a ride and she took me to a newfangled cafe which served a concoction of coffee. Inside the cafe, at the counter, the barista pointed and named each unusual type of coffee beans they had. As this was a dream, every name I heard was probably invented because I didn't recognise a single thing.

Intriguingly, each type of bean was turned into liquids of varying colours, such as mustard yellow. My aunt explained that she liked this place because they had beans which were different from any other cafe, and you could mix different pots of coffee to create your own cuppa. I agreed it was a very innovative concept. Shortly after that, I woke up.

In summary: Apple 'vintage' typewriters and multicoloured coffee.

It's time for me to go to sleep.

Packed weekend

September 26, 2005 12:28 AM

Saturday - played piano for church wedding of couple who got married. The couple that God brought together and told me about. Slept very little after preparing chord charts for each song. Attended wedding dinner, got home around midnight. Knocked out.

Sunday - after church, spent whole day running errands and getting house ready for family party to welcome relatives from the US.

Monday morning - Cleaned up the house after the party. About to sleep. Very tired. Swamped with a backlog of work. Will not bother replying or reading most personal emails.

Illness

September 8, 2005 8:11 PM | Comments (3)

I have actually been ill for the past week. It started as a sore throat on Saturday night, a fever on Sunday, and lots of phlegm ever since. Tomorrow I will attempt to take part in a mass walk, and am not entirely sure if I'm up to it.

I'm not used to being sick. I've taken 2.5 days of medical leave in the last 5 years of my working life, and I would really not like to fall that ill to warrant a note from the doctor again. I'm actually WILLING myself, imagining the germs in my body being blasted away, like in some computer game. Or like Magneto drawing bits of metal out of everywhere, I'd extract all the phlegm in my lungs and vomit it all out. I believe staying healthy is partly psychological.

The thing is, I don't believe in taking medication for minor illnesses which the body can overcome on its own. Overdosing on medication creates the superbugs that have been hitting everybody else. We have antibodies. Use them.

Over the weekend...

August 29, 2005 1:04 AM

I finally purchased a licence for Transmit, possibly the best FTP software for Macintosh. I got tired of using their free 10-minute sessions for unlicenced users, especially seeing how I'm likely to help other friends upgrade their weblogs in the near future.

I completed reading Lawrence Lessig's first book, Code and Other Laws of Cyberspace. Funny how I started by reading his later books first, and ended with this one. He had an interesting chapter on Intellectual Property. This book is currently being revised by readers using Wiki, which well suits the nature of his work.

I completed reading a Christian book on Deliverance and Inner Healing. It is quite disturbing to know that even Christians can fall under demonic influence, even if they cannot be totally possessed by them. Very often it is a root problem, left unresolved, that leaves the person vulnerable to influence or attack.

I had an excellent jam session with two band members last evening. In two hours we completed A Night In Tunisia, Here's That Rainy Day, and So Nice (Summer Samba). Our bassist and drummer got their rhythm synchronised, which makes it easier for me to concentrate on improvisation.

I just watched poor Newcastle bow out 0-2 to Manchester United. The team seem to be constantly plagued with injuries to good players - this time, Kieron Dyer and little Emre. But certainly Man U had better finishing power, with the strike force I'd like to call Van Nistelrooney.

Concert and Library tour

August 6, 2005 8:30 PM

On Friday we went for the Festival of Praise. So many young people were there! It was very encouraging to see such a large turnout. The Festival plays on until Sunday (tomorrow), and if you plan to go, I strongly encourage you to start queueing early, because it's first come first served. Listen to Hillsong Australia and Delirious from the UK. Sermon by Rev Colin Dye from Kensington Temple, UK. More information (new window) at the City Harvest Church website.

Today I took a tour of the new National Library, courtesy of Prof Tommy Koh and his wife. Finally, Prof Koh made a speech as the Guest of honour for the Read! Singapore Campaign. He gave special mention to Colin Cheong's novel, Tangerine. The other two recommended books for English readers were To Kill a Mockingbird, and The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-time, both of which I've already read. Both are excellent books, taking a child's perspective of adult worlds. Check out the campaign blog.

Photos for both events can be viewed on my Flickr page. The photos are displayed in reverse order, latest first, so it may get a bit confusing.

[Update: Ramblinglibrarian has more photos and more accurate captions here.]

It's high time

August 3, 2005 9:58 PM | Comments (1) | TrackBacks (0)

I'm actually running on a high at work. A few exciting things are going to happen, and so far, management has been very open-minded about our proposals.

Firstly, we're planning to syndicate our content. I'm going to present an overview on how this can be done.

Next, a few of us are going to a talk on Wikis, Podcasting and Blogging. There is potential for implementation, at least for the last two items. We'll see.

Lastly, I'm going to attend an Asian corporate blogging conference next month.

All with the bosses' blessings. It's great to have such a supportive environment - thank God for it! Of course, I have to give presentations on these web trends - but it helps when you really believe in the media you're dealing with.

Onward!

Eyeballs galore

I say goodbye to the very first company I worked for (full-time) again - by getting rid of my time capsule of ping-pong balls masquerading as eyeballs.

Project Eyeball was a newspaper started by SPH which lasted less than a year before closing down. Barely weeks after graduating in Bristol, I cleared the interview and got the job as a web designer. I had lots of fun learning on the job. I'm sure if they hadn't axed the entire web design team, I'd still be around somewhere, perhaps producing multimedia.

But things happen for a reason, even if it isn't obvious at first - even for years. But now I know why God let this happen to me ... so I could be in a better job and meet even more interesting people.

Words of appreciation

July 20, 2005 8:50 PM | Comments (2)

The past couple of weeks have been emotionally moving for me. No, nothing tragic happened. Just a few words of appreciation from people which I didn't expect, and they've made all the difference for me.

I felt I was never very close to one of the couples in my old Bible study group, so when I joined them for a last-minute dinner at their place I was touched that the wife said she missed me. I also felt a little pang when her younger son gave me a goodnight hug, because then I realised I missed them too.

A colleague emailed to say she was glad she had the chance to know me better. In fact, I never expected our paths to cross, but now I'm glad they did. I think we've learnt a lot from each other in the space of a few months. Such is God's plan, we were saying.

Yesterday, another colleague who leads the company choir, wrote in to thank me for being their pianist, because without one the choir couldn't get started again.

In both cases, I was moved even more because I felt I was just doing my job, nothing special. In fact I was hoping that I hadn't scared anyone off with my irritability! Usually, last-minute changes and a lack of communication annoy me to no end. Sometimes I wonder what I look like when I sit at my desk, scowling and hammering away at my keyboard. Very unladylike, I'm sure.

But anyway, the accumulation of these recent events has made me a little teary-eyed tonight. Thank you, sweeties, for making my day.

Single-handed

June 30, 2005 6:53 PM | Comments (4)

My wrist sprain got worse after a heavy duty choir rehearsal yesterday. I think I'm going to insist that other people help me move our company's Yamaha Clavinova, because it made my backache recur a few weeks ago and had now excacerbated my sprained wrist. What good is an injured pianist?

So my posts will be quick and short, until my wrist recovers.

Other updates

May 18, 2005 12:52 AM

To make up for not posting in the last week (some Daily Weblog this is, eh), here are a couple of other updates:

My back. I saw a company doctor last week, who diagnosed me in about half a minute as having 'muscular spasms' in my back. I am quite certain the muscle aches are actually a reaction to the real source of pain, which is still coming from a particular part of my SPINE.

Anyway, as muscular spasms sound less fatal than spinal tumours or slipped discs, I was happy to accept her speedy prognosis and take the prescribed painkillers-cum-muscle relaxants, even though they make me drowsy. I was also given some gel to rub on my back, to relax the muscles. If the pain persists after my course is completed, I will go and see another doctor.

The 02 Mini.
It's doing fine, although there were some initial problems with memory allocation. I set the camera, Office Documents and other programs to save files into my storage card and not into the device itself, which has limited memory.

Christian geeks may be interested to note that I installed Pocket e-Sword, a free Bible program for Pocket PC which has been working very well. The only problem is that it doesn't have the NIV version, but I'm fine with KJV and lots of interesting commentaries and bible dictionaries that you can install separately.

I'm not going to tinker around with the 02 Mini anymore - it gets the job done, and shouldn't be an end in itself. It's there to get myself organised, it's there so I have a quick reference when studying God's Word, and that's that.

I have a recurring problem a few times a year, because my mother has every material thing that she could possibly need, has seen more of the world than I have ever seen, and can afford almost infinitely more things than I can.

She has much better taste in clothing than me, and we have given her more geek toys than she ever wants to see again (a third Ixus or mp3 player wouldn't warm her heart).

In fact, I can't buy wine for my parents, because my S40+ bottles don't compare to the vintage collection already sitting in our wine coolers. And yes, she's a better cook too.

Some mothers could settle for spa vouchers, but since that used to be a regular treat of mine to my mother, it seemed a little cheapskate and unimaginative.

So what's a poor girl, at the bottom of the Income Tax bracket, to do?

A few years ago, my sister and I did a big montage of photos of us together since we were kids. She liked that. For subsequent occasions, we kind of stalled. Now my sister's away, so it was up to me to do something on my own.

I rummaged through our collection of digital photos and realised that my mum's old Ixus v3 had taken lots of video clips instead of photos. Of course, a few times I deliberately switched to video mode so I could get snippets of conversation and action shots. But the old Ixus was not well-designed - the modes were all in one row, and if you flicked the notch too hard, you'd end up in video and not camera mode. I had helped my mum sync her Ixus to my computer many times, and ended up saving most of the files on my hard drive. I actually had a treasure chest of moving, talking memories with me.

Of course, these files were transferred from my old PC to my new PowerMac, and I now had the benefit of iMovie and some rusty recollection of how to do video editing.

I really appreciate the on-the-job training I had at SPH, where I was taught by a videographer how to use Final Cut Pro. Of course, I knew iMovie had only basic features. But still, it had some decent effects and a simple timeline, although I was unable to place my text in specific parts of the stage. Transitions were decent, and I had the benefit of a powerful CPU.

There was a bit of problem figuring out what to do next. I learnt that my movie was too large to burn onto a CD-ROM, so I had to repackage it in iDVD, and burn the movie into a DVD. I finally figured out that I had to 'share' my iMovie and convert it for iDVD use. My iDVD 'home page' was simple: just one button to activate the video, with a photo of me and my sister in the background.

Next, I had to burn the DVD. The big question was: which DVD format? I did a bit of research after looking at my system information. My Pioneer DVD-writer could accept all formats! Hurrah. I walked to the nearest electronics shop and picked up a DVD-R. It worked. I tested it using DVD Player on my PowerMac. It ran fine.

Several hours later, I presented the gift to my mother. The DVD played instantly, and everything that I planned to happen, did happen. And my mother enjoyed the movie. I was so relieved... three cheers for iLife!!!

Now, what to get her for Christmas...

Spinal probe

May 3, 2005 12:26 AM | Comments (4)

This week, if a certain pain in my spine gets worse, I might have to see a doctor and get a referral for an X-ray.

I last saw a company doctor for an illness about 4-5 years ago, so I might find sitting in the waiting-room a novel thing. I hear it could either be a slipped disc or a tumour in the spine that's hitting a nerve.

The strange thing is, the first time my spine hurt this bad, was shortly after an Alpha session last month. It hurt whenever I sneezed, or tried to stifle one. I couldn't turn my neck. Then the pain slowly subsided. But last Wednesday evening after Alpha, while lying down in bed it started to hurt again.

The only thing I did each week was to help shift two big tables - but there's always someone else helping me and it's only for a distance of a couple of metres. And really, it was an easy task. So I don't know if something's trying to deter me from doing God's work, or whether it's just an accumulation of bad seating posture, weird sleeping positions and moving house.

Anyway, the after-effect of knowing something was possibly wrong with my spine, was that my back muscles are all tensed up now, even when I try to relax. So now half my back is acheing. I'm trying to tell my body to ease off, there's no point cramping up now but it won't listen.

However, I will be (for the first time in my life) skipping this Wednesday's session because we're having a housewarming-cum-birthday dinner for my beloved grandmother. I wanted to turn up for the pre-Alpha prayer session but was told it was not a good idea as I was needed at home right after work, and surely Church people would be more forgiving than that?

So that's that. I'm using this Wednesday's absence to monitor my back - whether the pain will appear again on that day. And I'm still contemplating whether to turn up for another Alpha session that clashes with my birthday. But since I won't have many people around to celebrate with, I'm wondering what's the point. I'm getting older than I ever thought I would be.

Great Expectations

April 5, 2005 11:53 PM | Comments (1)

We got our increments today. Human nature is funny, as one can be given a reward in recognition of one's efforts, yet feel indignant that one wasn't given enough. I was quite happy with what I got, modest as it was. Any bonus is better than none.

After five years of work, I am finally earning slightly more money than I did in my very first job (the dotcom bubble burst, I took a massive pay cut in my next job, and have been crawling up the salary scale ever since. Income tax was not required of me for years. Yes, that bad).

Look on the bright side! Some of us are already fortunate to be in a company that gives increments and bonuses. If it's on a less-than-annual basis, all the better! And if you're blessed with a good boss and nice colleagues, that's something even money can't buy!

To Christians, the same applies to the ultimate 'bonus' - the gift of Salvation and Eternal life. If you keep that in mind, above everything else, nothing should spoil our day on earth. (Yeah, easier said than done. We're a bunch of ingrates aren't we, like the Israelites in the desert...)

Think of all the cases you read in the papers - poor construction workers or white-collar employees who haven't been paid their monthly salaries, for months! Their employers have gone bust or fled the country. Some have a big family in Bangladesh to feed.

And look at the context and industry in which you work. If you're an investment banker, your company's doing well and you were responsible for clinching a big deal - then you're likely to get a nice big figure. If your job doesn't involve money-making, then don't expect to be paid like an investment banker. There are other intangible rewards, like helping people in some way.

Do your work to the best of your ability, be at peace with everyone, and keep your skills updated. Go home and have a family life (that's the slogan my overworked team is trying to adopt). Don't put your faith in money. You can either accept what you've been given, or if you can't, then ask yourself why you got less than what you expected, and improve yourself or adjust your expectations, so that the next time, you won't feel like you've been passed over.

Count this

March 29, 2005 7:49 PM | Comments (0)

Today at work, I received 89 emails, and sent 65 emails (all work-related, of course.)

Over the weekend and on Monday, I received over 100 emails.

On a related note, I should start a Lotus Notes rant one day.

A warm, bubbly feeling

March 23, 2005 11:12 PM | Comments (1)

I received something in the mail today - a food and beverage trade newsletter from California. But, more than that, it was a demonstration in following through and having good manners.

You see, it all started with me posting a picture I took of a stack of Touche bottles (it's a pleasant sort of champagne-beer drink, made in Singapore).

The editor of this trade newsletter found my pic and had the decency to ask for permission to use it for her next issue. She offered to give me credit by putting my name beside the photograph, but all I wanted was a copy of the magazine.

Actually I didn't expect to get anything after I sent her a higher-quality version of the photograph. I've contributed articles to local magazines and nobody would tell me which issue my work would appear in. And, forget about asking for free copies!

But this time, I was pleasantly surprised to find that the editor not only sent me the newsletter with the Touche article in it, but typed out a full-page letter to me, thanking me once again for the last-minute notice in getting me to send her the photograph I took.

I was mildly disappointed to read, however, that another photograph was used instead (it looked like the brewery had sent an official pic to them, fair enough). However the editor was still grateful for my help, and said she could add me to her mailing list for subsequent issues.

Now, isn't that nice?

Superpsychic Girl

March 15, 2005 8:20 AM | Comments (0)

I dreamt I was like Supergirl today, flying around with extra-sensory psychic powers that could detect the presence of evil spirits.

My mission began with my family receiving a request for me to investigate some old Godowns in what felt like the River Valley area. Apparently in my dream I already had a reputation with the local police...

Things that happened today

March 13, 2005 4:14 PM | Comments (3)

My testimony was well-received in church. I said what I wanted to say, clearly and calmly. Thanks to everyone who gave me their support and prayers! Amen.

After a test drive, it's decided that my 4-year old Nissan Sunny will be replaced with a new model. Delivery should be around my birthday (that's a coincidence).

My sister's old iPod (a 3rd generation 15GB model I bought at a promotion for S$200) finally died. It would have cost the same price to replace its hard drive! So we got her a new one.

Now I'm off to band practice. We've settled on two new songs for the concert - So What (Miles Davis) and Take Five (funkier, upbeat version).

Dreaming of my future

March 8, 2005 10:48 PM | Comments (3)

My colleague had the strangest dream today. That I got married suddenly, and to a Duke! No, it wasn't shotgun (and I don't believe in sex before marriage, anyway). She even gave his name, but the only match I found was a character in a romance novel.

Unfortunately she had no idea what I looked like, although she attended my huge wedding dinner and I had asked her at the last minute to be my MC.

Anyway this is just for the record - ludicrous as it is - just in case something terribly exciting happens. After all, a cell group mate had received confirmation from God that something better was in store for me.

Hmm ... Prince William?

*wakes up from dream*

Today...

March 6, 2005 11:34 PM | Comments (0)

I made a trip to Swee Lee at Bras Basah Complex today to pick up a microphone stand. There were too many models to choose from. Got hold of a more experienced-looking employee who gave me a good overview on choosing and using microphones (he even told me which mic stand was of inferior quality) and I settled for one that was reasonably priced. The studio chairs and scoresheet stands looked very tempting but I refrained.

Next was a nostalgic visit to Basheer bookstore, a favourite haunt of art students and designers. Beautiful books and magazines galore - if only I had the time to look at all of them!

While browsing their website as I was typing this entry, I noticed a hilariously mis-phrased line:

Basheer has not forgotten the secret of his success. Personalized service. If you don't fancy lugging heavy volumes, contact us. And our well-built staff will provide some serious off-line browsing.

A pity that the website's limited list of books doesn't do the shop's comprehensive floor-to-ceiling collection any justice. Maybe I should ask for a well-built Indian salesman to show me his wares.

Digital TV has finally arrived at our house. A youthful Arsenal beat Portsmouth 3-0. Glad to see Henry's back in action. They have a better chance with the FA Cup than with the Champions League - not a good goal deficit to overcome, against the Germans. Between the two teams, I think Oliver Kahn is still the better goalkeeper anyway - never thought much of Jens Lehmann.

Giving thanks to those who matter

January 31, 2005 10:12 PM | Comments (6)

I learnt the outcome of my appraisal, this evening. It wasn't too bad, rather encouraging in fact. From the sound of it, they're going to keep me! I take appraisals and confirmations very seriously. I think it helps that I do like my job and try to pick things up as quickly as possible.

And of course, when things do go well we want to share it with those closest to us. So as I walked towards my car, I said a quick 'Thank You' to the big guy in the sky, and took my family out for dinner tonight.

For they're the ones who lift me up when I'm down, too.

Today I...

January 30, 2005 7:52 PM | Comments (1)
  1. Enjoyed one of the best worship sessions at church. I wish every week could be like that.
  2. Got to feed the new koi (fish) in our pond. I hear they can eat out of your hand, too. Maybe I should wait for our murky algae-infested waters to clear up a little first.
  3. Got distracted during my investigation of FTP programs which some of you recommended in an earlier post, and ended up downloading BackLight 2, a gimmicky tool which displays your screensaver in the background. Wallpaper that moves.
  4. Took part in my first band rehearsal. It also happens to be my first long-term band, if all goes well. Currently we're playing a mix of jazz, pop and worship music. One drummer, one bassist, two keyboards (me playing the main keyboards and someone else playing strings, synths and other effects), two vocalists (male and female). We're looking for a lead guitarist. We play at a studio in Woodlands the last Sunday of each month. Any takers or recommendations?

Service without a smile

January 25, 2005 9:58 PM | Comments (1)

After months of procrastinating (and I have never delayed this long before) I finally sent the car for servicing.

I was so caught up with work that by the time I realised I had better make a booking with the service centre, it was 5-6pm. As the website said the service centre was open until 8.30pm, I called all three lines a few times each for the next few hours but nobody picked up the phone.

I thought it was still OK to send the car in. The first time round, I didn't know any better and they still managed to service my car within the day. So I thought I'd risk it and send it in without a booking, first thing in the morning.

So I did. The guards let me through. One of them put a number '5' on my car, which came with a statement saying this was a 'non-booking'. I pulled over beside the other cars in line, and proceeded to pack up the essentials I had taken with me - like the car insurance and the cashcard.

While I was coiling up my hands-free kit, a technician walked over and opened my car door without even so much a polite rap on my window first. Without a single hint of a smile on his face, he proceeded to give me a talking-down about how I should make a booking next time because they are very busy people and they service 160 cars a day and it is unlikely I will get my car back today, perhaps tomorrow.

Surprised at his surly attitude, I responded that I tried calling the service centre but nobody picked up the phone. His reply? "Then you should try calling again!" (Did he assume I was so dumb as to call only once??)

I told him I had called all 3 lines a few times but nobody picked up the phone. He said I might have called past their working hours (now I know - all the website said was the centre was open till 8.30pm!). And they managed to cope the last time I didn't make a booking ... besides I don't think I was even the first 'non-booking' customer in line that day! Why was I singled out? Was it because I drove a Sunny and not a Cefiro? Because I was young and female and almost every other customer was older, male and looked like a boss?

So he ended by telling me something along the lines of, don't even try coming until you've made a booking! I said if it was really my fault then I accept that the car may not be ready for collection today. I know we have to be fair to those who did make a booking and give them priority.

Fortunately that was the last I saw of Groucho, because the usual Indian executive came along, said a friendly "Hi!" which I reciprocated, inspected my car, tried to pitch a car polish job to me (I always say no), listened to all my concerns about my car's performance, and politely told me to call him in the afternoon to see if my car was ready.

I was then pleasantly surprised when I received a call at lunchtime, from a lady telling me the car had been serviced. My engine oil had been topped up as well. Total cost? Just over S$80!

So really, Groucho was making a mountain out of a molehill. Thank goodness his other colleagues were more efficient and polite. "Tomorrow", my foot...

[Just checked the website and turns out he wasn't a technician but a 'Service Advisor'. Please. He needs some advising himself. And they never said it was mandatory to make a booking. I was told verbally once, over the phone, that it was advisable. That's all.]

Let's speak in analogies

January 20, 2005 6:10 PM | Comments (5)

Let's say you have a job. Let's say it's your first ever job. You're a little hesitant about it. Excited, but a little afraid that you might do something wrong because you know so many friends have had terrible jobs before.

But your boss - your first boss - is really nice to you. He listens to you, he watches out for you, and you're starting to really like your job. Everything seems to be going fine. You try your best to meet his needs, despite your inexperience. You even thank God you've found a job with such a wonderful boss. You picture yourself in this job for a very long time, if not forever.

Then suddenly, right after the company dinner and dance, he fires you. No appraisal, no second chance. You never knew his expectations were not met.

You are stunned. You take your pink slip and leave. You feel worthless. You break down and cry uncontrollably for two days in a row in embarrasing public scenes. Your friends try to get you out of the house and tell you there'll always be other jobs out there. But for now, you're reeling and trying to forget about what happened.

Soon after that, you get a phone call from your ex-boss, asking what you've been up to the past few days.

You want to scream, "Getting over the job you just sacked me from!!!". You don't want to talk but he doesn't seem to realise it.

Your boss wants to be friends, days after sacking you. You try to listen a little longer but can't take it. You tell yourself not to break down again in a public place. You have to put down the phone quickly.

You're a Christian and you know you have to forgive your boss, just as Christ has forgiven us our sins. But for now, you just want some space and time to yourself to regain some semblance of dignity.

Happy New Year!

January 2, 2005 12:04 AM | Comments (3)

Happy New Year everybody!!!

I spent my new year's eve at a family dinner, where we sang Karaoke Christmas Carols (unfortunately for the guests at a wedding dinner next door). My sister and I got away by singing George Michael's Last Christmas, which had some semblance of 'dignity' compared with Jingle Bells and Frosty the Snowman (kiddy-style).

Then I fetched designer-chicks K and W. I think this year's celebrations were generally subdued, and rightfully so. Unfortunately, we saw 2-3 road accidents and were thinking, what a way to begin the new year!

The most dramatic accident was along Napier Road, at about 11.30pm. A motorcycle had caught fire in the rightmost lane. The flames were big and orange and came out from the mid-section of the motorcycle (where the engine was). On the other side of the road were two men, looking shaken. I assumed one of them at least was on that motorcycle and had climbed out in the nick of time.

Further down the left side of the road was a white car filled with young men and women, looking worriedly at the burning motorcycle.

We went to Union to see party-animal G in action, counted down the final seconds of 2004, then headed off to M's place, only to find out that M had ended the party. Having a problem staying up, M? ;-)

Disappointed, we tried going to Zouk. The crowd was enormous. The car park was full. I think even the valets were overwhelmed. We decided not to bother getting in, and I turned the car around.

K and W, filled with Dutch courage, wanted to wind down my car windows and shout 'SUCKERS!!!" to all the people queueing up on the pavement. I used my driver's controls to override them for a while, but ultimately failed to stop them. Fortunately, my car was not pelted with stones or bottles. If you were at Zouk and heard something rude as you were standing in line, I apologise on behalf of my impudent friends, who deserve a spanking!

We drove to East Coast Park instead, and had non-alcoholic drinks, chatted, then went home.

I spent a good part of New Year's Day unpacking boxes, spending time with extended family, playing the piano and meeting H for supper.

Today, I'm on duty at the office for a short while. Hope your weekend thus far has been meaningful.

Season's Greetings!

December 25, 2004 11:19 PM | Comments (4)

Merry Christmas everybody!

Hilin got me the Apple iSight. I totally didn't expect anyone to get it for me. Best Christmas present this year, so far. In line with my plans to catalogue all the items lying around the house, I bought the full license to Delicious Library (Mac only) and it has been able to scan the majority of our books and CDs. It scanned in a DVD movie, too. It is amazing... Thanks again for the present!

I sent an SMS to one of my Cypriot (Greek) friends and she returned the Christmas wishes. Her mum even said hi to me. I was touched that they remembered me. It's been four years since we graduated, but I'm still glad I had a crazy time with my hallmates in university.

Disconnected.

December 20, 2004 10:50 PM | Comments (1)

We officially moved in yesterday.

However many fixtures have yet to be, well, fixed.

My G5 Mac is now situated in the music room. Unfortunately, that places it just out of reach of our wireless network (yes, it's encrypted, unlike our neighbours' ;-). AirPort Express (AE) was of little use - the G5 could connect to it, but AE couldn't seem to bridge the gap between our wireless router and the G5, despite numerous placement attempts and reconfigurations.

This means I cannot download my emails (most of which are spam, anyway). My access to the Internet depends on whether anyone else is using the lone PC that's been set up and hooked up to our router.

And now I have to take my leave.

Moving on

December 16, 2004 12:45 PM | Comments (0)

I'm very busy juggling work and moving house. I won't necessarily respond to emails. I won't check out URLs you send me. I may not reply to your text messages.

And no, we have no housewarming plans yet. We're not exactly in the mood for that right now.

Recent acquisitions

December 12, 2004 10:26 PM | Comments (4)

Depeche Mode, Zero 7, Blue Bar 2

Recent CD acquisitions (at the usual CD Shop): Zero 7's When It Falls (nice ambience, sounds a bit like Air though); Blue Bar Vol 2 (hip chillout lounge - my only big splurge); The Very Best of Christmas Favorites (heart-warming renditions by various artistes - I particularly like Diana Krall's take on Jingle Bells); WOW Christmas (by various famous Christian artistes); Depeche Mode remixes 81-04; High Society compilation We Got The Soul (I really dig this Motown groove, baby).

Belkin Casette Adapter

Recent Apple acquisitions: For myself, a Belkin Cassette Adapter. I've been looking for one for ages and finally my Apple Store had it in stock. I tried it out in my car (which loads cassettes in sideways) and after a few re-tries, it worked! Marvellous piece of equipment, and much clearer than the FM Transmitters I've used. No batteries required with the cassette adapter - and no mixed signals from nearby radio stations.

For mother, we decided to get a 'little' something from the Apple Store, if you know what I mean. It was selling like hotcakes. I also counted 60-70 boxes of iMacs and other systems lined up for delivery. Business is roaring! However I don't like the new iMac after viewing it in person. It's thick - and certainly it's designed by the iPod team because it looks like a first(?) generation iPod, encased in transparent plastic over the white. Granted, the whole CPU is inside. But somehow it looks better in pictures.

Later on (when we've finished moving house) I plan to get iSight so I can scan our books using Delicious Library, mentioned in a previous post.

Hit the Streats

December 9, 2004 7:54 AM | Comments (3)

I'm mentioned in today's edition of Streats, a free Singapore daily tabloid. Mucho gracias to my friend Joan.

Ms Vanessa Tan, who has been blogging since mid-2002, said: "I chose Movable Type because it's one of the most powerful weblog tools for advanced bloggers who know how to work with databases and scripts. You can also install additional plug-ins written by third parties to enhance the functionality of your website."

...Blogs by journalists are listed on cyberjournalist.net while Ms Tan suggests checking out www.daypop.com/blogrank, a website that ranks the top blogs.

Incidentally, Streats is possibly the only local newspaper with a web standards-compliant website. Way to go!

UPDATE! Streats sent me a list of questions for the interview. For the record here are all my answers:

Corporate Power and Responsibility

November 22, 2004 10:05 PM | Comments (1)

It was only upon receipt of the latest issue of the University of Bristol law alumni newsletter, that I realised the Guardian had given my late personal tutor, Professor John Parkinson, a respectful obituary on 9 April 2004.

It was written, in part, by another law professor, Keith Stanton, who taught us Torts (Civil law) in our first year. Reading the first half of the obituary, I could almost hear Prof Stanton's voice, and recalled the way he would thoughtfully stare into space, with a perturbed look - slightly like Mr Bean. His account of John's modesty and sense of humour is not surprising.

Lady Justice Arden, whom I do not know, also gave an account which I can completely believe to be true to his form. Quiet, and yes - again, an 'attractive' sense of humour.

Corporate Power and Responsibility John's award-winning book, 'Corporate Power and Responsibility' was a necessary read for Company Law students in our university. However it wasn't an all-in-one tome, chock full of popular cases to swot for in the final exams. Instead it looked at stakeholders of a company not just being shareholders, but employees as well as the wider public.

There is another obituary in the Journal of Corporate Law Studies, written by Professor Paul Davies of the London School of Economics, which can be found in the second half of this page, kindly posted by another well-liked tutor of ours, Stephen Jones.

John Parkinson was well-chosen as a member of the Company Law steering group in the UK. His ideas were in place before Enron, WorldCom and Martha Stewart happened. We can only hope that his efforts will soon be put to practice by the British Government.

A quick visit

November 6, 2004 11:38 PM

I will be heading off to Kuala Lumpur tomorrow morning for a day trip. Until then, ta ta and enjoy the rest of your weekend ...

It was a bad day

November 5, 2004 7:09 AM | Comments (11) | TrackBacks (2)

First, Bush won. Well I kind of expected that and I don't have much more to say but that the Democrats have to buck up and re-invent themselves.

Next, I was asked to uninstall Firefox from my computer. I kind of expected that too. After debating with the IT staff about IE's security issues, how easy it was to use Firefox with tabbed browsing, zoom-in text and popup blockers, the answer was still: It's policy. And besides, at least Micro$oft is fixing bugs. Who's to guarantee that freeware like Firefox will have the same support?

Someone's gone and de-linked me from his site because I write too much about US politics, OS X and soccer. Well actually that's not a disaster. But I thought it would be nice to have at least three points in this post.

I'm not thinking any more.

Updates

October 20, 2004 9:10 PM | Comments (4)

For the next two weeks I will be a one-woman show, doing the work of three persons and acting on behalf of the whole team. Today I finished work 2 hours later than everyone else, and I hope it doesn't get worse than this.

Anyway, I do have a few things to say about current happenings:

The new Straits Times. What do you think of it? I love the print design. I've always been a sucker for good content and layout. However I don't think the website underwent major changes. In fact I was slightly put off by having to register for news now. Jakob Nielsen once advised to delay customer registration as far as possible.

Many quality dailies worldwide allow you to access archives far back in the vaults of time without extra charge (here's another Nielsen article which concludes that retaining older content increases page views). The more well-known papers can get away with user registration (Washington Post, LA Times). One or two (NY Times, WSJ) might even get away with subscription fees in some form or other, because of the high value their services bring.

So I don't get why we have to register and still only receive the past 7 days' worth of news.

As I'm typing, CNA is announcing that an Aussie has been sentenced to hang for trafficking drugs. His last appeal relies on President Nathan. I wonder how our President feels. If he pardoned him, would that defeat the purpose of having strict drug laws, and seem an injustice to all other convicts who have been hanged? If he doesn't pardon him, would he feel guilty about it?

It is indeed a very difficult decision to make - much, much harder than our Minister of Law who rejected countless appeals from people like me, so that we could pursue law as a career in Singapore.

My life update

October 1, 2004 12:31 AM

I won't be answering all emails sent to me, though I'll try my best to read them. I will not be free on Thursday evenings, every week, every year. I prefer not to meet friends on weekends, because that is precious family time.

My priorities right now:

  1. Church work - Alpha and other courses, the church website and all related matters
  2. Work that I am contractually bound to do (i.e. the work of this world). That is to say, my day job and finishing up my freelance work.
  3. Music. Setting up my system. Fixing all the danged bugs on my system. Re-producing my old songs. Joining a band (yes I just agreed to be a keyboardist).
  4. The new house, which is coming up nicely.

How's work, some of you have asked. Work is good; I thank God for my job almost every day, I thank God for my boss, I thank God for my colleagues, I thank God that He has led me out of the valley of the shadow of death and I am never looking back. I thank God that I am doing work I like. I've decided that no problem is beyond His control; no worry is so great that He cannot appease; no evil spirit is so powerful that the name of Jesus/presence of the Holy Spirit cannot overcome.

And so, I go to sleep. Goodnight.

The search for less boring jazz

September 21, 2004 12:17 AM | Comments (7)

My jazz piano teacher told me I needed to listen to more music to give me ideas for improvisation. Buy more CDs? Oh, what a chore.

So yesterday I rushed home from work, changed my clothes, then dragged my feet over to That CD Shop in the space of half an hour. The Tanglin Mall staff are not as pushy/enthusiastic as the others but they did pick out a few good titles.

I'm at the stage where traditional jazz music makes me Bored with a capital B. I've had enough listening to slow ballads and different renditions of the same song which sound almost alike. I generally don't like jazz vocals, especially if the voice is typically warm and old and low, the music is slow, and the melody is familiar. Bo-ring!

And if I had to listen to vocalists, I'd prefer their voices to be young, edgy, off-beat, paper-thin, or rough-accented... Give me Kent, Ono, Nergaard, Badu, anything but the 'norm'. Maybe if I have sleeping problems I'd listen to what most people call jazz.

Anyway... after some concentrated listening, I picked up Monty Alexander's Straight Ahead (a compilation of two old albums, Trio and Overseas Special), and Hank Jones' The Touch. Good original piano improvisations, not too slow or Bo-ring, with a strong touch of Blues and harmonisation. At least I know I can't do what they're doing - yet. I mean, there's nothing much to learn if you don't hear anything new or different.

I also picked up a That CD Shop exclusive album from the High Society series, by Jazzamor. That was the album I had spotted during my last visit to another branch. It's a delightful bossa-nova chillout mix. I actually smiled when I heard one of the early tracks. They also had a bossa nova version of Jamiroquai's Space Cowboy! My favourite Acid Jazz tune!

Of course I am terribly biased, but also Bored. Let's hear it for new styles and new music!!!

For your information

September 10, 2004 1:06 AM | Comments (1)

Just in case you think I'm being specifically rude to you, I am actually not replying to most emails, and not answering to random text messages especially where it involves last-minute outings. I have not seen my mother for 2 days even though we live in the same home.

I worked on my own accord till 3.00am two days ago, reformulating my institution's website entirely in CSS. Vendor seemed politely interested in this new way of doing things. My basic layout and stylesheet files chalked up a total of 5KB. Not including images and JavaScript of course.

Brief observations: Apple is marketing iPods to students in the hope that they will then get Macs. It's obvious. I've been happily duped myself.

The battery-guzzling Apple Bluetooth Mouse has been relieved of its duties. I've reverted to my Microsoft Intellimouse Explorer 2.0. Irritating thing was that the software I downloaded was for OS9, and initially it didn't work. Then I located a driver recently released for OS X. Happily, it works. I can right-click on items quickly and scroll my pages. I handle Dreamweaver commands much more efficiently now. Sorry to say this, but I'm sticking to Microsoft for mice.

And incidentally, 'revert' is not a word to use when you actually mean to say, I'll get back to you. I see that sort of email response almost every day now. This point was listed in a book I bought recently on common mistakes Singaporeans make in English. Another one is when you say you're having an off day, which actually means that you're having a bad day or you're not feeling yourself. You probably meant to say, today is your day off. Of course you can say, "Today's an off day for me so I think I'll take the day off."

Speaking of books, I know I must update my reading list one of these years. It has not been updated for quite a while. I am reading entirely different books now on politics, cyberlaw and religion. All are half-read, in different parts of the house. All very interesting.

I want to do so many things yet I don't have the time. My blog is supposed to be redesigned and updated with MT3.1 functionality. I need a haircut. My car needs servicing. I'm still looking for a HP LaserJet print driver for Mac OS X. I still don't know the difference between all sorts of audio cables, and how to play back MIDI data from my Mac to my Korg Triton. I've only gone to the gym once this week.

I'm pooped.

More books

August 23, 2004 12:06 AM

I decided to make use of a Borders gift voucher, and picked up a few titles this evening. Worthy of mention are the screenplay of Love Actually (which I've just finished reading), and Lawrence Lessig's latest book, Free Culture: How big media users technology and the law to lock down culture and control creativity.

I will probably take a much longer time to finish the latter book, and many others I have purchased and left, half-read. We've been living in the apartment for just less than a year, and already I've accumulated half a truckload of books. Good grief.

What I did this week

August 22, 2004 11:41 AM | Comments (6)

On Friday I had the privilege of catching the opening night of the play, 'For The Pleasure of Seeing Her Again', adapted from the (Canadian) French original and performed by our very own Ivan Heng and Neo Swee Lin. I was not disappointed.

Literary buffs (or at least, former literature students) may experience some deja vu in the opening scene. The transition scenes were taken care of subtly. I particularly liked how the change of fashion and attitudes adopted by both characters indicated a new stage in their lives. I was tickled by Neo Swee Lin's impersonations. And what an ending! Contrary to expectations I did not cry, though I did shed a tear. That's enough. No spoilers from me.

On Saturday night, thanks to the persistence of friends, I did something I usually avoid: Karaoke. I felt as alien in a world of Cantopop as a fish out of water. The only song I knew how to sing was 'Yue Liang Dai Biao Wo De Xin' because at least I remembered the tune, if not all the words. However they did let me sing a few George Michael songs so it wasn't too bad.

Which makes me wonder if I am going through a culture shock in my English-only world. My colleagues speak a smattering of Mandarin and English and call me 'pantang' meaning 'potato', which is the equivalent of 'banana' (yellow outside, white inside).

Moreover, this Thursday's Alpha session was unexpectedly conducted in Mandarin because we had two guests who were much more confortable in the language, and they were giving wonderful testimonies to us. Made me wonder who was really learning - us helpers, or the newcomers!

And to top off the end of the week, I sat through nearly four hours of Mandarin and Cantonese songs. Phew! If I keep at this maybe I could bump my D7 grade back to a C6.

All's well

August 4, 2004 7:45 PM | Comments (1)

Yesterday, two good things happened to me: I signed my new work contract, and Macromedia enabled me to re-activate Studio MX on my new Mac.

Today, I started my new job and things seem to be working out fine, with God's grace. The working hours are humane - I actually get to see the sun when I leave the office! It felt a little strange but I'm sure I'll get used to it.

This will hopefully leave me more time for Macintosh-related activities like music production, and designing new layouts (time to revamp!) on my beloved Studio MX.

Also, my house group (and many other house groups from different churches in Singapore) will be hosting Alpha. If anyone's curious about Christianity, I'd be glad to put you in touch with the organisers.

Land ahoy!

July 31, 2004 11:02 AM | Comments (2)

The Star Virgo cruise ship

OK, so I'm back from the cruise. We watched some good shows in the style of Cirque du Soleil, complete with an opera singer from Belarus. There was a 21-year old midget from China whom I could have sworn seeing back in Singapore's Millennia Walk. I suppose he goes places... I also lost everything I put in the casino, which is a sign that I will probably have to work hard to earn my keep for the rest of my life!

There were probably a couple hundred mainland Chinese tourists and nearly 600 Indians, so you can imagine many exciting things happened around the buffet table. A Chinese man and an Indonesian or Taiwanese lady were involved in loud altercations during one of the shows, each shouting that the other had no manners. The few Singaporeans around were actually fairly well-behaved. We stopped over at Penang, then at Phuket. Both were enjoyable day trips.

But on board, everybody was over-eating! How could you possibly have a huge breakfast, a huge lunch, a big tea and then a huge dinner? Grossness! I starved myself for our last two meals (tea and dinner) and still felt full at midnight, back in Singapore.

However I made the mistake of going to the gym on the last day of the cruise. Less than twelve hours later, after an intensive upper-body workout involving my suspension in the air, doing body crunches, we were all crushed together in the port, fighting for our luggage with what felt like a thousand other people. I couldn't possibly let my old folks carry their heavy suitcases, so I did. What did not help was that they only opened one exit for all of us to squeeze through. I think our port is nowhere as well-run as our airport.

Anyway. See that cheesy picture at the top of this post? I have to resort to using a free image editor for OS X until I get my darn Macromedia Studio MX problem sorted out. It's an absolute shite story; if you read my letter to Macromedia below you'll see what I mean.

Sailing away...

July 25, 2004 9:43 AM | Comments (1)

I will be going on a cruise for the next four days, so take care and I'll catch up with everyone when I get back (or if I find an internet connection on board). Ta!

Telecom woes

July 19, 2004 9:15 PM | Comments (1)

Friends: don't try calling my mobile number in the next couple of days. My phone company might have disconnected my line, because today I received a letter worded in red ink (how that improves visibility, I have no idea).

The letter says I did not pay my June bill, citing a payment cut-off date which was two days ago (gee, thanks for telling me now).

I was bewildered as I have been dutifully paying my bills for the last four years. I use a common payment system called GIRO (to the non-Singaporeans, here's a simple definition of what it does).

However I didn't realise that my June bill (which took into account the calls I made while in the US) exceeded my GIRO limit. If and when I do get disconnected, they can only re-connect me a day after payment is received. On top of that, they will charge me a reconnection fee. On top of THAT, I still have to pay subscription fees for the period where I'm disconnected. How draconian can they get?

There is a gap in the system somewhere. My bank didn't tell me the bill couldn't be paid last month, and my telephone company didn't tell me I've gone past my payment cut-off date until it was too late.

However, both organisations are good at sending me promotional emails and text messages which I do not need. Now isn't that an effective, customer-centric use of resources?

[Update: SingTel didn't disconnect me, and on my latest bill they charged me for reconnection, then cancelled that fee (i.e. I didn't get billed for it in the end). Hallelujah.]

New beginning

July 9, 2004 5:56 PM | Comments (4)

I want to thank the Lord for giving me the strength to get through the most difficult period of my life, and for lifting me up when I was down.

I have just received an offer from a company I did like to work for, with a position I knew I would like to fill. More details to come once everything's been finalised.

As a Christian, I've come to realise that there is no point relying solely on my own strength to pull things through. Submit entirely to His will and be patient, for His reward will come in time.

How many Singaporean readers were hit by yesterday night's blackouts?

I was in the middle of redesigning vantan.org and had just hit upon the right colour combination and layout.... BEFORE I got to save the page. I suddenly found myself thrown in pitch darkness.

My immediate reaction wasn't something like, "Oh no! I'm scared!" but more along the lines of, "Shoot, I should have saved! Dammit!"

Anyway. Almost immediately, VanPod lit up in its dock right in front of me. Saved by the 'Pod! After setting its backlight to permanently on, it shone brightly enough for me to locate the torchlight in another room.

Blistering barnacles...

June 28, 2004 12:05 AM | Comments (2)

My bible study mates and I had a glorious time camping at Sentosa over the weekend and playing with their kids on the beach. My shoulders, however, now resemble that of a lobster's because I neglected to apply sun block all the way up my arm. Duh.

The last time I camped at an island in Singapore was back in '93 at Pulau Ubin. Despite every attempt to drown my skin with repellent, I acquired 50 mosquito bites all over my body (yes, I counted the bites on every limb and that was exactly it).

So on Saturday night I said a little prayer before I went to sleep, and didn't get bitten at all! Hallelujah.

Wish I prayed about sunburn too. My skin feels like it's about to erupt in blisters at any moment.

(*now praying for healing*)

Pic ripper!

June 8, 2004 1:31 AM | Comments (3)

My cousin recently discovered a pic of me and some family members, dressed in our Peranakan best, on a stranger's website. The photo was taken off an old blog entry of mine.

(No no no, we still had our clothes on, and I didn't get my face Photoshopped onto some Playboy bunny's body.)

While I was glad that someone's created a website on Peranakan culture, I was quite shocked that one of my personal photos was used without my knowledge and permission. I was even more unhappy because my aunts, sister and grandmother were also in the photo.

I think if this person had the decency to have asked me first, I wouldn't have minded so much. I do have a Creative Commons Licence, you know, and it isn't too restrictive. You just have to ask!!!

I have half a mind to write in and firmly remind this chap to have some Netiquette. I appreciate my photo being used to promote my heritage, and it doesn't look like a commercial site. But ... ugh. I feel cheapened! (This is the page in question.) I wonder if other photos on that website were also taken from other people's personal collections.

Some common sense guidelines to follow:

  1. If you saw something you like on someone's website, and there is a copyright notice, follow it.
  2. If there isn't an obvious notice, it is better to ask anyway. You might have missed the fine print.

Simple enough??

Reunion

June 6, 2004 2:04 AM | Comments (6) | TrackBacks (1)

The SCGS Class of '94 reunion went well. We met up with some of our old teachers, who could actually remember our faces if not our names. Even our principal was there. It was almost eerie that these teachers looked almost the same as they did ten years ago.

I asked my form teacher what was their secret to looking so youthful, and she said it was simply being with so many young students all the time!

In support of our alma mater, some of us (myself included) purchased commemorative postcards of the old school to raise funds for a new S$2 million sports complex. SCGS is currently the school basketball champion and two new courts will be built, among other facilities (we beat IJ! We beat RGS! We beat... everyone!).

It was good catching up with old friends and trying to remember everybody's names. I ended up exchanging more words with some girls than we had ever spoken to each other in our four / ten years in school! It helped that we were a pretty small cohort, about 200, and I estimate the turnout yesterday night to be around 50-60 people.

I know Van Heng is going to kill me for posting this, but I must!

Van Heng: (spots Hui Min) Wait, I know your name ... it's ...

Hui Min: (waits expectantly)

Van Heng: (gives up) Oh, bugger!

Hui Min: (shocked) What!? That's not my name! (Stomps off in mock anger)

Van Heng: No no nooo ...

Me: (Overcome with mirth) ...

It was there that I realised that more of you are reading my blog than I realised ... so, Helloo ladies, just in case you've tuned in to this site. It is flattering that some of you actually remember the minute details of my life. Thanks for stopping by.

Now kindly excuse me while I look for some cup noodles...

Older

May 25, 2004 6:16 AM | Comments (13)

One thing I like about spending my birthday in the States, is that it takes nearly a day longer for me to get older. Which is why it isn't my birthday until tomorrow :)

Stealing my Thunder

May 12, 2004 2:21 AM | Comments (6)

After using Mozilla's mail program, Thunderbird, for half a year, I have been pretty much satisfied with its functionality.

Apart from one thing, which may not really be Mozilla's fault.

You see, I'm the sort of person who likes to sync up my phone with my mail program. That way, I get to update my To-do lists, Calendar and Contacts.

The Nokia PC Suite works well enough with Lotus Notes and Microsoft Outlook. But nothing else. Thunderbird doesn't have a Calendar or a To-do list anyway, and even if there are extensions we can install, I am not sure if they will be able to sync with my phone software.

So it looks like I may revert to using Outlook for now.

Last night

May 4, 2004 1:08 AM

I found myself in an industrial-like building - concrete floors and walls - with people who seemed like strangers yet were familiar. It was a setting I had dreamt of before, many years ago. Yet part of it felt new.

I wandered about, talking with these friends of mine. Exploring the corridors and stairways. It felt more and more like my old junior college. I noticed some rooms had pianos. The ones on the lower floors were in better condition. But they were already occupied or assigned to other people. My own classroom (as the settings became increasingly similar to my old school) however was upstairs.

Intermission: The appearance of someone new, yet strangely familiar and special. I started falling, all in the space of 10 seconds as it felt in my dream. Fade out...

I was in our classroom. We had a broken, dusty old piano. My classmates stood a distance from me, watching. Some of the keys were fine. Others were almost deliberately off-key. Still reeling with emotion, I placed my fingers on the keys and played a tune. The song was marred by the sudden jarring of discordant notes, but I didn't care. I played on. I felt happy, like I had somehow vindicated my de/repression through music.

For some reason this tune felt special to me, yet I have never associated it with a milestone in any part of my life. It popped out of nowhere, to say the least.

I am still deliberating over the significance of its title: Let's Wait Awhile.

California dreaming

May 2, 2004 9:48 PM | Comments (3)

I will be heading off to Los Angeles, California, on 18 May. I will then move to Las Vegas and return to Singapore at the end of May.

I have a few places in mind to visit - art museums like the Guggenheim, as well as Universal Studios. I might also make a campus visit to USC. Feel free to post other suggestions.

The week in photos

May 2, 2004 12:35 AM | Comments (1)

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Happy: Adorably cheerful cocktail skewers. Spotted at Tangs.

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Hoppy: A Japanese beer we often drink when we dine at Bistro Cameleon.

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Not so happy: I wonder if the staff at GNC realised what they were doing when they stacked these bottles together.

Goodbye, Hello

April 25, 2004 11:10 PM | Comments (7)

I supposed now is as good as any other time to announce that I am on the lookout for new employment opportunities.

Yours truly has to decide whether to go back to web design (seeing how it may not be economically feasible to start a web standards consultancy here in Singapore), embark on full-scale music production, or focus on writing.

Any position requiring a quirky sense of humour and plenty of puns would be good. Other jobs suggested by various friends and colleagues over the past 3 years include script writer / dramatist / actor / radio dj or comedienne.

Whatever my choice is, I want to be happy with what I'm doing, and proud of my contributions. I've had that feeling before and I know I can do it again.

Taxes

April 14, 2004 10:46 PM | Comments (2)

I must declare that I finally filed my Income Tax (online, of course). And I definitely hit the last submit button. To be safe, I printed out my pre-submit page as well as the final page. I have filed my documents and kept them in a cool, dry place.

Soon after this momentous occasion, I came across an interesting and pointed Op-ed on the New York Times. If you could choose where your taxpayer's money went to, what would it be?

The number four

April 4, 2004 8:35 PM | Comments (4)

Four gigs. VanPod has just crossed the 1,000 song barrier with just over 4 gigabytes (3 continuous days) of music, and heaps more CDs to go. [Which goes to say that, cute as it may be, the baby iPod isn't enough for me.]

The album I was ripping was Mavi Muzik, a compilation of chillout music, mostly by Turkish and other middle-Eastern artistes. Mavi is to the Turkish, what Levi's is to Americans.

Multiple fours. Today, I visited two friends at their home. 'Nothing much to it, unless you see it in numbers: 04/04/04 at #04-40!

Long time no blog

March 21, 2004 1:09 AM | Comments (10)

Yours truly was feeling a little under the weather this week, hence the lack of blogging for a record 6 days.

VanPod is doing fine. The Belkin voice recorder works marvellously well. I made a recording in church last Sunday. I could hear the voice of the guest speaker clearly from the back row. A couple minutes later, my nearly-exhausted battery died unceremoniously, making a buzzing sound which I tried to stifle violently. Bad Pod!

In other, more important news, I finally got to see the light of the Holy Spirit during my weekly Bible Studies session. As we bowed our heads for the closing prayer, I saw through the darkness of my eyelids an incandescent bulb of light where each of my friends were sitting. When I opened my eyes to figure out what was going on, I only saw their physical selves. When I closed my eyes again, I saw a dazzling white light where each of them was sitting. As my group leader (sitting on my left) prayed, through my closed eyes I saw white flames and sparks coming out from his side, just as he mentioned key phrases such as giving God thanks. Amazing, isn't it. The Spirit lives in each of us who believe, let's not forget that!

Vienna Philharmonic

March 7, 2004 11:52 PM | Comments (1)

Another report of my unusually exciting weekend. The Vienna Philharmonic Orchestra was excellent, as expected. I went to the concert with 3 church friends (two of them were the couple I mentioned in a previous post). Standing ovations and two encores, what can I say.

The programme confirmed some initial suspicions based on years of classical music training and 'appreciation' classes. I'm still so-so with Schubert but at least I was vaguely familiar with his Unfinished Symphony [here's a funny joke about it]. I still find Mozart a little flighty though those three movements were more tolerable than most other concerts I'd attended. And I still like Rimsky-Korsakov.

Looking at the Orchestra's schedule for Singapore, it seems that they changed their plans to play my most favourite piece, Tchaikovsky's Violin Concerto in D major. Shucks.

Our stall seats were pretty good, if you're the sort who likes getting up close and personal. There was also enough space to fit a couple of deck chairs at the end - seriously. I could literally see the beads of sweat on maestro conductor Marcello Viotti's forehead. I could see the notes on the music scores. I could tell that a handful of musicians' faces were turning red under the light (or Singapore weather?). One bassist had white locks, reminding me of Santa Claus. The harp was huge, golden and ornate - almost divine. Never knew harps had pedals.

We spent our intermission time exploring the passageways in the concert hall. We could hear the Orchestra rehearsing in another chamber, through two 'vents' along the wall, at the frontmost part of the hall. Not that we could understand what they were joking about.

During the final rounds of applause, Viotti signalled for his star musicians to rise. One of my friends noticed that both flutists stood up. The conductor signalled for the second flutist to sit back down. Instead, the musician left in a huff. Fascinating. Anyway we had two encore performances; as expected they were trademark Strauss waltzes, loud and swift. An excellent evening.

A little reunion

March 6, 2004 11:46 PM | Comments (1)

Met up with Yams and Denzie last night. Gakkers (recently married) joined us later at the Dubliner's and showed us his wedding band. I actually did something that didn't involve 1) Computers 2) Housework!

This afternoon I had tea with the ladies, and we were joined by Shin and Wen (who is getting married soon). Yams would be leaving Singapore for home tomorrow so I was really glad to see her again.

After chatting for a while, I realised my knowledge of pop culture has shrunk to sub-zero levels, after years of deliberately not watching TV (save for the news and sports channels) and listening to local radio (fake accents, and not enough of my favourite music).

Some shockers:

  • I didn't know Harry Potter's girlfriend was Chinese.
  • I haven't watched a full espisode of Sex in the City (even while I was in the UK).
  • I don't know the names of any actors in Buffy. Sarah Michelle-something?
  • I have no idea who's been winning in any reality shows, after Survivor 2.

In my own lame defence, I have watched the William Hung video - only because they were showing it at a conference I attended recently.

But anyway. It was great catching up with people I hadn't seen in years. It was probably my most exciting weekend so far this year.

Got back from work at about 11pm, had a paltry leftover dinner, and finally got down to reading the newspapers!

So Kerry's had a near clean sweep of Super Tuesday. But Bush has a huge war chest. At the end of the day it will boil down to staying power - no point being ahead in the opinion polls now. Next thing to watch: Who's Kerry's Veep going to be? The New York Times has an unusual proposition: Bill Clinton.

And how on earth did Howard Dean win Vermont when he's left the campaign? Oh, it is Vermont, after all...

And Arnie's pushed through Resolutions 57 and 58 so there won't be 'armageddon' cuts in state spending. To quote him:

I love it when the people go to the polls and they flex their muscles and they let their voices be heard...

Funny how I imagined this scene from Tarzan...

Tribute to my Professor

February 29, 2004 1:10 PM | Comments (1)

I just learnt that my personal tutor in law school, Prof John Parkinson, passed away on 19 February 2004 of a brief illness.

I remember the first time I met him back in 1997. I knocked on his door at the appointed meeting time. I was standing in a hallway lined with with many other such doors.

"Enter," a crisp voice at the other end, called.

There was a man at the end of the room, seated at his desk. I was surprised by how he looked, because all the other professors I knew of, were old, balding, bearded and grey-haired.

"You look young for a professor," I ventured.

He smiled. "I look younger than I am."

John, as I called him, was a distant mentor in my first year. I only started seeing more of him when he became one of our Contract Law lecturers in our second year. I still remember how he described to us the case of the exploding coffin with a straight face, which made us roar with laughter. He apparently had a more devastating effect on my seniors, who were seen swooning and gushing about how smart he was, after one of his lectures.

I started talking more to him when he became my Company Law tutor in my final year. He gave me suggestions on how to improve my scores (which were admittedly not fabulous), and was willing to mark my practice essays promptly.

Hearing of his death prompted me to check my inbox for the emails he sent to me. I last wrote to him when I was applying for my Masters course at USC, last year. He agreed to be one of my referees. I was glad he even remembered me.

Rest in peace, John... God bless your family.

[Update: The Guardian had a respectful and sincerely written obituary on him on April 9, 2004. ]

The search for an MP3 player

February 28, 2004 1:08 PM | Comments (6)

We'll be looking around for an MP3 player this weekend so if you know of anything good, please post a suggestion. I haven't had time to do much research, and most of the people I know don't use any.

The storage capacity for our intended gift, doesn't have to be in the 30-40 GB range, but it has to be easy to use and sync with a PC. I'm thinking 256MB at least, and possibly up to 4GB.

Whatever the case, it shouldn't be too clunky or complicated. It would be nice to have a voice recorder and FM radio as well.

Naturally we considered the iPod first, but found it too pricey - and we were told it needed a separate Firewire cable to hook up to our computer. I don't like the idea of having to separately purchase and attach a microphone, either.

I hear Sony-Ericsson has a Bluetooth-enabled audio player coming out soon. I also picked up the latest copy of T3 and looked at the iPod alternatives.

Still I think nothing beats a visit to the shop, to try out the products and see if they're suitable for our individual needs. I'm going to look at some models from Creative, for reasons of portability and features.

Meanwhile, I'm going to try converting my Nokia 6600 into an MP3 player. I encountered a conversion failure yesterday using the PC Suite, while trying to beam it through my laptop + bluetooth dongle. If it works, we might be better off just getting a larger multimedia card.

[Thanks for the info, folks. As for those in Singapore, here's a great iPod deal from DBS. Thanks to Kim for the tip!]

The weekend

February 23, 2004 11:57 PM | Comments (2)

So many things have happened in the past few days, yet I hadn't the time to recount them on my blog until now.

On Saturday, I learnt to my delight that I am getting the Korg Triton Extreme as a birthday present (three months to go). That's absolutely brilliant, or might I say in Ali G-speak, "Wicked!" of my parents. They knew I was going to use my savings to buy it, and since I do put my existing equipment to good use (abuse, actually) they probably felt it was a worthwhile investment.

Earlier that day, I had also recorded a piece which I wrote back in Bristol, on the Clifton Hill House piano, for my mother who requested a CD of it for her birthday (which was on Sunday). Yes, the person who inspired the song also qualifies for a copy which can be collected upon return to Singapore ;-)

We missed the big match as we had dinner at Blu, but as expected Arsenal beat Chelsea again. I was also glad to hear that Smithy scored one for Leeds - best of all against the Red Devils.

Today I got to test pianos and electronic keyboards during lunch time. It was fun, I didn't want to leave! This is the third time I've been willingly dragged along by people to test keyboards before they made a purchase. Anyway this time the instrument will be used to play worship music - all the glory to God.

Happy Valentine's

February 14, 2004 7:22 PM | Comments (5)

None of us at home are doing anything special this Valentine's Day. As with many of my colleagues and friends, we think this occasion has become too commercialised. And it's not like we can't do something special for each other on any other day.

I know of women who have told their husbands not to buy flowers for them today because it's not worth the jacked-up prices. I suppose anniversaries and birthdays are more important, because they're personal to the couple. Nevertheless I'm sure the restaurants will be at full capacity tonight, with couples happily munching on set meals.

I wonder if anyone's come up with something more original tonight?

Updates for the weekend

February 1, 2004 11:34 PM

My home computer broke down. Sort of. You see, the CPU's power supply is running, but my monitor ("No signal input"), keyboard and mouse don't seem to think so. I have no idea how to fix it, and the guy we usually call for help seems to be out of town. I tried working on my office laptop which I brought home (yes, there's loads of work to do) but strangely it can only connect to URLs which I have visited recently. Which is very, very strange. So I'm hijacking my dad's PC for a while. Suggestions to solve either problem are welcome.

I finally cooked something in the new apartment. Something simple: bolognese sauce, to go with pasta (which I will boil tomorrow, which is the day of my company's pot luck lunch). Only problem is we don't have a microwave oven here. My fingers still have a garlicky-onion smell. Eugh.

From one dinner conversation, I discovered that at least six of my younger cousins blog. Interestingly, the other cousins closer to my age don't seem to have weblogs, but the ones who are still in primary school have started blogging. One of them started blogging after her class started a group blog.

My sister's gone back to Perth today so you know who's back to doing the laundry. Actually, popping clothes into a machine is easy. Ironing is tough. So's any form of cleaning up!

While resting between chores, I also watched Federer beat Safin (the Swiss is in peak form, but I think the Russian's cuter). Now I'm going to continue watching Chelsea beat Blackburn (I'm OK with both teams, but hey, if you had 100 million quid to spare, this sort of performance ought to be a given).

Off to Cebu

January 21, 2004 2:29 AM | Comments (1)

We're flying off to a resort in the Philippines in a few hours' time. I might not be accessing the Internet, so things will be a little quiet over here.

In the meantime, here's wishing all my Chinese readers Gong Xi Fa Cai :-D

Fare thee wells

January 21, 2004 1:11 AM | Comments (3)

I attended a couple of farewell dinners for Mark and Kristen this week (yes, I really love the couple, can't bear to be without them, yadda yadda). And this evening I finally got to meet Andrea. I first discovered her blog via an online directory, then noticed her site had photos of this couple I met at the Alpha course at St George's. That's how I discovered Kristen's blog. It's a small world, isn't it?

Anyway, we took lots of photos. The following were all taken with my handy Nokia 6600. Hubba, hubba, tell me they're good.

Re-filed

January 19, 2004 11:27 PM | Comments (1)

Well, the e-filing saga has ended (so I hope) thanks to a few telephone conversations with the Income Tax folks. I produced my print records, and they waived the fee. Hallelujah! Thanks anyhow to the kind souls who offered their help.

My plight was reported to a senior IRAS official, who happens to be a friend of a friend. I might be having lunch with him after Chinese New Year - he'd like to hear how the system can be improved. Which is great. Any system, no matter how revolutionary, can always be fine-tuned in the years ahead. Users' habits and demographics will change, so there is no one perfect system which will always stand the test of time.

The other thing I might be working on (time permitting) is my department's intranet home page. Not only was I excited when our Deputy Director (a pleasant lady) told me I was selected to do the revamp - I found out I was going to work with her counterpart from Marketing, who is my favourite boss of the month for simply being so clear in her directions and kind with her words. The sort that gets you on a high because you suddenly see your goals materialise in front of you, and you work not because you're forced to, but because you want to.

Oh well, enough gushing from me. It's time to catch the remaining minutes of the Wolverhamption Wanderers v Manchester United humiliation (I loved the Straits Times' headline: 'Dunces with Wolves').

De-filed, part 3

January 18, 2004 2:19 AM

I feel vindicated. After a night of intense paper-sorting, I located the printout of my 2003 Income Tax e-filing consolidation page!

And my memory didn't fail me - I did file early enough, two weeks before the deadline. Ha!

I burst out into song and dance, praising God whom I had an inkling was going to reveal something to me, but only after I had suffered and toiled and sorted out all my stray documents (yes, I was worked up for days). Lesson learnt.

There may still be a problem because the consolidation page was the second last step (it had Print and Submit buttons and I certainly hope I submitted it after printing!). I don't have a printout of the confirmation page and I hope that was because it looked really inconsequential and didn't have a Print button. Was this the same for everyone else?

What's wrong with the world?

January 12, 2004 11:51 PM

In order for me to transfer my domain name to a more reasonably-priced registrar, I have to fill up a fax form (there was an online processing error, my old web host doesn't want to help me, and my outgoing registrar says they can't touch my account which is still technically under my old web host).

In order for me to avoid being treated like a criminal, I have to fill up a paper income tax form due to what is most likely a technical glitch.

Whatever happened to e-empowerment???

De-filed, part 2

January 12, 2004 4:29 PM | Comments (3)

I like to think of myself as a dutiful citizen. I've been paying my taxes well within the deadline for three years. Well, at least I think I did that last year.

I just received a letter, nine months after the tax filing deadline, stating that I did not file my income tax and have therefore committed an offence under Section 62 of the Income Tax Act. What's more: under Section 94, I might be fined a maximum of $1000 unless I file my returns and pay a $100 fee within 14 days. If I don't comply, I face a court summons.

Oooh, I'm shaking. With outrage.

On my side, having filed my taxes with no major hiccups for the last few years, I might not have printed out the confirmation notice this time. Besides, even if I had done so, I might not have kept the printout since it's been nearly a year and I've moved house.

However I am wondering why it took IRAS nine months to notify me. Not only do I have to dig up all my old records, I now have to scramble to meet a 14 day deadline (make that 13).

Anyway, I thought I had better log in to efile.iras.gov.sg to check my status. The website is down, and it isn't looking pretty. The officer I spoke to on the phone said that was because the e-filing period was over. So I have to re-file my returns on paper.

Ironically, despite e-filing my returns every year, no payment has ever been required from me because I haven't earned enough. I believe I am innocent and there has been a mistake, yet it is assumed I am guilty. I even e-filed early this year so I could get bonus points! I have also spoken to other people who have also been overcharged by mistake, but found it too troublesome to lodge a complaint or listen to an automated voice telling them to wait a while longer.

It may be time to write a letter...

Unresolved

January 2, 2004 1:00 AM | Comments (2)

Happy New Year. I haven't quite decided what my New Year's resolutions are going to be.

I'd like to be more punctual - but if everyone else isn't, then I'd just wait around like an idiot (which happens frequently enough already).

I'd like to lose more weight. And stay there. But Christmas and New Year were just over - and there's Chinese New Year round the corner. How could I possibly resist it?

I'd definitely like to further strengthen my relationship with God - though that shouldn't be treated like a new year's resolution but a lifelong pursuit.

I think I'll think about my resolutions a little longer.

Begone, evil spirits

December 29, 2003 9:55 AM

Yesterday, as I sat at the dining table having lunch, I saw from the corner of my eye, my sister, in her black t-shirt, walking quickly up, going behind me and moving into the kitchen. I turned around to ask her what she was doing, but there was nobody in the kitchen or the adjoining laundry room. It was a dead end.

Puzzled, I walked towards the living room area, only to find that my sister and father had been watching TV for the last 10 minutes and hadn't left their seats at all.

Maybe this sort of thing has happened to me long enough to not get shocked about it. I decided it was either a) really a spirit, or b) I was hallucinating. I said prayers, played worship music, and let the matter rest, because there was no use getting the family worked up about it.

Then this morning while at work, my sister messaged me saying she went back to bed, lay down with her head turned to the left, and heard whispering on the right side of her head: psspsspssppssspssspss. Sibilant. Her body stiffened. She called out to Lord Jesus Christ, and the spirit disappeared. Thank the Lord for His kind mercy and protection.

Still, I am seething at the moment. How dare they attack my sister?? And we've been in the new place for only a few months. Why are they only appearing now that she's back? I think it's time for another house blessing, and they must be gone! Amen!

Bah, humbug

December 25, 2003 3:09 AM | Comments (5)

This is the most un-Christmas Christmas I've ever had.

We don't have a tree - we have no space, and I do not count a 1-foot high fir cutting placed in a pot, as a tree.

I didn't send out a single card this year.

I am not going to do anything fancy with this site for Christmas, because I haven't had time.

I just spent 2 hours - after attending the midnight church service - ironing clothes.

Merry Christmas, anyway.

[Too sleepy to think of a title]

December 20, 2003 1:15 AM | Comments (1)

I've been feeling a little run down of late, both physically and mentally. My body has been crying out for more sleep. My mind falls asleep when it should be at work. Yet I find myself unable to stop... surfing and blogging (see what I mean?).

Anyway, I cheered up a little when I found out that another old namesake (and Bristol senior) of mine has a blog, too. It's a goody-bag of quirky anecdotes, one-liners, wacky and original poems, and even full transcripts of Singaporean political dialogue. Bright and cheerful, very much like the person I know in real life.

Launched in Johor

December 15, 2003 12:53 AM | Comments (2)

We drove to Johor, Malaysia this afternoon to attend a book launch. The book in question was written by a relative of ours, about a famous ancestor who built palaces for the Sultan of Johor. Some of these structures still stand today.

Since young, all I could remember was the photograph of an old man, dressed in the traditional Chinese fashion, complete with white whiskers. We hear he was a very nice man who never said an unkind word to anyone. Being well-liked, he caught the attention of the Sultan, who at the time was looking to build more palaces to boost his reputation.

Because of this, a kampung and main road was named after him. If you should ever drive to Malaysia, after reaching Johor via the Causeway at Woodlands, look out for Jalan Wong Ah Fook round the corner. The old man's really done us proud.

On the way home, we spent two hours at the Causeway, stuck in a terrible jam. Tempers and engines were overheating. One driver adjacent to us tried to vent his frustrations by sounding his horn constantly, although nobody could move and nothing could be done about the jam.

Even more motorists attempted to change queues upon realising that their line wasn't moving as quickly as others'. Naturally, not everyone was able to cut in. In the meantime, we heard on the radio that Saddam Hussein had been captured.

We finally returned home, tired but relieved. I watched some football and was glad to see Arsenal win, and Leeds, well, take the lead. Tomorrow I hope Thierry Henry becomes World Player of the Year. [Update 15/12/03: Hmph, I'm tired of seeing the same people win all the time. Well done anyway, Zizou.]

Bits of news

December 11, 2003 12:48 AM | Comments (1)

Fellow codies: You might like this blog, too. I do. I'm glad that there are more of us around than I thought. Lucian will know what I mean.

Absolutely tired tonight, after watching the excellent Love, Actually, with my old friend JS. Have loads of work to complete by this weekend, so excuse the silence that may persist. 'Night.

A parting shot

November 24, 2003 11:40 PM | Comments (2)

Today I realised I'm definitely not an MGS girl, as I just seared two of my fingers trying to iron my dad's shirt. Since I'm nowhere near marrying well (or marrying, period!), and since I don't think I'm too 'boring' a person, I'm starting to wonder if I really belong to my alma mater SCGS either. Where on earth did my white blouse go??

Anyway, kudos to the group of old Raffles girls who set the record straight and spoke up on other schools' behalf. This stereotyping is getting a little overplayed, I mean, who'd expect a follow-up article with caricatures (not included in the online version, so the last few lines won't make sense).

I'm starting to wonder if it all began like this:

Editor: Our Forum page is getting a little skimpy. Singaporeans have run out of things to complain about! EZ-Link, GST, slimming pills, rude taxi drivers... we're all getting blasé!

CMH: I know! I'll write a silly article with very little substance in it, bash my own alma mater and maybe a few other schools as well, making use of my limited (and rather negative) knowledge of friends' experiences, to illustrate each point.

Editor: Brilliant! Everyone will get so riled up, that the letters will just come pouring in!

And so the story goes...

[Note: Articles on the ST website may expire 7 days after publication. Money talks, y'know.]

East Coast dreams

November 22, 2003 7:56 AM | Comments (7)

This morning I sent our maid off to the airport. She's been with us for six years so the least I could do was to get up at 5 something in the morning to drive her to the airport myself. She asked me to inspect her bags last night and this morning, but I refused, because I trust her. We are going to miss her.

One good thing about going to Changi airport is having the chance to drive down the East Coast Parkway (ECP), because it is the most beautiful expressway in Singapore. Lined by trees on either side, with flowering bushes, the Singapore cityscape on one side, and on the other, our booms. In one glance, I was reminded of our position as a financial centre and port.

"Look, this is where I work," I pointed at a building, while trying to continue driving in a straight line. "Very far [away from home]," was all she could say.

The ECP is also a road I remember fondly, for many years before I was born, a young man, barely seventeen (which was the legal age for driving then) would take this same expressway to visit his girlfriend who lived, for a period of time, in Katong. That young man was my father, and of course the young lady was my mother.

The ECP is also the route I take to visit my good friend Aimin, who throws great BBQ parties, and my bestest friend Van Heng, who is returning from the States soon. Of course there are bittersweet memories - how I used to cycle at East Coast Park with ex-colleagues who, after the closure of our newspaper, were no longer in the mood to meet up every weekend. Passing by my old music school gave me the shivers - because that was where I and other students, as children, were sometimes scolded and even beaten for not performing well.

But all in all, it was a good drive, and now I am too awake to go back to sleep again. I have a wedding to attend later in the morning, but for now, it's time I did some ... housework.

Spot me! Spot me!

November 19, 2003 11:58 PM | Comments (3)

Dear Sir/Madam

Congratulations! Our records show that you have successfully maintained a clean driving record. For 5 years from xx to xx you have not received any demerit points. Neither have you committed any serious traffic offences.

We hope you will maintain this clean record by continuing to observe traffic rules, and by being safe and courteous while on the road.

Our recognition of your efforts is part of the Road Safety Outreach Programme to promote road safety awareness among all road users - motorists, motorcyclists, cyclists and pedestrians.

As part of this programme, we will be on the look-out for courteous motorists, throughout the whole of November and December this year. Motorists spotted displaying exemplary behaviour like signaling early, giving way or waving to say thanks will be rewarded with attractive prizes.

Once again, congratulations for doing your part in keeping our roads safe for everyone.

Sincerely,
xxx
Commander
Traffic Police Department.

Priorities in life

November 16, 2003 12:53 PM | Comments (7)

So we're in the papers today. I hope this doesn't start another influx of questions like, "So, you did law, har. Which firm you at? Eh? How come you not lawyer? Isn't the pay very good?" because that pisses the heck out of me - and people really have been saying that since I graduated.

The other thing I want to comment on is another Life! article by a Raffles Girl (note to non-Singaporean readers: Raffles Girls' School is our country's top secondary school for girls, at least for academic performance, as she says). She also wrote something about my own school, SCGS (another school usually in the top 10) which I felt would give readers the impression that we are shallow social climbers who are only looking for wealthy husbands.

Singapore Chinese Girls' School girls are said to marry well - because they mix with the right crowd. But if you're not from the right kind of family to begin with, life can be tough. Or so some SCGS girls say.

I have no idea who her SCGS friends are, but in defence of my schoolmates may I say that most of us are actually quite down to earth. In my ten full years there, I do not recall any girl being ridiculed or ignored for not having enough pocket money, or having a father who is a lorry driver - not even while she was out of earshot. I would like to believe that our teachers and principal imbued us with a fair amount of values, and that we are turning out as the Kim Geks that they wanted us to be. And that is what the writer said she wanted in an education!

Personally I abhor the thought of rubbing shoulders with people from high society just because they are famous. I find that insidiously fickle and shallow. I value friendship, not bank accounts, looks and status. Not to say that my 'bestest' friends are poor, stupid and ugly ;-P but I am sure they know what I mean. If you thought about each of your oldest friends, you'd have a fond memory or an endearing personality trait in mind. If the first thing that comes to your mind is: my friend X is so-and-so's daughter/niece/sibling, then I'd say you don't really know the person, and you've got the wrong idea about friendship.

I've digressed a little. I do agree with the rest of the article that academic achievements aren't everything. Many other qualities in a person can go unnoticed or are undervalued, such as honesty. Why tell the teacher she gave you extra marks, when that means lowering your score? Should we also get 'integrity points' along with our extra-curricular activity points?

I also notice that many children don't have time nor energy to explore the world beyond their syllabus, because it already is too much to cope with. Their schoolbags are almost as heavy as they, and everyone looks like a little Ninja turtle, as a friend of mine calls it. We start wearing spectacles before our age hits the double digits, and many of us have had tuition, outside of school hours. Living on a tiny island, surrounded by giants, we know that human beings are our only resource. Something's got to give. And I think it has.

Odours.

November 12, 2003 11:16 PM | Comments (7)

I dislike the smell of rotting freezer water. Especially on my clothes. We cleared out the rest of the now-unfrozen stuff this evening after we all got back from work and I am pooped. I have absolutely nothing to write about anything new I've surfed across, because I haven't had time nor means to use the Internet today. Please pardon the silence... it may persist for a while.

In other news, I received news that there is an SCGS 1994 reunion (yes, that's how old I am) and some old girls have already responded. To protect their privacy (email addresses), I won't give the link - send me an email and I'll forward the page to you.

I nearly spent the last hour wading through pitch darkness - thank God I brought my grandma with me (I feel I was somehow 'persuaded' to ask her along, just this time, and boy am I glad I listened to Him) to inspect the house at night, because there was a blackout when the demolition began on the other side. Grandma unpicked the canvas sheets tied over each pillar, then I had to crawl underneath the house to check the fuse box. Later we emptied out melting items in the refridgerator. It was nearly midnight in pitch darkness. There seemed to be nobody in the lone guardhouse in our garden. I was half afraid we might be mistaken as burglars.

In fact, I didn't own a torch until this evening when I picked one up at the supermarket. Then when I asked Grandma along, she brought another torch too. If not, I'd have been groping about the house in pitch darkness!

Anyway...Why was I going to the house at that time of night? Because I was too darn busy this morning and afternoon and evening with administration and medical checkups. I'm starting my new job today. That's really all I have to say, and I will tell my friends about it in due time.

More about me

November 8, 2003 10:51 AM | Comments (7)

Yes, I have restored the Menu section to its former glory, after numerous checks for bugs in my contact form. My 'About' section has been updated/rewritten. It's nice to get mails from you.

And another thing. After many years of ridiculing this practice, I decided to relent, and rebond my hair. Like, yesterday. It's really weird because my hair doesn't feel like ... my hair! They raked in lots of thick pasty chemicals, steamed my hair (twice, because my hair is that resistant) and then ironed it even flatter. At one stage they re-pasted my hair and spread them out on sheets of foil. I looked like a Samurai!

All in all, I had to sit at the salon for four hours. Thank God for recent copies of the Economist and Home Living. (While I was preoccupied with something else, the ladies attending to my hair quietly took away my copy of the Economist and eventually replaced it with a few trashy mags)

So anyway, my hair is amazingly tame now. Previously, all I'd need was a strong wind to mess things up again. Now, everything will fall into place ... just like those Vidal Sassoon / Pantene / Organics ads. Swoooosh!

Read on to view pictures...

Battle spoils

November 5, 2003 11:13 PM

I have emerged victorious from Orchard Road, bringing home several retail spoils, namely in the skirts department. However my bank account sustained a few heavy losses, though I expect the troops to recuperate in time.

I received a shock when I typed in 'club21[dot]com'. Club 21 is one of our premier retail outlets which carries many outstanding brand names. Anyhow, I landed at a porno site! After evading the popup windows I did another search. Who would have thought the proper address was 'clubtwentyone.com'. Doh.

[Update: And as for the hair ... well, this comic strip makes me feel a little better!]

Finally, Friendster

November 4, 2003 11:04 PM | Comments (4)

All right. So I finally decided to sign up for a Friendster account, after continued pestering by certain friends. Then I found out there are a hundred and one other Vanessa Tans, some of whom also call themselves 'vantan'. *shudder* I haven't put up a photo, so please don't mistake me for some hot vixen with long hair (think: opposite!).

Since then, I have accumulated over 200,000 friends in my personal network of 12 (and counting). I have been approached by old friends, mostly from university, who were also on Friendster. What made it more intriguing was the fact that I had lost touch, or maintained minimal contact, with them. Now I can find out their status (single/attached), what they were doing, and maybe a few more things I'd never have known about them. And of course, who THEIR friends are.

Wardrobe update: No additions so far. Found something quite delightful (and red) at British India today, decided against it as it wasn't suitable office wear, and left the shop empty-handed (as with 99% of shops I visit). Come on, me, I have to boost the retail sector!

The big move #1

October 17, 2003 11:08 PM | Comments (10)

I'm ill. With a runny nose, slight cough, headache and a fever that just went away. It's a feeling I'm not used to, seeing how I've only taken medical leave once in two working years. To make things worse, I spent the whole morning and afternoon moving house. The amount of junk we have is astounding. I mean, if you took away half the things in my room, I wouldn't notice the difference (unless you took away my computer. We're subliminally connected, you know).

When it boils down to essentials, all I really need at home is something to sleep on, something to brush my teeth with, soap, a towel, comb and clean clothes.

On that premise, I threw away most of my greeting cards and other memorabilia accumulated since I was in primary school. Friendships, as a close friend advised me, stay in the heart and not on pieces of paper. I did however keep a few letters that dealt with key issues in my life over the years.

What delighted me, however, was the re-discovery of many creative works (sketches, cartoons, poetry, short stories, plays and songs) and a few books which I thought I had lost for good. So, to make packing a little more enjoyable, I designated a 'creative box' in which all my works are now residing. When things settle down, I will run through my works and perhaps put up a little showcase on this site, so watch this space.

In the meantime, I'm exhausted. I'm going to rest for a while. Goodnight.

As promised, my friend K kindly compiled a list of SMS's I sent her an hour before Q's surprise party.

To understand what on earth was going on last Friday evening, here is the situation in brief. As Q, the birthday girl, was getting a lift from K, who was supposed to drop Q off to meet her family for a simple, quiet dinner, THEN zip around to the car park of the same building to meet me and the rest of the conspirators, I dared not call K - just in case Q would overhear our plans in the car.

I knew could still reach K by SMS. But what if Q, being a good friend of K's, decided to be helpful and read out my text messages - thereby uncovering my secret coordinates?

So I wrote in code. I had already made it to the underground car park, and needed to beam my location to my partner in crime and let her know I was going to start blowing up the balloons:

Destination reached. Ship has been docked at rear section. Initiating air transfer.

After my first attempt (which was eventually successful), I realised why I never wanted to blow those friggin' balloons again. The back of my jaws felt like they were going to burst:

One up. Eleven to go. Reserving the pink and red ones for you. Cheeks exploding.

Did I omit to say that K loves red and pink? I am just too thoughtful a friend. Anyway. My second attempt on a yellow balloon was more ambitious, resulting in an unfortunate accident which has since adversely affected my complexion. I told myself NEVER to blow too hard again. Since it was rather lonely by myself in the car park, I decided to let out my misery to K once again:

First casualty, yellow regiment. Exploded without warning. Recalibrating air pressure transfer. Face skin in pain.

Where in Singapore was K, anyway? I soon received a status report. K was still waiting for Q, who was late, apparently, but fortunately so were Q's parents. That meant I'd have to lie low in my secret hideout and continue to inflate balloons. I ignored strange looks from passers-by who had parked their cars next to mine. I blew up a third balloon, which didn't explode. Unfortunately, my first balloon started to deflate. Guess I really blew it. Feeling irritable, I thumbed another text message to my comrade, wishing she'd get over at once and help me with this most tedious task:

Situation grim Blue regiment retracted without warning. Cheeks hurting . Require backup troops.

I managed a fourth, and called it quits. Well, actually, I called it something else in Anglo-Saxon, but it isn't suitable weblog material, so there.

Thus ends our surprise party text message transcript. K eventually found me in the car park, blew a couple balloons and together we sneaked in for the surprise. Actually, we were afraid Q would notice her friends through the glass windows, so we covered our heads with the balloons and waltzed our way up to her table!

Addendum: At the party, after relating our underground adventures to the other guests, Q's dad exclaimed, why didn't you tell me? I have a helium pump!!

Personal updates

October 4, 2003 11:31 PM | Comments (7)

Red face

Yesterday, while planning a surprise party for Q, I ended up blowing balloons in my car (it's a long story). They were heart-shaped, meaning it was twice as difficult to inflate. My cheeks felt like they were going to burst. So did the second balloon. One piece hit my forehead, the other, under my lower lip. It felt like a very, very hard slap.

This morning, I woke up with a painful, prickly swelling under my lip. I put some anti-allergy cream on it. It's evening, and the red patch is still there. I'm trying awfully hard not to touch my face. I pray it'll go away soon.

Shreds

I spent most of this evening shredding paper. Namely, a tinful of receipts on everything I've ever bought, since 2000. Considering it's been three years, I am glad my receipts only filled up a cookie tin. I decided to run them through the paper shredder, because our credit card numbers, names, and expiry dates are on each credit card receipt. Meaning, anyone who rummages through your dustbin will be able to buy things over the Internet. Scary thought, isn't it? No point having 128-bit encryption in your browser, if all that's needed is a small slip of paper.

Moreover, some shops also print out your full credit card number on their own receipt. From those shops, only Borders and Tower Records listed my number on their receipts as XXXX XXXX XXXX 1234, which I think is a much more secure practice. Just felt like telling everyone to be a little more careful.

Busy

We will be VERY, VERY busy over this weekend and the rest of the week. So I'd like to keep my social obligations down to a minimum. Please understand I cannot promise to help with anything until our work is done. Hopefully, by next week everything will be cleared out and I will have cause to celebrate with my fellow Alpha Greens.

Cats and dogs

September 25, 2003 11:27 PM | Comments (3)

Today it rained and rained and rained. From morning to early evening, it was pouring buckets. Wielding my trusty umbrella, I got out of the car and stepped gingerly around huge puddles in the uneven pavement. I made a quick dash across a road on the way to the office. When I reached the other side, I noticed an old lady standing at the edge of a shophouse, newspaper in hand, looking a little forlorn. The rain was so heavy, I didn't think her newspaper would have done any good, and neither did she, it seemed.

I indicated to her that I could provide some shelter for her. She brightened up at once, and pointed out where she wanted to go.

Naturally, she wanted to cross the road. So I ended up back on the same side of the road as before. All in all, it was quite funny.

And I'm glad I brought my umbrella.